Empty bed...  

bellabelissima 52F
16 posts
1/18/2006 9:12 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Empty bed...

Just got back from work. It was a busy day. Lots of sick animals and difficult animal-owners. How is it that people seem to think it is fine to yell about the bill at the vet clinic, but pay and smile thankfully when visiting their own Doctor? Hey we're here to serve and help your animal just as much as your Doc is there to help you, but we can't do it for free..neither the Doc or we.

Crazy cold here in Sweden. Snow on the ground and the wind blows through all layers of clothing. I am lucky though, I wrap myself in my Canada Goose and feel protected against anything almost.

My heart is not protected though.

I curse myself for having let 'him' back into my life again. I hate myself for having listened to him and believing him.

He, who betrayed me a year ago and now came back and said he was so sorry and that I was the only one, the only one he truly wanted and loved. It felt so good to fall into his arms again. Kiss those familiar lips, touch that hairy stomach and feel him inside of me. It was so warm, so good, so loving.

Once a cheat always a cheat.

I emailed someone and found out he was still seeing the American woman. The same woman whom he betrayed me with when they both worked in The Green Zone in Baghdad.

I wasn't the only one.

She thought she was the only one too.

I slapped him. I threw him out. I yelled, screamed and threw a fit and now all is quiet and my bed is empty and I have to sit on my hands NOT to sms him. NOT to call him, NOT to email him.

He is here on the AdultFriendFinder. When I found out, he said it was just for fun, to explore. Curiousity...

I closed my eyes and loved him.

Now I am here.

Curiousity. What is 'out there', what is this place and what can I find here?

Somehow I knew I had to take this 'second round' with him, just to make sure.

Please tell me I don't have to take a third.

rm_need4fire2 63M

1/18/2006 10:35 am

No you dont have to take it again..drop him and move on ..it hurts i know..we all went through it at some point..learn from it if you can ..just know when to say enough.

gemini0157 59M  
6842 posts
1/18/2006 1:48 pm

I can't honestly tell you that you will find what you are looking for here....But that in no way means you should go for round three. Play around a while and see what your options are and not just on this site..... maybe you deserve better..... think?

DiscreetMessage 41M

1/18/2006 7:46 pm

I do not think you will find Mr Right here (only Mr Right-now). The loving you seem to want is had here by the hour. As long as you know that 99.99% (recurring) of men here (including me, I must admit) want a discreet side-line relationship. Now you choose.

People come here for a laungh (at the office/school: look this 45yo bloke sent me), or to get (hopefully, but generally in vain) laid.

Just my blantant and very blunt opinion on men and relationships as a general rule.

porschedriver62 52M
1 post
1/21/2006 10:29 am

Dear Bellissima,
no, I wouldn't give him the chance of a third round but that is me. What it matters here is you and why you offered him a second round itself. Are you sure you didn't have suspects on him? I don't know, but if you didn't have suspects I think you wouldn't check on his current relationships. So, my point is: even if you had doubts you allowed him a second round. What would have happened if you didn't give him this second chance? You can surely find the answer by yourself: and when you know this answer you will know what to do about a third chance..

(Juan S)
2642 posts
1/23/2006 6:23 am

Most people are here to find what they are missing or searching for. Some people as in life, are just Greedy...Don't fall for his third. Once can be a mistake. Twice is a sign...

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