Random Ramblings  

babysgotblueeyez 53F
1035 posts
8/25/2006 12:48 pm

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Random Ramblings

Sun is shining and I'm confused...About life, love, relationships... A little bit of everything... I'm trying to figure out, in my own mind, how I put my heart out there for someone else to share without having it squashed. It's been SO long since I had to worry about any of this and maybe that's why I've not dated much...No dates, no risk of being hurt... But I'm sick and tired of being alone with no one to share life and all of the adventures that go along with it...But it scares the bejesus outta me to put my heart on the line and not have those feelings reciprocated or worse, have those feelings rejected. How do I both offer my feelings and rotect myself at the same time? Or is that an impossibility? Is it possible to tell someone you care a great deal without being kicked in the teeth? I know it's a toss up and I also know that unless I take the risk, I'll never find out what the possibilities are but it still scares me to death.

I'm just so tired of doing things alone, sleeping alone, being alone...Without someone to confide in, someone to share things with, someone to build something with...Someone to bounce ideas off of...Someone to have that secret little "joke" or "look" with...I guess I'm more afraid of ending up alone than I am of sharing my feelings...Maybe...

Don't let your past dictate who you are but let it part of who you will become.


irishtongue71 51M

8/25/2006 3:14 pm

If it's any consolation you aren't alone...but it's the other aspects in life right now that preventing ME from committing....and I just feel too recently removed from my previous situation to go running into another one. I just said that to someone else last week.

Not saying it will EVER happen, I just need to force myself to take it slow and MAKE SURE the third times a charm.

So lookin' forward to next Friday....


jaimeOOO69 52F

8/25/2006 3:31 pm

Well, you can do what I tried and get yourself a bunch of cats. Yes, I was on my way to becoming the Catlady of Pell Lake. Sure no more sleeping alone,doing things alone, I had plenty to talk to....but that is all still lacking.

So now,as you know, I tied my heart to the train tracks and I am still waiting for the train that will inevitably come along. If everything works out to the way I want, the other person will switch the tracks so I will not get hurt, but there's another heart on the other tracks.

Don't be afraid, you will not find someone unless you take the chance. I feel better being able to love than to be the Catlady of Pell Lake.

rm_coolguyalone 53M
86 posts
8/26/2006 1:02 am

I am in the same boat,different deck.I feel the SAME as you do.I put myself into my work.No dating,no problems,well at least in the heart and emotions department.Now that i have been away from it for so long,i realy dont know were to start and even if I DO WANT TO,meaning that i feel as if i do not measure up(emotionaly,socialy).

SAILOR4274 73M
84 posts
8/26/2006 6:01 am

Just remember it's better to love and lose then not to love at all!!
Keep trying, you have notthing to lose Have the mindset to win nomatter what happens. Remember losing is the best teacher of life.
With out a dought you well find that one and only!!Hang in there, you deseve it!!!! GOOD LUCK

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