expressing my true thoughts on a load of crap  

angelplusdevil 40F
333 posts
4/5/2006 3:51 pm

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4/9/2006 9:19 pm

expressing my true thoughts on a load of crap

after answering quite a few other posts today, i thought it would strike a chord and i wouldnt have to write about what has been eating at me since last night.
alas, it didnt work...
at 3am a friend, writes me to say that he can no longer have anything to do with me because he has never felt so strongly for a woman before. he is a loser, a jackass, a jerk. those arent my words those are his. he goes on to say i am such a wonderful person and genuinely lovable. is this the "it's me not you" sentence? i've never heard it before. what's sad is this guy has issues as we all do. why is it people like to throw away good friendships, because they are so scared of growing too close?
i know i used to run away also. i just figured it was a chemical imbalance, mainly cuz i dont do it anymore. although, i respect his decision, it hurt and left me rather pissed off that if i am so "great", then why not chance hanging around?
you may think yeah, he is just another asshole, but honestly, my intuition tells me he couldnt allow me to get hurt. he didnt trust himself. should i thank someone for that? no! its my fucking decision who i see and spend time with. i really hate when its all determined for me. had he never told me how he felt, i dont think it would matter as much as it seems to now. i am used to pussy men that keep it to themselves as well

i have to keep remembering all of us are so fucking different. i dont live and breathe with the intentions of holding back. many times i wished people wouldnt drudge up the "what ifs" before the start of something they want/need (which is again "his words">want/need).

dear friend,
if you hate your life and the world so much, then you are the only one that can change it.
i say that because i have done it and keep improving mine. so fuck off, if you say its easier said than done. its not easy...and most people will deny themselves happiness their whole entire existance.
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i would luv any comments or experiences any of you have had with this.

granted this guy didnt ruin my world in any way. he's but one of the billions. i learned what i did, and will keep truckin'
oops, theres my catty bluntness!

besides as i said in HS, sometimes i wish i had a Giant hand to flip you off!

SQ: Do you not know how uncontrolled and unreliable the average human being is in all that concerns sexual life?
Sigmund Freud



rm_TexIrish82 34M
29 posts
4/6/2006 12:18 am

... fuck 'em


Green_Tea_Boy 49M
1064 posts
4/9/2006 8:15 pm

ultimately people are scared... of themselves..others and of their own and others emotions.. they like to live in the comfort zone of what is known and new experiences and feelings just rock the boat too much...

spontaneity is dead...long live the mundane and the status quo...


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