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9/5/2005 9:19 pm

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Well, it is September already. My how the summer has flown. Things are looking up a little bit for me. My birthday is September 11th. I will be the big 3-0.I feel old. My sister is 41 this year. We are 11 years and 6 moths apart. Her oldest child, a son, will be 27 this year. Yes she was 14 when she had him.

But I am bummed. Money is gone. Can't afford medicine. Mom can't even afford to get me something for my birthday. First time in 30 years, I won't get a gift from my mom.

It's also the first birthday without my father. I don't know how I will be able to handle it. I can't work. Taking care of my mom is a full time job.

If anybody has any ideas, please let me know. Getting paid to take care of her is out of the question. I tried. It didn't work.

stevenbigcock10 57M
26 posts
10/14/2005 2:44 am

you know i feel the same way you do half the time but im going to
tell you now never give up on life,
to tell you the truth i to get realy depressed every once in awhile but life gos on and i try to make the best of things.
when i was liveing in arizona back in 1985 and my famley were liveing up in northern california my dad died on me and i dint know about it untill a month later,
and at that i was realy down becous me and my dad were realy close
just like duck tape.
and i blaimed my self for his death becous i thought i shuld of stayed home to prevent it,
but as time whent by i relized that weather i was at home or not
there would be anything i could of dun
he would of died any how.
but i do know one thing and one thing onley
my dad is apart of me and i of him,
so i know no matter were im at my dad will always be with me no mater were im at
and as for your birthday happey belated 30th birthday
for sept 11th maybe if you can trust in me ill send you something in the mail
take care hop to chat soon
oooohh ya forgot see you later sexy.

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