The Sea of Despair  

bardicman 50M
7540 posts
2/21/2006 3:19 pm

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The Sea of Despair

Floating so deeply, immersed with no care,
Making my home in the sea of despair.
Emotions were dying, withering beyond repair
how easily things die in the sea of despair.
frail souls and broken hearts need no one to care
adrift in the desolation in the sea of despair
Though all hope is lost in a life solitaire
hope is not required in the sea of despair.

Dead inside, not loving, not feeling or sharing
drifting with deep currents no emotional tearing
completely submerged and with dead eyes just staring
at peace with my fate so desolate, and uncaring

Suddenly, my eyes catch, a flicker from above
Although tired and weary I give a faint shove
rising to the surface afraid to make a sound
less despair draws me deeper and I totally drown
But this light draws me closer and the surface I break
I draw a breath of living such a sudden intake
Scared to venture forth and relive all the pain
But you motion me onward promising a sweeter refrain

You coax me, coach me, teach me to bear my soul
You take my broken emotions and seek to make them whole
I let you in bit by bit and quit keeping you at bay
through your loving persistence you have won the day
Little by little all my fears you stripped away
and slowly there becomes order where before was disarray

Now the one that has taken me, effortlessly and unaware
Has once again deposited me on the cold shores of despair
My thoughts of fate and loneliness she caused me to forswear
I bared my soul for her and showed that I could still care
All for naught for it was not me, alas I just cannot compare
Broken and bleeding and ripped to the core,
my home is calling me there

My feet touch the cold and I shiver as I wade into the sea
The sea of despair is calling, calling out to me
For life has lost it reason, lost all hope and lost all rhyme
Its time for me to drift again, and ignore the wheel of time.
The maelstrom that is life, is far more than I could defeat
I am a mere broken mortal and I long for eternal sleep
As the waters wash over me I find I do not care
for once again I shall make my home, in the cold sea of despair

As my face slides beneath the surface, in the sea of despair
only a faint ripple remains, for those who might have cared.
A small ripple that passes through time, a marker of when I dared
To rise above this desolate land, my home in the sea of despair.
Sinking further down and deeper, so deep I don't know where
Its dark where I'm going
Yet no fear is showing
in the sea
of deep
despair




I am not dead yet


SolarPowered0 67M
8018 posts
2/21/2006 5:47 pm

Jesus Christ, Bard! Buddy!!! I hope to GOD this is you merely waxing poetic from solely a melancholy funk? And NOT what it sure as fuck sounds like???!!!

I'll give you a call. We need to talk, friend.

Solar...


oldman1776 78M
3164 posts
2/21/2006 6:16 pm

Hope the hell this ain't nothing but one of your poetic writings.


rm_AmishAmy 100F
246 posts
2/21/2006 8:22 pm

you've been watching desparate housewives again haven't you bardi???
you know how depressed watching that show makes you......stop it!
now i'm late for class.....but it's ok....you're worth it


bardicman 50M

2/21/2006 8:38 pm

Solar - I am thinking that maybe it does not mean what you think it does.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/21/2006 8:40 pm

Oldman - It is an artistic piece, A poetic writing, loosely based on my perception of the lady Hope.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/21/2006 8:43 pm

Trisha - Thank you for the compliment. In the sea of despair? Its a nice place to visit but I would not want to live there.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/21/2006 10:43 pm

Amish - You cannot be late for class for me, Thank you for thinking I am worth it but ya know, even though you are right, class has to take presidence. I just wish presidents had class.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/21/2006 10:44 pm

Mzhuny - Thank you. Heavy duty is what I was after.. People looking for the suicide note is NOT what I was after.



I am not dead yet


SolarPowered0 67M
8018 posts
2/21/2006 11:44 pm

Well, ya sure as hell made it sound real! It's good! Maybe too good...? I'm still gonna call ya (in the morning when I see you online - then I'm pretty sure you'll be home.)

Solar...


kelly402005 52F

2/22/2006 6:47 am

Love it.....
Truly makes me
want to go with ya!
{=}


bardicman 50M

2/22/2006 9:02 am

Sweetneeds - Thanks, waves of hope. hmmm I never really contemplated that facet..



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/22/2006 9:06 am

Kelly - If I took you with me then I fear that it would no longer be the Sea of Despair.. It would turn into the frothing pool of sexual fulfillment.. or something like that Not that that would be a bad thing.



I am not dead yet


papyrina 51F
21133 posts
2/22/2006 2:09 pm

i go there often but thankfuly ,something always pulls me out quick,hugs hun


I'm a

and
i'm here to stay


bardicman 50M

2/22/2006 3:40 pm

Papy - If you need help getting out just give me a holler.



I am not dead yet


vanna4u 38F

2/22/2006 3:58 pm

Did you draw the picture?


bardicman 50M

2/22/2006 5:03 pm

Vanna - No, alas all I can draw is flies.



I am not dead yet


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
2/22/2006 7:43 pm

Although very, very dark, this is some incredible stuff, Bard!! Great poem. Damn I hope I can one day write like this.


Yours_2_Corrupt 39F

2/22/2006 8:47 pm

incredible


TabithaElectra79 38F

2/23/2006 1:33 am

I think this is powerful, amazing...ummmm...I'm sorry I can't find the words to do it justice...


bardicman 50M

2/23/2006 7:09 am

Aascrompn - You are you. I am me. Me is not so great as you giveth me credit for, but thanks. Keep your writing as individual as your personality. That is what makes it great.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/23/2006 7:13 am

Corruptable one - Thank you.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/23/2006 7:16 am

Tabitha - You being here more than does my work justice. Thank you,



I am not dead yet


rm_Bct2Esi 51M/50F
1375 posts
2/25/2006 5:49 pm

{{{{{{{{Bard}}}}}}}} you need a vacation.

Awesome writing

hugs and smiles


Fox4aKnight1 43F

2/26/2006 12:20 am

hmmmmm intersting bard ....all I will say for now ....enjoying just reading some of your other stuff which both maks me laugh and sometimes turns me on and at other times does both LOL

thanks!!
Kelli


bardicman 50M

2/26/2006 12:20 pm

BCT - Come and get me.. I am ready



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

2/26/2006 12:28 pm

Fox - This was a voyage into the darkness that has at times consumed me and everyone else. When ya down and need a friend.. you know you can depend on me.



I am not dead yet


Lioness_girl 45F
3494 posts
4/20/2006 2:46 pm

Thanks Bard, I most certainly get the meaning of this poem and I know exactly what you mean. Thanks for sending me here.

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