what sort of man am I...  

blackjack4742 38M
6 posts
5/24/2005 2:41 pm

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what sort of man am I...

I need to rebuild and restart my life, with a new job, new experiences, and some new people.

Yet I can't rid my mind of her. The more time goes by, the angrier I become. The more hate I feel towards her...for everything she has done. I have to decided whether or not to act on that anger, or to just let it go, with her.

Would it be healthy in anyway to act on anger? For example, we have cell-phones together. The bill still comes to me, she does help pay for it. She can't have a cellphone on her own, for credit reasons. I believe she could get one through her family. Should I cancel her number? Her service? It's in my name, she can be flaky with bills. It would feel good, and seems within my rights...it was part of our life, if she wants out, she can't have it anymore.

Is that a healthy expression of anger?

Cancelling a cellphone is nothing compared to leaving someone with five plus months left on a joint lease, bills pilling up because she spent money on things she "needed", and me the only person to deal with it. Fuck her.

It might make me feel a little better, but nothing will fill that hole she left. My only comfort is, no matter what she is doing, she feels it as well. She views it as weakness.

I am not weak. I am the strongest man she ever knew.

Fuck it, I'm cancelling the number.

rm_jayR63 59F
1884 posts
5/24/2005 3:33 pm

You really need to move on.
Anger is not beneficial. Negative energy....sha chi.
Affects the immune system.
She can get a cell phone without credit using something like trac-fone on one of the many other pre-pay plans.

bella_ 47F
4030 posts
5/24/2005 4:29 pm

Move on bello, anger gets you nowhere...it just festers...life is great and there are a lot of wonderful women out there just waiting for you.

rm_Elysia2005 43F
412 posts
5/24/2005 10:45 pm

Now that you've made your decision LOL I say cancel the phone. Should she be the type to make a fuss, simply tell her that it's a rather painful, recurring reminder of the fact that your lives used to be so intertwined and are now separate. She's the one who made the choice that you should not be together anymore, and it's time for her to face the consequences.

And when you've cut that tie, and any other comparable ones, then yes. Let go, move on, God bless...

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