Deep, Dark Depression, Excessive Misery  

absolutelynormal 56F
6016 posts
6/28/2006 10:12 am

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Deep, Dark Depression, Excessive Misery

I am sad today. I feel lost. I don't know what I'm doing. I hate not knowing what I'm doing. (but I do know the meaning of bareback, dammit!)

This is what's going on with me:

Still need to have a hysterectomy, don't know when I'll have that done.

I have a nephew who is a drug addict along with his GF, who is also a druggie. They have been stealing checks from my mom and writing them for over 6 grand. When we went to Savannah a few weeks ago, he got into my dead aunt's stuff and wrote checks on her account. He's stolen all of my mom's jewelry. He's stolen from his mother, she won't let him back in her house. My mom calls me with this saga everyday. How she wants to help him and how pitiful he is, blah, blah, blah.

I am estranged from my sister and my brother, they sexually abused me when I was a kid. Even though my mother knows about this, she still bugs me to "make us a family again" "blood is thick" etc.

My son is on my verizon account, he's run the bill up over 400 bucks. He isn't working, he can't pay it. I should have his phone turned off but I can't bring myself to since he lives in FL and it's my only means of communication with him.

AND, I haven't had sex with another person in MONTHS!!! Mr. Buzzy does a great job, but warm and cuddly he aint.

Anyone else need a good cry? Come on, you know you wanna!

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
6/28/2006 10:53 am


I know this from past experience......your mom needs to vent, but it cant always be you that has to listen or it will drive you nuts. Blood AINT that thick, believe me, love and trust is. There has to be a way to shut your sons phone off except for incoming calls, or something. Get him a regular with no long distance and then call him there.

Far as sex dont even wanna know how long its been

You will be ok

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 4:40 pm:
It's a cellphone. I can't get any features turned off without turning the whoole damn thing off. Even then it will cost me soemthing every month. UGH! Thanks for the "you will be OK", sometimes I just need to hear it from someone else. ((S) Mac

8321 posts
6/28/2006 11:06 am

That's alot of drama for one blog post.

I don't know where to start.

I could tell you what you need to do, but you probably already know that.

Deal with one situation at a time, starting with the hysterectomy, which would be the priority I'd think.


"My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer to embrace an early death." -Tupac Shakur

absolutelynormal replies on 6/28/2006 4:41 pm:
Yeah it is, I need to have the thing yanked! Unfortunately, I also have a house payment and daughter's student loan etc to pay for!

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