Walk away  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
3/9/2006 7:46 am

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Walk away


When I first found the blogs, I ran across a blogger that was really very motivated in pursuing a relationship of which was outside of his marriage. At first, before I had any background information on his home life or what lead him to AdultFriendFinder to begin with, I was disgusted. You see, I never understood how a person could cheat on their spouse.

After being on this site a while, I now have an understanding. I’ve read enough sad tales to see why some people are “forced” to seek sex and/or companionship outside of their marriage. I do find this very, very sad. My goal, if and when I’ll ever fine The One (stolen from another blogger), is that I get married and we are sexually compatible enough to never be tempted to stray. I hope that the love we share together will be enough to keep constant communication flowing.

Let me digress. This guy had such a passion, such a drive, and such a goal in mind, that he would let nothing get in his way of achieving the object of his desire. He made it crystal clear that he would conquer anything and everything that stood in his way, all for true love! This got me wrapped up. It was online “Days of Our Lives”. I couldn’t put it down. It was my e-crack, if you will. He didn’t just post daily, he, at one point, was posting every three to four hours. It was amazing to follow. I found myself, even against everything I’d ever believed in before, was screaming to support him. He was the underdog in the Super Bowl. He was gaining momentum w/ everything breath that he took.

I digress further. This guy had the American dream. He was (and still is, I’m sure) very, very successful. I’m not sure of his occupation, but I do know that he wasn’t hurting for money. He had, what I presume, a beautiful wife and a couple of beautiful children. He lived a very nice lifestyle, of which, I will probably never achieve.

I couldn’t understand what was going on with him to push him to risk everything in order to start a new life. What I wanted to know then, and I still have no answer, is what could push somebody to the point of giving life, as you know it, up entirely and just walk away? If you have every man’s desire, and every man’s dream of success, and every man’s dream of a beautiful wife with beautiful children, how is it that tempting?

Would you consider it? Would you consider dropping anything and everything to get the ultimate love? Think hard about this, please. If it feels like the most powerful force that you’ve ever felt, that draws you, almost against your will, to the other, would you consider the possibility of losing everything? If you have a family and kids, would you consider the fact that you might lose the kids? If you have an amazing career, would you consider that you might lose this career from your actions? If you have no guarantee that the other absolutely loves you back, as much as you love them, would you take the risk?

This is an amazing concept to me. I know that I’m very simplistic in my thinking, and that thinking about the impact of global warming affects on mother earth may be a hell of a lot more intriguing, but it’s not to me. Love is an extremely powerful emotion. Some say that jealousy could be the most powerful emotion, but I’m not sure that I agree with that.

Hollywood makes billions upon billions of dollars a year over this very concept. We all watch the movies. There are “chick flicks” in which I thoroughly enjoy (shut up). Serendipity is one such movie. I’m not going into the whole movie, but it basically deals with fate and a man loving another woman (other than his current fiancĂ©) to the point that he stops the marriage in hopes of running into another woman that he met some time before. In the movie, we all root for him. We want him to “get the girl”. City of Angels is another great movie for this concept.

I’ve made some choices for love before. For those of you that are new to my blog, if any, I gave up a military career for it. I had a fiancĂ© and two very cute and sweet (really brats) girls as step kids (not legally). I had what I wanted. I enjoyed what I had. I can’t even put on paper the feeling that I had being the “man of the house”. They depended on me. Do I regret it now that I’m no longer in the military? No. I learned a lot. I still love the kids. They still call me to fill me in on their drama-filled lives (at 11 and 13). It’s quite fun being the “cool guy”.

I’ve blogged about this before and asked people if they had ever sacrificed for love before. I had next to zero response, b/c it evidently doesn’t happen that much in the “real world”. Would you think about it? Could you literally pack bags, today, to take the chance of finding what you’ve always dreamed about? Could you do it for the stares, the cuddling, the gentle caresses, the butterfly stomachs? Would you even try? I think that I would. The difference is that I have nothing holding me back, but my career. Fuck a career! I want love!

