My Tribute to You.  

bardicman 50M
7540 posts
1/8/2006 6:51 am

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

My Tribute to You.

Mood: Still Crying
Music: Kenny Chesney "Who You'd Be Today"

I was sitting here fixing to write a simple post in tribute to you and this song came on. It just seemed to fit my mood perfectly. You were not with us long but in the time that you were here you touched my heart and soul so much deeper than I thought possible. You were my friend. You never asked anything of me and I never wanted anything from you. Nothing more than the friendship that developed and I pray to the stars that we can continue some day.... As I heard this song the visions that kept running through my mind were of your eyes and smile in so many different poses. Always bright and full of life. Even without the make-up you don't need, your eyes and smile were bright.


Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today.

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.

Your gallant knight shall erect a gleaming fountain of flowing "Asti" on the roof top. If ever I move, that fountain shall always move with me. It is there for you my fair Maiden. Close your eyes when you sleep at night and see it in all its golden splendor. Use it as a beacon to guide you through your life. Use it to know that in your lifetime you touched someone deep with your witty and sometimes naive ways. Touched them not in a sexual manner but so much deeper than that. If you ever need a friend to talk to. You know exactly how to find me. Follow the fountain.
May peace find you well my Fair Maiden. For now, your Gallant Knight stands here in silence as his tears slowly rust his armor....

But I know....
I will see you...
again.....
Someday





I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 7:04 am

For more information you can read [post 194564].



I am not dead yet


im_curious_4u 50M

1/8/2006 8:59 am

It was sad yesterday watching her profile change, then one by one her blog posts disappeared into the mist. Her posts were always a good pickme up. I'll certainly miss her too. *sigh*

If she reads this. Take care young lady and good luck with everything.


duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
1/8/2006 10:34 am

Beautiful! A boy who was once in our lives died two and a half weeks after my father did. That song is very fitting for him too. God Bless you dear Bardicman.

*wiping a tear*

DustStormDiva


slidein2meplz 62F
1994 posts
1/8/2006 10:39 am

Bard...I went to the link...but he didn't provide a link for Kat? I think I know who your talking about. Do you have a link to her?

I always knew you were a Knight!

~~~ Just me, poppin to say HI! ~~


silkysmoothlegs3 105F

1/8/2006 11:10 am

Lovely blogg
you always move me
silky x


pinkplaytoyz 50F

1/8/2006 11:25 am

I understand who this is for, and it's a beautiful tribute.

My job is to watch the bad people every day that I work,
making sure they stay where they belong.
It is moments like this that heightens my sense of duty
and keeps my stance strong,
while my soul gently weeps for those
who have suffered.

luv Pink


SolarPowered0 67M
8018 posts
1/8/2006 11:34 am

Bard...

I'm not too "up" on the comings and goings of most here abouts. You are quite aware of my "reclusive" nature, by now. I do know of whom you write, though. She is rather close to where I am - geographically. Very close.

I offer my hand to you, as I believe you need it. And my embrace, as I believe you also need that. To her, I offer my thoughts and prayers, as I know she needs them. These things are all I have of any value. Perhaps they shall serve you both.

Solar...


sassybelle21 32F
13313 posts
1/8/2006 12:06 pm

Very beautiful


rm_hinkawaza 52M
371 posts
1/8/2006 12:21 pm

Bard, I never really got the chance to know her, but my thoughts are with her, wish I could have been there at the right time. You are a man of comapassion, you have my respect.


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 1:33 pm

Dusty - The pain is in knowing and losing. The true pain is in having never known. Its better to have loved and lost... In these cases it is so true.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 1:36 pm

Slide - There is no link to Kat. None. She is as gone as if she was never here. The only link you will find is the one in your mind.



I am not dead yet


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
1/8/2006 2:23 pm

May we all mean as much to someone as she meant to you. You honor her with your words and it's beautiful. I don't know "who" bardi - but she must have been very special. My heart hurts a bit for you today.

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


wife4stranger 57F

1/8/2006 2:26 pm

Walking up to the fountain and filling a glass, raising it in a silent toast to all the good people. You are the true definition of the word friendship, Bard.


FeistySyn 52F

1/8/2006 4:48 pm

I am but an ignorant newbie, but you moved me to tears....

Apparently the depth of depravity here is bottomless... don't you feel right at home?
~~~~~


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 4:49 pm

Silky - I just try really hard to convey my feelings. I am glad you like what I do.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 4:53 pm

Pink - Then I am so totally in appreciation to you for what you do. Kick the next un-ruly one square in the balls for me. Kick him so hard he appears to have a goiter.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 5:20 pm

Solar, she impacted me greatly with her love of life.. Everyone who read her and saw her knows that she was nothing less that a fountain of joy. Energetic and beautiful and intelligent enough to carry on good conversation for hours. She was my friend. I may need to come crash with you a couple weeks and bring my .22-225 and try to find me a prick.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 5:21 pm

Sassy .. Thanks. I wanted it to be as beautiful as the memory.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 5:24 pm

Hink - I am just very loyal and caring and giving to my friends. I dont take the word friendship lightly at all.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 5:49 pm

Pixie - She was but a friend. Someone who took the chill off of several lonely nights and put a smile in my heart. But friends are something that this ole bard does not like to lose.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 5:51 pm

Wife - That is the best compliment that one could ever pay me.. "You are a great friend."

