Rethinking and reformulating.....  

berrigal2 60F
283 posts
10/8/2005 9:08 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Rethinking and reformulating.....

I sometimes feel like I have outstayed my welcome in AdultFriendFinder. I have learned so much about myself by being here. And I have made some very good friends. But my goals have changed. I no longer desire sex outside my marriage. I want my family to come first. I guess that is the best benefit of being on here for over a year. I learned how precious my home life and my hubby are.

I have soul searched the past few weeks...I guess that's the reason for the depressing posts sometimes. I didn't like what I saw when I looked into the mirror.

I am not a person that takes relationships lightly....but I acted as though I did in some of my posts.

I am not a person that craves sex and attention from strangers...but I acted and sounded as though I did!

I am not a person that cares so little about myself that I would put myself in danger by being with someone that could endanger not only myself..but my family.

I was curious when I first came here..curious and lonely. I'm not lonely anymore...I have friends (some of you included) and family that love me.

I am more than just a nic and picture on a sex site. I am a nice person. I am just me...sometimes crazy and goofy...and sometimes down and depressed. I think we are all that way.

Now with that said...I don't intend to judge anyone's reasons for being here...I just know the reasons I originally came here for do not exist anymore.

OH GUESS WHAT??? I am going back to graduate school in January!!! Hubby agreed it would be a good idea and I think I can handle it again. I still want to write MBA after my name...just once before I kick the bucket of life..lmao

I won't be here as much...might check in from time to time..but probably won't blog but once a week if that.

avlicker2 54M

10/9/2005 10:06 pm

Good luck with your life and graduate school!!!! I totally understand your "full circle" year with AdultFriendFinder as I have similar thoughts at times.

PillsburyCodeBoy 60M

10/10/2005 5:02 am

Oh, wow. There's so much to respond to here. I'll be talking with you soon, and I want to hear more. But for now I'll just say ... congratulations on going back to school! I know how much that's meant to you for a long time.

Way to go, girl!

cajunpet 70M
1185 posts
10/10/2005 12:01 pm

I will keep you in my Watch Blog List.

Congratulations on going back to graduate school in January.

So, you want MBA - Main Battle Area, Make Busy Arrangements, Master Bullshit Artist, Media Bloggers Association, Minimum Burst Altitude, Mountain Bike Action, after your name. LOL

Take care.
Keep On Blogging!!!! Have a great day.

Cajun Pet

rm_gent258 68M
486 posts
10/11/2005 8:24 am

Its seems like AdultFriendFinder served its purpose for you. Good luck on your work in grad school! In my case, I am unhappily married. We have been through years of counseling and there has been no improvement, but I don't want a divorce for several reasons--one is financial. So I am looking for an extramarital, long term relationship.
Again, good luck!

berrigal2 60F

10/11/2005 8:26 am

Thanks guys!!!

rm_bigguy5910 58M
38 posts
10/13/2005 7:40 am

Good luck with school .......Dont leave we need YOU....We look forward to reading your post everyday & blog......smiling

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