The guy, to my knowledge, did not win. The gamble did not pay off. * sigh * I was devastated for him. Actually, I still am. I actually commend this guy. I said it in his blog before and I’ll repeat it here; a real man goes after what he wants and lets nothing stand in his way to accomplish his dreams. However, reality has a very funny way of getting in the way. Dreams are always crushed by reality and society. If society deems things impossible or silly, those dreams die. Think about it… When you were a kid, did you not think that one day you would own your own company, or live in a castle (shut up) or be the President? Society, growing up, probably told you that you couldn’t do it. Why? They told you that because THEY couldn’t do it. Who the fuck are they to determine your path? Fuck society! Go for the gold. Go for the Barbie if that’s what you want. Go for the Ken (if you’re like myrealloverone)

What would you be willing to lose? This is a poker game. All chips are in. Are yours? Mine chips are all in. I just need someone to bet over now…

Holly_Would 106F

3/9/2006 8:39 am

Hmmm...funny, given the information you've provided, I have a completely different take on a few things.

Re: the married guy...I know nothing about him beyond what you've stated here; however, in my view, he is not giving up a thing! In fact, if he is that successful, he probably doesn't think he is either. He is just getting one more thing.

If, instead, you had said that he had already packed his bags and left his family...that would be different. And I am neither supporting or opposing the issue of fidelity. Not being in their shoes, I would not presume to know what is right or wrong.

As for striving for and/or achieving dreams? I suppose I am fortunate in that our parents have always been quite supportive and have never told any of us that there was anything we could not achieve if we put our minds to it. Is that so unique? I don't know; maybe. So all of us children have never set those kinds of limits on ourselves.

Interesting topic though!


jadedbabe78 106F

3/9/2006 8:59 am

Hmmm, I really can't answer this one. I've thought about it and it sounds too bitchy, lol. I wouldn't give it all up for someone I thought was 'The One'. Why? Because the grass isn't always greener on the other side.

I have what I have. I am in the middle of a shitpile of confusion. Stepping back and re-evaluating what I have and what I stand to lose....makes one think. Only difference, I wasn't walking away for anyone but myself.

And now, well...like I said, maybe the grass isn't always greener. Maybe, just maybe...what is right in front of you is what you're looking for, you just don't know it.

I'm speaking of course, from the relationship perspective of it all.

When you don't have anyone, it would be different.

I have my routines, my idiosyncracies, my goals, and dreams.

My dreams growing up, never including finding that 'One great love'. I was always more focused on personal goals, such as writing and career.

I don't mean to come across as a cold bitch, lol. Honestly, I'm not one. Far from it. It's just that it takes some doing on some of our parts to put things into perspective.

Every now and then, I choose reality of the situation and take it for what it is.


caressmewell 53F

3/9/2006 10:38 am

I'm taking some chances..but I think they are worth it.


TheRealThing655 48F
9558 posts
3/9/2006 11:04 am

I loved this post and I like your Blogs, first of all. I find this a very interesting topic. I used to be the same, could not understand why someone would cheat. I never thought I would. I am married and have 2 wonderful children. But years go on and either a relationship grows or it does not. I found myself lacking both physical and emotional intimacy in my marriage. I thought, maybe if I find that elsewhere it will make my marriage more bearable, because I did not want to break up the traditional "family unit". So yes, I was unfaithful, fell in love, it ended, I was hurt, met some other men, etc. But really what the whole experience taught me was that I was deceiving myself and my husband. I was not being true to myself. Although my husband is a good provider, we just weren't compatible anymore after 18 years together. So I made the decision to split..and he is not happy but I have to take the risk. I love men and would hope to find "the one" in the future, but really my goal now is to be there for my kids, get a career going again, and have some fun times with men whose company I enjoy. I would not just walk away for love at this point. I have to think of my kids first. Not sure if this answers the questions you ask, but I really think you cannot judge anyone until you have walked in their shoes. There is truth to be "young and dumb". Aging and experience make us look at things in life in a different way...knowing our mortality and looking at the quality of our life. I was done living a life with my husband in which I wasn't being true to myself. I felt stifled for too long. I don't know the future, but it's gotta be better than the present.


rm_1hotwahine 63F
21091 posts
3/9/2006 11:09 am

See now cynic that I am....
I question whether the underlying motivation in situations like this is really "REAL LOVE" or whether it's some way of a person trying to escape themselves.