Lovers come and go. Even the best of lovers can be replaced. Its the loss of a friend. That knife cuts the deepest by far.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/8/2006 6:53 pm

Feisty - Newbie.. ok I will buy that but I am the only ignorant one around here.



I am not dead yet


oldman1776 78M
3164 posts
1/8/2006 8:04 pm

Bard I know I will miss her wit and here smile that lit up my day.

If you need a another gun and any help let me know I'm ready any time.


2xTwiceShy 51M
470 posts
1/8/2006 9:28 pm

Wonderful words Bard. There is no shortage of good will that follows her, which is no doubt one of her greatest attributes. As you have conveyed, the more you come to know her, the more precious you realize her heart is.

And I know you are not the only one to shed tears.


rm_sj365 55F
2414 posts
1/8/2006 9:35 pm

*sigh* im getting pretty tired of missing people...
*sigh*


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 12:38 am

oldman - These things are so tempting at times.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 12:44 am

2x - Just try to get her to use the number. She can block hers before she calls.



I am not dead yet


SolarPowered0 67M
8018 posts
1/9/2006 12:46 am

Bard...

You're welcome here "anytime", Bud. And if you need a tight-pattern full choke 12g (real good for maximum material removal)... I've got one handy.

Solar...


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 12:49 am

SJ - It keeps breaking my heart. I am bout ready to go back to being a hermit.. Lot more lonely, less pain.



I am not dead yet


tillerbabe 56F

1/9/2006 12:57 am

Sorry to interrupt:
Please respect this request:

[post 196913]


slidein2meplz 62F
1994 posts
1/9/2006 1:15 am

I finally found out...and I'm so very sorry. I hope you find that prick.

~~~ Just me, poppin to say HI! ~~


rm_goddess1946 106F
13518 posts
1/9/2006 1:41 am

the longer you live, the more people you learn to let
go in this way that never makes sense when they go...
and yet it is their time...

...knowing that we are..only here for a little while

...thanking you..for this..early this morning...
i've lived a very long time...

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...
{=}


curious082385 31F
4925 posts
1/9/2006 4:06 am

Crying with you...


papyrina 51F
21133 posts
1/9/2006 5:20 am

a lovely tribute to whom ever she was,


I'm a

and
i'm here to stay


rm_Bct2Esi 51M/50F
1375 posts
1/9/2006 5:24 am

{{{bard}}}, even though I didn't know her, my heart, thoughts and prayers are with you and all her friends that was a wonderful tribute to her

she is sitting in a better place, smiling down on all of you, seeing all the faces that she touched, she knows she was loved greatly, will be dearly missed.

hugs and smiles


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 8:33 am

Tiller - No problem.. If the site updates anytime today.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 8:37 am

Slide - I wish I could go hunt him personally



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 8:44 am

Goddess - I am sure you have many more years to live too.



I am not dead yet


RailBaron2 54M

1/9/2006 8:48 am

Bardicman,I have a post put up before I knew what was going on 2xTwiceShy was kind enough to message me.- I personally do not want to kick the S.O.B.That has caused a friend to go, I say String him up by those parts.Tiller -Your request needs to be accessable, post 196913 gets me nowhere


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 8:52 am

Curious - I know you are... She was your friend too.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 8:55 am

Papy - The tribute cannot do the person justice but thanks.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/9/2006 8:58 am

BCT - She has not passed on.. She has just decided, for personal safety, that she can no longer be exposed to the on-line world. A world where predators threaten her and her family. There has been a crime committed by a sick fuck and the victim list grows daily.



I am not dead yet


rm_hinkawaza 52M
371 posts
1/9/2006 3:18 pm

That makes two of us {color green]Bard!


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
1/9/2006 7:12 pm

Bardi...perhaps it would be a good idea to put "his" name out so that more will not be victimized. Just a thought.

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


rm_Bct2Esi 51M/50F
1375 posts
1/9/2006 8:07 pm

bard, the words didn't come out right, it was suppose to say, she is setting someplace safe. Still its sad that once again, one more criminal is on the loose and someone special has to leave the protection of what she once considered saftey

no smiles today, only the shaking of my head and ??? of why?


bardicman 50M

1/10/2006 7:45 am

Hink - Thanks ..



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/10/2006 7:51 am

Railbaron - Nods man.. String the cocksucker up.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/10/2006 7:53 am

Pixie - If you knew the extent of what has happened.. Get with me later. His name will be put out as soon as he is discovered.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/10/2006 7:54 am

BCT- Don't sweat it. It could be read as a passing and in away it is. She is gone from our lives here. She is scared and without all of us that lover her because someone she trusted proved un-trustable.



I am not dead yet


bardicman 50M

1/10/2006 7:55 am

Mzhuny - Thanks. I appreciate you.



I am not dead yet


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