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absolutelynormal 56F
6016 posts
7/18/2006 7:10 pm

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Blogging on ambien

Saturday July 15


My cellphone, I'm expecting a call from one of my GF's, I flip it open and say hello. To my amazement, it's not her. It's a voice that I wish I didn't know. A voice that I had a great affect on me once upon a time. Avoice I had fallen in love with. The radio announcer voice.

Not all of you know that 4 years ago I left my home in AL to move to California to be with the "love of my life" He never was the love of my life, perhaps the lie of my life.

I haven't seen him in almost 3.5 years.

He calls just to make sure I am OK. WTF for, he doesn't care, if he did he would be here. I ned up hanging up on him but not before letting him have it and telling him that he'd long ago lost the right to question anything I do. He says I guess I just won't call back. "fine" I said before I hubg up.

My phone went dead otday so it just took messages. One was from "HIM"saying that he'd had some form of malignancy cut out of his forearm. He was crying. Did I call back?

I hate being played.

rm_mmmgoodnova 105M/105F
1259 posts
7/18/2006 7:16 pm

Sounds like you're the one that cut the malignancy...out of your life. Stay strong.

absolutelynormal replies on 7/20/2006 3:47 pm:
Mac shows MGN her muscles!

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
7/18/2006 7:47 pm things change when they need someone to care for them. Been there, done it, wont do it again.

Be strong

absolutelynormal replies on 7/20/2006 3:49 pm:
I suddenly hear those lyrics playing in the background, I'm a loser, baby.... but I won't kill him and I hope he doesn't die, but I ain't callin his sorry ass either!

Hampmeister 57M

7/18/2006 8:34 pm

You have no obligation to him after the way he was. No responsibility to be there for him and don't let hium guilt you into thinking you do. Guilt is like alcohol, it only affects you if you accept it.


absolutelynormal replies on 7/20/2006 3:51 pm:
You obvisously don't know who you're talking to, do you? LOL! I will accept the blame for just about anything, it's all about me, ya know?

Intensity4U 52M
7432 posts
7/18/2006 9:03 pm

Hey Mac Sounds like good advice you're getting here - good for you for staying strong.

absolutelynormal replies on 7/20/2006 3:51 pm:
Yeah, I'll be strong, thanks to friends like you Mac

jdocfunguy 50M

7/18/2006 10:30 pm

Sounds like the perfect response to me. At least he didn't say he was going off to war or to join the Peace Corp. LOL Certainly, there are plenty of people in California that can care for him.

absolutelynormal replies on 7/20/2006 3:54 pm:
Yeah there are, but he's an asshole and he'll end up all alone. I feel sorry for him, but not sorry enough to call him.

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