I can't quite make the connection, but the movie Casablanca is in my mind now. Think Rick. Should he have? Or...did he?

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
3/9/2006 11:31 am

Oh good, I get to comment after Wahine.

Real love, yes, I would and will sacrifice for it.
Everything? No, I need to make sure certain obligations that I have to my daughter and to myself I suppose are taken care of first. Maybe that's the difference here...it's going to take a little time, but if it's truly REAL then it will wait and grow and be there when the step is taken.

Perhaps that was his problem. Things were rushed and maybe what he thought was real was only an illusion.
Cue Moody Blues music here ...

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.


libgemOH 56M/52F

3/9/2006 1:00 pm

My 2nd marriage was the American dream. I had a nice house, a nice car, didn't have to work if I didn't want to. Outwardly, to the world, he was affectionate, caring, loved my kids from my previous marriage and had them call him "dad", and respected me.

He also told me I'm not all that smart, not all the good looking, didn't need anyone but him and whenever I disagreed with him, told me that divorce was indeed an option. When I said something to him one day about being who I am, he told me that I should be a little less me.

I was a prisoner of the American dream!

The American dream ain't all it was meant to be without love and companionship and mutual respect.


frangipanigal 45F
10406 posts
3/9/2006 1:17 pm

Mike,

You have a knack for getting everyone thinking don't you!

I'd lay everything on the table, with the exception of Little Frangi.

Hell, I've always been a gambler, I'd probably double up after the first gamble too!We have one life, one chance, why settle for second best.

I miss that blog too and I wanted him to get the "happy ever after" ending but It didn't work out that way.

I guess the fact that I left the Evil Ex and the house we bought together, with no one else in the wing means that I'd give up alot for happiness.

I'd leave my job (you can find a job anywhere), I'd move (they have planes to come home and visit family), but I would never ever leave Little Frangi...

L xx


saddletrampsk 54F

3/9/2006 1:28 pm

excellent post..I am a Mother and I think of my children's needs above my own..


elbman 41M  
2566 posts
3/9/2006 2:05 pm

I'd be willing to give up almost anything, I reiterated this point until I was blue in the blog. But I have responsibilities to others which will always fore go my own happiness.


wantonwill 60M

3/9/2006 2:09 pm

Crompn...I like your blog, because you aer adeep thinker...I guess you could say we have that in common. Your posts always fascinate me, and cause me to go into "deepthink" mode.
I am at the point of that other blogger....not satisfied where I am at....looking for more
could I or would I pack and leave today?...I can say....NO...because the losses at this point...more to others than myself, are far too great. I am not ready to pay that kind of price yet...losing...I wouldnt lose much....but the others...and there are many, mnay...would lose everything....so...the gamble is too costly....
could this change....yes...and still there would be loss...but perhaps, in military parlance...the "collateral damage" could be chalked up in the "acceptable losses" column.
In a greater sense...I feel like Mr. Spock in the Star Trek sagas..."the good of the many is greater than the good of the one. So, for now, I stay."
I dont believe in kismet or fate...we, and a greater set of uncomtrollable circumstances, control where we have been, where we are, and where we are going....and so, for the good of the many...now...I stay...but things change...and so might this.


fantasylover_05 62M

3/9/2006 2:15 pm

aascrompn

Your "mystery man" just as easily be me....

I have been thinking for a while about posting "that part of my life's story"..... this post may just move me to do so.....

This is never a "simple question" and certainly isn't in my case either!! I will try to answer this in my blog....


tillerbabe 56F

3/9/2006 6:36 pm

Its's about choices and self-preservation. How can one give unconditionally to another if you are not takin gcare of yourself? Eventually, that self neglect will take over and if the person you are so "into' leaves....than where are you?

I don't see a problem with change, leaving what you have - going the extra mile to make it work - but this all has to be donw within reason.

I to read the BLOG of the person you are talking about - and even thoughI disagreed with his choices, I was "rootin" for him becuase hes' such a good guy.

