Kinda Bummed Out  

bigdaddy71365 51M
222 posts
4/24/2006 9:49 am

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4/25/2006 2:53 pm

Kinda Bummed Out

I don't know why i am really here, I don't know if i'll be here much longer, ive met some very nice people from all over, would like to spend time with most of you, some i would like to know intimately, but i don't know if i'm cutout for this, i am married and having problems, because of that i pay a price, all because of the M word, oh well,
This morning i got my test results back from the cardiolite stress test last week and it showed that the right main artery that was stinted recently is re narrowing, so i have to have anther heartcath next week, this will be the fourth one since christmas, So i guess we know why i am so bummed, actually it fucking sucks, i feel like my life is falling apart, i'm to young for this shit,
Needed to vent.

BIG D.....

Linds1957 59F

4/24/2006 10:36 am

goood luck hon.. My thoughts and prayers are with you

bigdaddy71365 51M

4/24/2006 12:30 pm

    Quoting Linds1957:
    goood luck hon.. My thoughts and prayers are with you
Thank you Linds for your kind words,

beamer52up 64M

4/24/2006 9:03 pm

Hang in there Big D.

You'll be fine. It's great that they have the technology to find that stuff out before it becomes a life threatening problem and it's great that they can fix it. The alternative is not something you or your loved ones would like. This way you'll be around to watch the Steelers for many years to come. Maybe you'll even live long enough to see Cleveland beat them!!!

As far as the other thing goes, I am married too. I also wonder why I am here. Some days it seems like the right thing to do. Other times it seems like the wrong thing to do. I think it adds a certain amount of stress to our lives. I'm just wondering if the stress, and the guilt is worth it.

Stress can be a real health wrecker. Engaging in certain activities while trying to conceal those activities from someone close to you adds generates a tremendous amount of stress. That can't help your heart.

I feel the stress myself and I don't like sneaking around.

Still debating whether I should be here or not. I do think that if someone is on this site or doing other extramarital activities long enough the probability is they will get caught eventually.

Is it worth ruining my marriage? I don't think so. So why am I still here?

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