Shadow Boxing.......A Battle of my wits  

allforfun5262 54M/56F
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7/20/2006 4:37 am

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Shadow Boxing.......A Battle of my wits

While conscience is our friend, all is at peace; however once it is offended, farewell to a tranquil mind---Lady Mary Wortley Montago

Inner turmoil...a battle of my wits...good vs. evil...

A battle between the two has erupted into an all out war. This conflict started when I first saw him....His written words echo in my ears...his pics implanted in my mind...his partner at his side...She too plays a part in this battle.

Love vs Lust ---Is there a fine line between love and lust? Or are they one in the same? Can I have lust without love? Do I choose to?

Boxing gloves on...let the fight begin...morally...ethically..IT'S WRONG but...

Nice vs Naughty --- Can a nice person who has been raised to trust her judgement, to never let her moral standards slip, be convinced to be naughty? Be convinced by whom? No one other than her evil self whispering in her ear...telling her it's ok...

First punch taken on the lip...

Good vs evil ---Does my warmth, light, morality stand it's ground? Or does a darker, misguided, wicked side convince me that to sin would be to have freedom? Freedom to do what? To lust after someone that is not mine? To want to feel him as his body tenses in the throes of passion? To watch him as he reaches that breaking point where our souls lick the flames of a fire burning out of control? To feel him as our bodies dance to a tune that is not foreign yet is unknown?

Second punch...to the right temple area...

Am I a prisoner of my conscience or can I break free from the chains that bind me and face my wants...needs...desires...and come out victorious? Even if it's morally wrong? The harder the conflict the more glorious the triumph.

Good Conscience---the obedience to the norm...who's norm? Mine? Yours? Societies?

Evil Conscience---The result of guilt...Guilt of what? Wanting to fulfill my sexual needs with someone who stimulates my mind as well as my body?

Third Punch...TKO

A victor is declared...By TKO...I shall appease my inner turmoil by taking what is not mine...by feeling his hands roam over my body...by allowing myself to want him without guilt...by giving him what he craves...me.


SeaMist1966 50F

7/24/2006 5:58 am

Thunderous Appaluse...******clapping******

Work it out gurl....I feel ya


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