But, I could have predicted the outcome. You know where he went wrong?
He lied. He lied to his wife, he lied to his children. Yeah, she eventually knew...but after the fact, it's my belief that if someon is not happy in their marriage, they need to remove themselves from that environment, and get their shit together before they pursue anyone else. he used a relationship to escape and make his decisions for him, leaving him with less control. The truth always comes out He wasn't patient (if someone really loves you..they will wait until you get your stuff worked out).

There is not a thing wrong with passion, yearning and making life changes that include someone else. But passion doesn't have to go hand-in-hand with drama.


Lioness_girl 45F
3494 posts
3/9/2006 6:51 pm

I would not give up my priorities even if I did find "true love" because I put my kids first always before I put me first. That will be the case for another 15 years probably.

Lioness_girl

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JustaSeeker 106F

3/9/2006 7:15 pm

If you have no guarantee that the other absolutely loves you back, as much as you love them, would you take the risk?

No, I wouldn't, because that's the one thing I have to know before I can give my heart to anyone, in any way. I could risk material things, but without being 100% certain of the other...no, I don't see myself doing that.

Funny, I was just debating this with someone, the question was, "If you had to choose, and could only have one, which would you choose- passion or security?" I've always chosen security. I know it might not always be the best way, but it's what I do, probably because I had my fill of drama and spectacle growing up, and I always felt the rug was being pulled out from under me. So I guess I'm not the type to run off with a bullfighter, but it doesn't mean I couldn't love one or invite one to visit my luxurious hacienda... Anyway, very thought provoking as usual.


beewulf9 38M

3/9/2006 8:41 pm

I don't think I can add anything to the discussion. I just know that it is something that people on the site are curious about and their experiences have lead them to continue trying.


LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
3/9/2006 9:56 pm

Good questions aascrompn...I am, I think, in the same boat as Caressmewell.

I am taking some chances...pushing the envelope so to speak at home and outside...because I am searching for what you asked about...the ultimate love. I personally hope it can develope at home...but to be frank, I have a bag packed, just in case.

lustytaurus


angelofmercy5 59F
17881 posts
3/9/2006 10:20 pm

I read your blog with great interest. I have to say that I agree with Tiller in her comment. My husband could be the man you are talking about here....he isn't...but he could be. We have a great sex life....and a great love. But...he is infatuated with a younger woman and the fact that he may go to his grave after only having sex with me. And he seems to be willing to risk everything for that experience. So....I say go for it. And take the risk. But be prepared for the consequences too....because you may lose as much as you gain. Good blog.


CuriousAries67 49F

3/9/2006 10:41 pm

Ah... the "grass is always greener" school of thought. Age and experience has taught me it's so because of the level of "fertilizer". I guess I'm no longer naive enough to enthusiastically say I would risk everything (NOT an easy thing for this lil aries to admit!) Calculated risk after having done a complete cost/benefit analysis? Definitely.


kelly402005 52F

3/9/2006 10:53 pm

I did ...........
take a chance, (hurt my son)
failed....
I was too strong for him.....
but I learned from it,
"BIG TIME".........

Live and learn........
Right????

Miss ya, BTW............
I guess most post have been, "Out there"

~~hugs


HBowt2 59F

3/10/2006 2:47 am

difficult question....used to think no but not so sure now. I do believe that I have to sort out where I am to know where I am going. You need a good foundation to build a good future on and a foundation of deceit is not the way to do it. I'm pretty sure that where I am is over...just have to complete the finish...then we'll see....


