angelwoarose 41F
211 posts
2/12/2006 12:21 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


There are days I want to scream. I wanna know why it is that God hates me so. I don't understand why he keeps from me the one thing I want more than anything.....

As I've mentioned before I spent last summer talking to a man in the Navy stationed overseas. I don't hear from him much since his has returned to the states in October. I'm talking to him as I write this blog. He's given up on us ever meeting because I am so far away...i'm only about 5 hours...that's not far. My ex of 5 years was from Canada. Distance doesn't stop something if you really want it. He just doesn't want it. In fact he said... "just tired of leading you on you were right you need to date and if we get to meet up then we will se what happens when time allows". Which basically means it was all just fucking talk AGAIN.

God, I just want to SCREAM when is it going to be my turn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It would probably not piss me off so bad if this didn't happy so many times. I just wanna love and be loved...and instead I get pissed on.

And another thing... DON'T TELL ME ABOUT HOW YOU SPOIL YOUR WOMAN ...cause we both know you aren't going spoil me...just tell me about what you do for every other fucking woman in the world.

YES I am in a pissy mood..and I'm sorry.

angelwoarose 41F

2/12/2006 1:45 pm

Firehot -- it's a little better. He now says he wants to see me next weekend...but I am not holding my breathe. Too many men are full of words and not men of action. Thank you for your thoughts *hugs* they mean a lot to me.

caressmewell 53F

2/12/2006 5:05 pm

I so hear you and feel your pain and frustration. There are times I feel that I could make more progress beating my head against a wall.

hugs_4_u2 39F

2/13/2006 4:08 pm

know those feelings well hunni big cyber hugs comin ur way!

hugs xxxxxx

Juliet610 51F

2/13/2006 5:08 pm

Sweet Angel,

My heart aches for you, as I have been I your shoes before. I wondered if I would ever find "the love of my life," my soul mate, again. Perhaps we are looking in the wrong places. This is probably not the place to find love--sex, maybe, but probably not love. And don't confuse the two: they frequently bear no resemblance to each other.

While the first will sometimes fill a need, it will never fill the void in you. That, my dear, must be filled first by you. It is not until we fully love ourselves that we recognize and allow the love others have to offer to enter into our lives. But once we do, ah! there is no sweeter joy!

Do not give up hope, Sweet Angel. To do so will only leave you bitter. Take stock of your assets, and focus on them. When you truly believe you are worthy of love, it will find you.

Keep faith,

PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
3/2/2006 1:58 pm

*thwap* Don't apologize for being in a bad mood, hon, you have EVERY right to be pissy if you feel that way.

*HUG* Yes, most men suck, I'm sorry to say, but there are still a few good ones out there that aren't gay or taken. Now, if I could just find me one...

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

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