What scares me...  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
7/25/2006 7:36 pm

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What scares me...


You know what scares the shit outta me?? Let me tell you fine people what it is...

When I first joined this site, I did so in order to make me happy. I'm going to fuck the finest women! I'm going to fulfill all of my fantasies... I'm going to be the man. I'm not going to tell any of my friends about this, for I have found the oasis in my water deprived dessert!

Since I've been here, I've joined a swinger club, I've had an MFM, a mini gang-bang, and I feel pretty good. I started a mildly boring, yet mildly successful blog. You know the trick to the blog????? The trick is to be honest... You have to be willing to look like an ass!

I have grown a lot as a person. My insecurities are pretty much out of the window (with the exception of my 2" penis) and I'm feeling great! My blog lets me unleash my thoughts. The friends that I've made, here in the metro, are extremely important to me. The friends that I've made all over this world are equally important, which brings me to my point.

What scares me folks, is that I've broken my own rules. I absolutely swore to myself that I would never talk to a female outside of the USA. I did this b/c it just makes things too damn hard to deal with. What if I fall in love (ya right!) w/ a girl from another country? What are the logistics involved w/ that??

The facts: I have fallen in complete and absolute love w/ a girl from another country! WTF?? I love this girl than I've ever loved another before!!! I'm not lying here. I've told her completey everything. She knows of my downfalls, and she knows what I have going for me... She, for some reason, still loves me. I hear daily how much she does! This not only makes my day, but I feel happier than I've ever felt. I feel as if I have a purpose!

I'm scared b/c this just can't be real, can it? You can't meet somebody online and feel this way, can you? Am I the next Internet drama?? Am I going to be the next AdultFriendFinder sacrifice?? I'm not saying this to be mean, but everytime I've seen a great couple meet here, something drastic happens... Do you all remember AnEnigma?? What an ass! He faked his own death... What kind of fucking freak does that?? I know that Bulging and Lilblonde have a successful thing going, and to be frank, that's what I want as well.

What I want is for this to grow. I'm man enought to admit that I'm severly into this. I'm man enough to say that she has my balls. Why? I believe that love conquers all! I believe that what we have is real. I believe this to be true, but I'm at a loss as to how it could be true...

I love her. I sleep contently most every night knowing that I'm wanted. She may not need me, yet, but I hope that she knows she has me.

I know, yet again, that this is sappy. Any one of you can pull my man card, but you know what?? As long as I have my Boomerang Bitch, I don't need anything else...

~ AAS

fantasia_shares 47M/43F
4164 posts
7/25/2006 7:43 pm

Damn...you've gotten sappy!

LOL...of course you're going to be the next internet drama!

But, if you're not, well, hell, more power to you. If ya are, well, live and learn, right? At least the ride was fun! No one can take that away from ya.

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aascrompn replies on 7/26/2006 6:26 am:
I'm soooo not going to be the next one... *crossing fingers here*

jadedbabe78 106F

7/25/2006 8:37 pm

Awwww, sappy.......

All will be well if you don't think TOO much. Thinking too much is what leads to doubt and fear.

Be mellow and go with the flow of it all.

(No, I am not high contrary to belief.)


aascrompn replies on 7/26/2006 6:28 am:
LOL - You're not high?? Well how can I trust your judgement now?

alphuctup 40M

7/26/2006 4:03 am

I like the way you wear your heart on your sleeve, it's a very attractive quality...obviously in a completely masculine, heterosexual way

Personally I find the idea of becoming immersed in an online relationship kinda terrifying, but if you're happy then that's gotta be a good thing.


aascrompn replies on 7/26/2006 6:44 am:
Why thank you! That's a very nice compliment... Of course I take it in a hetero way.

I think it is super scary. I think, however, that the end result is well worth it. Once you get to know somebody to the point that we have, it's really nothing more than a relationship that's a long distance thing.

Actually, she and I were laughing at this very point not long ago. What started off as a friendly email turned into this. We used to both laugh at all the online relationships. Well, here we are...

want2play926 45F

7/26/2006 6:19 am

Pull your man card? Could not happen....you putting yourself out there like you just did is more Manly then what I have seen in a very long time!

I know you get a hard time and it is in fun, but you are more manly them most men on here!

Good for you and I pray all works out for you.


aascrompn replies on 7/26/2006 6:45 am:
Wow! Thank you! I really am happy and I've not ever been one to hide any of my emotions. I started my blog honest and I hopefully won't start to faulter on that any time soon.

TabithaElectra 38F

7/26/2006 8:57 am

" I absolutely swore to myself that I would never talk to a female outside of the USA. " ~~~~

Damn those tempting vixens living outside of the USA!


aascrompn replies on 7/27/2006 5:19 am:
No shit! Bitches...

Seriously_Real 48M

7/26/2006 9:04 am

Scary? Yep. WhEEEEEEEE!

I am happy for you. I suppose you know how proud I am of you, as it were. Not that I had jack to do with it, but, well...we've come along way, you and I. I'm glad to see your writing smile like that.

You'll get your people bringing you down. Fuck it. And while you are following in footsteps of people before you, that doesn't mean it's the same path.

Just do not stray from the truth. Capiche?

Good luck my friend. You know where I am if you wanna bounce some shit....

--Seriously


aascrompn replies on 7/27/2006 5:20 am:
I hear ya my friend on the wheeeee... You talk about a ride?? lol

I know that you are proud, but it sure has been a long time coming! You did have jack to do w/ it, actually... It's b/c of you (saying this again) that I even started my blog.

Have I strayed yet?? Ok, I've been lying about my two inch penis. It's really one and I'm a 1 min man as well! Fair?

sexymamma662003 31F

7/26/2006 10:37 am

it can happen sweetie. doesnt happen often but it can.

oh yes and i hope you didnt take my last comment as being rude or anything i didnt mean for it to appear that way. sorry if it did

~sexy~


aascrompn replies on 7/27/2006 5:21 am:
You believe! Yes, I've transformed another!!

I didn't take badly to it at all! I knew that I'd have both sides arguing their points... Thanks for the comment!

TheRealThing655 48F
9558 posts
7/27/2006 11:03 pm

I think that is a wonderful post and I know how hard it must be witht the distance...but you know, you never know. We've seen something happen like that here before our eyes and it was a good thing!
I like you honesty and your sharing this with us, and I really hope it works out for you two.


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