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307 posts
3/10/2006 6:53 am


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jwalking3 44M

3/10/2006 8:00 am

************************************** "WOW" *********************************************
Ex Girl Friend ========??????????????????????????Very Best Friend??? Thank God we did not get married "Red Dog" you would of been and still will be my best man. I have had thought since College but Never could prove it. It changes nothing for me because you are and always will be my best friend. But hooking up with my Ex, wow that is kinda low. Actually it is the worst thing you could ever do to me, Well I take that back. Since my Ex is a lesbian who wants to get married to Someone with a dick. (I don't know the code word for that) so she can have babies and then run off with "Us" You wonder why my pants are falling off. Reading all of your stories about fucking women and dildos and the lady bug you found in the car. All the lies. Hundreds and hundreds of them. And both of you said I should go get help. The two fucking people that made this all happen. I need help. Words cannot talk about the pain. The guy who is giving you advise on a relationship is also wanting to fuck her. So the puzzle pieces were not for me? Just so you
know, that is why I resent with "Red" really "D" sent this. In your 100 blog crap you said something about triple's. Is that why you did not txt me back last friday when i said Red dog 20 20 20, Were you guys together then? I hope you are happy. JXXL you have know obout your inside views for a long time, maybe after you had sex with your ex's mom. I have called you out on this from the begining. You said i was a wrong OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER. Then i start to pull away from you and our relationship goes south. So what would any normal guy do and what does j brag about FRIENDS. Not just a friend but your best friend. HE says leave. Well why wouldn't he he is already the secret lover? Well as i said before Red your still my best friend. The reason is i should never ever had spent one day with her. J you have been a lesbian the entire time. You just used me. Yes i will take blame for my mistakes in the relationship, But 90% of my problem was i did not feel you wanted to be close to me (sex) That started from month 4. Every single time i asked you a question about Bi/LEs, you said i was wrong. In fact you got so mad at me for even thinking that you broke it off. I then spend hundreds of hours finding you in all the different AdultFriendFinder profiles. Maybe 4-5 solo but up to 15 with close ties to you. How In the Fuck can you lie for 26 months and then say I am crazy, Red (My best Friend) says i am crazy. You need help. Well i have said my piece. I can finally put this MAC back on sleep mode. J You know that selfishness you always talked about, or that mirror you said look in (I didn't know that was you in the Blog Mirror) maybe you should do all of that. And to think of all the nights we faught over sex. Jill I came to you three times as i found out more and more and more. every time i said i will love you forever, congrats. Everytime you got mad at me. My trusted friend Red was saying put it down leave her alone. Your CRAZY. WoW!! I still cannot believe this. Well i wanted closeure. I sure got it. By the way. Red if you are going to take naked pictures of my girlfriend (At the time, From my account she has been doing this for a couple of years. She started a new account acting like she had only been doing it for several months. It is hard for me not to know who you are J will i see you picture and you talk about wax hair removeal in Colorado and how it makes you pussy so wet you are not even going to call your boyfriend That would be me) sorry cont. from above. don't do it in your own basement. The black chair. I am not sure about the couch, that i won' know about till you help me program my new phone. And yes that is why i came over. To see why you had jills new cell #. You have only met her three times in 26 months. I will leave with a sorry for my issues during or relationship. I am sorry for any day that i have ever ruined. But you now will have to go back to month four and chang all the lies. The Movie "Its A Wonderfull Live" yes they do a great job in showing how different your life can be with just one small little change. Who knows what it would have been, but i know for a fact 18 months would of been better. The funny thing is i found your first picture looking at my favorite porn pictures Lesbians. How that little grain of sand can turn into a pearl. Well red its your pearl. She now is worth millions because she is letting the world into her life. Funny how your second biggest problem in our relationship was how i was so closed in. I don't have anything to open up about. I actually am I. You never did open up. Well after 26 months. Wow good luck. Red i don't know what you are going to do with your wife and three kids. Yes you have twin daughters, but you had trips. J i hope have found what you are looking for, i hope you can see why i am mad. Yes i have lied to you a few times, But you lied to be every single day for 26 months. and did not tell me the reason you did not like sex is because you were a lesbian. You made me worka and work and work for nothing. Trip after trip after trip. over 80K dollars worth of crap. Well to use your poem. You cannot take the gift of travel back so you cannot get the money back. I am sure you had fun because of the ladies we were with. , red dog, you saved my life, you just took the anchor off. That 80K could of been 550K when she would have left me with the house and car. The last few years of mistakes as dumb as this it has cost me hundreds of Thous. And You say i never listen to you, i wondered you called at just the right time, or when i found J special day in Vegas was with cathy you hung up on me so you could call both of them and warn them. "There are only assumptions no PROOF" so this time you took it upon youself to make it work. I am sill working on your order. Unlike yourself i can keep secrets. I don't know if you said that shit to make you look better or just stick the knife in my back a little deeper. Well Wht Cr I would never sell you out to your wife, like you did to me. Remember Cathys 15 point blog. She talks about all of this. Red, Thank you very very much, The good thing about this site. Neither one of you are on it. Remember I am that crazy man who sees things that aren't there. I still am going to go see the phyc. Just to double check things, Maybe i will schedule you two " I Mean "US" as well. So dave we can be friends as if this never happened. You see i am crazy. I am making all these profiles up!!!! You are not Here . Red dog and J D are not at this site. LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLL I am still working

