anchcpl4fun 40M/44F
358 posts
10/17/2005 2:30 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glint on snow
I am the sunLight on the ripened grain
I am the gently falling autumn rain

When you wake in the morning hush
I am the swift upLighting rush
of quiet birds in circling flight
I am the soft starLight at night
Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep

-- Hopi prayer

Today is the funeral for the child who was killed last Monday. Our daughters very dear friend. This last week has been one of the hardest I can remember. It is one of the hardest things you will ever do, watching your child's very real pain. She has never really lost anyone she loved before, has been lucky up to now.

This last week I have watched her heart break and bleed and not been able to do a fucking thing about it. I can't even think of what to say when she hears the song "Photograph" on the radio and cries, all I can do is sit and hold and and sometimes cry with her.

We have spent alot of time talking, discussing out beliefs. Without them I think I would be so lost right now. We dont have the whole christian HEAVEN/HELL belief system. What has gotten us through this week is our belief that the reason he was taken so young is because he has accomplished and learned what he was supposed to in this lifetime. He did it quickly and is now moving on to the next. Even if all he was supposed to do was teach these other kids how precious life is, and how fragile. Cherish it, its a gift, not to be taken for granted.

Its hard to lose someone you love, no matter what you believe, heaven or another life, because we are still here, and we will always miss those who have moved on. All i can do and help our daughter do is remember the things that made us smile about him when he was with us. Those things will make us smile again, even if it is through our tears.

So tomorrow we go and pay our respects to his family, I just pray for them and this very hard road they have ahead of them until the healing comes.
Those of you reading this, please take a moment to pray to whoever hears your prayers for the young friends of Desmond, that his passing will help them to appreciate the lives they have been given and to live it to its full potential. To recognize thier lives as the gift it is as well as those of the people around them.

djmuggy 39M

10/17/2005 4:51 am

A whispered prayer is indeed in order.

goddessofbitches 41M/33F

10/18/2005 9:59 am

No matter what an adult says to a teenager...we can't prevent anything bad from happening. I know you did your best to teach those who filled your house day after day that there are things in life that you should turn away from. But...teenagers are teenagers. And if something bad is going to happen...it's going to happen. There is nothing any of us can do to prevent it.

I know it's painful. I know it hurts. And I'm sure your kids are hurting as well. The one thing they need is someone who will not sit and say.."I told you so.." and the "See what happens when.." They tend to take that as you are DARING them to do it.

Just be the good mom that you are and help them through. Help them deal. It will be a rough road...but...you are an awesome woman and I know that if anyone can do it...you can.


Always The Bitch

lifeisablast333 54M

10/19/2005 1:28 am

cool prayer, sorry for you loss...what can a feller say...the redneck

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