P.S. You won't be able to tell me how you met but i will always wonder. Don't forget your not real. I am crazy.

P.S.S. I have felt the vibes of The Faux Painter on meridian. Since he won't read this either because the night he tried to me with his language. Yes my feelings are no surprise to you Red because i exsplained them to j how i could still be friends with you because your Bi is only enough to make you good at poems. Roberts is so bad he did or what he tried to do the other night. And no Robert as you told NAT B We don't have anything going. Not even that night when you grabed my Dick, Did you see if never moved. Scott =women not Men. And even you Robert cannot talk me out of that. You both have tried and never got any where. Robert i respect you if you respect me, Red Some day i will have you be my best man at my wedding. Don't feel bad if i blind fold you and put handcuffs on. By the way is that not in our profile. Oh i keep forgeting "IM CCCCCCCRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZZZYYYYYYYYYY. BY ALL I HAVE NO REASON TO BE ON THIS SITE ANY MORE. MOST OF THE PROFILES ARE FAKE. NOT THAT THERE IS A PROBLEM WITH THAT. I WAS A MAN WOMEN AND MYSELF TO PROVE THE ABOVE LETTER. A THREE RING BINDER. HUNDREDS OF PAGES AND HOURS. BUT I'M CRAZY. I WOULD LOVE TO LIST THE AdultFriendFinder NAMES OF RED AND J BUT I RESPECT THEM BOTH FOR WHO THEY ARE. GOOD PEOPLE. BUT I FUCKING PISSED AT THIS HOUR OF MY LIFE. I WILL MOVE ON. WE MAY MEET AGAIN BUT IT WILL NEVER BE WHAT YOU LISTED ABOVE "MFM" WAIT I DID THAT BEFORE, WHO WOULD THAT HAVE BEEN . RED I WILL NOT SELL YOU OUT LIKE YOU HAVE DONE TO ME. BUT I MIGHT ASK YOU TO GIVE ME SOME OF THE PRODUCTS YOU SELL TO MEND THIS HOLE. ACTUALLY MORE LIKE A COUPLE OF PIECES OF ME ARE GONE. NOW I KNOW HOW THIS ALL WORKS. DAVE WHEN YOU WANTED TO WRITE THAT LETTER TO J FOR MY CLOSURE,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, (THE TXT MSG THE NEXT DAY HIGHLIGHTED THE,,,,,,,,,,,) YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT IT MEANS I DON'T ANYWAYS THOSE PUZZLE PIECES. DID THAT MEAN BURN MINE AND INSERT YOURS?? MAYBE THIS IS HOW YOU MET??? GOOD BYE


jwalking3 44M

3/10/2006 8:04 am

BOY I HOPE THAT WENT THROUGH? RED AND J I ALREADY SPENT TO MUCH TIME ON IT. IF IT DOES NOT GO THROUGH I AM NOT GOING TO TYPE AGAIN


jwalking3 44M

3/10/2006 8:47 am

AND TO THINK I WAS IN SHOCK AN HOUR AGO. I HAD NEVER READ THE BLOGS ABOVE THIS NEW MESSAGE BOX UNTIL NOW. THEY BOTH SAY IT. WELL (DAVE GET USE TO THIS, J SAYS SHE HAS ALWAYS GONE FOR SECURITY (M) IN ONE,, THEN SHE CHANGES ROLES AND SAYS SHE WANTS THE EMOTIONS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT KEY YOU THINK YOU HAVE BUT I HAVE BEEN TELLING YOU ALL THES PROBLEMS FOR 18 YEARS WITH OUR MARRIAGE AND TWO KIDS.................WAIT A SECOND. KIDS=DOGS,,,,,,MARRIAGE=RELATIONSHIP,,,,,,,,YEARS= MONTHS. J THIS SOUNDS ALL TO CLEAR TO YOUR. DAVE GET USE TO IT "IT IS STILL "GREEN GRASS" IT IS STILL HOT , THE WINTER WILL COME AT SOME POINT. (POEM LIST OF 100 BLOGS) RED AND J JUST TOLD THE WORLD WHAT I JUST SAID. THAT IS IF IT POPS UP. (STILL NOT GOOD AT THESE THINGS). J USED TWO OF HER EIGHT SIGHTS ( J YOU SAID YOU DID NOT HAVE AN EMAIL ACCOUNT OUTSIDE OF WORK. HOW DO YOU OPEN SO MANY ACCOUNTS. WELL I GUESS IF YOU DECIDED TO TELL THE TRUTH FOR ONCE, SINCE YOU ARE SLEEPING WITH YOUR BOSS, THE WORK LOAD COULD BE SHIFTED SO YOU WOULD HAVE MORE TIME. J LEFT 2, RED LFT 1.. WELL I WILL GIVE YOU GUYS A KICK START. HOW MANY PROFILES DO EACH OF YOU HAVE. WILL GIVE THE ADVANTAGE TO RED. HINT HINT HINT. IT IS IN THE FOLDER YOU WANTED TO TAKE WITH YOU WHEN I SAID SHE IS A LESBIAN AND YOU AND CORY
CORY SAID I WAS CRAZY, FEB 18TH 2006. SHE POSTS A BLOB THE FOLLOWING DAY 2/19/06 THAT SAYS NOW SHE FINALLY HAD TW0. WAS THAT YOU! HAVE FUN, I'M GONE!


jwalking3 44M

3/10/2006 9:08 am

THE YONGER WOMAN, SHE IS THE SAME AGE AS YOU. I HAVE TWO BLOGS THAT HAVE NOT COME UP YET. FOR RED AND J SAKE I HOPE THEY DON'T. BUT FOR THE GUY WHO JUST HAD HIS BEST FRIEND PICK UP HIS GIRL FRIEND I HOPE IT GETS PRINTED IN THE NEW YORK TIMES. NO THEN YOUR WIFE MIGHT READ IT. YOUR THREE YOUNG CHILDRED WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND. BUT BEING A BEST FRIEND MEANS MY MOUTH IS SEALED. YOU CAN COUNT ON IT. REMEMBER CHEMISTRY "WHAT IF I WANT TO BE THE PRESIDENT SOME DAY" BY THE WAY DID YOU PULL TRACY INTO THIS AS WELL?? RED DOG & J GOOD LUCK. BY THE WAY I THOUGHT J ONLY ANSWERED THE QUESTION TWO TIMES, I JUST FOUND ANOTHER PROFILE. 3 ANSWERS TO THIS QUESTION, 9 TOTAL????


jwalking3 44M

3/10/2006 9:25 am

TILLERBABE: SINCE THE GIRL YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT IS NOW MY EX GIRLFRIEND AND THE GUY IS (STILL MY BEST FRIEND BUT ONLY BECAUSE HE SAVED ME) NOT BECAUSE HE KNEW HE SAVED ME BUT HE DID. WHAT IF THE PERSON YOU ARE SO INTO IS A LESBIAN, AND SHE WAS FROM THE START. KNOWING THIS SHE DOES NOTHING TO MAKE THE PLAYING FIELD EVEN FOR THE GUY (LETS FACE IT IF YOU ARE BI OR A LESBIAN THE OTHER GENDER IS NOT AS MUCH OF A TURN ON) DON'T USE (ME) THE POOR BASTARD AS TEST. THE RELATIONSHIP WAS 26 MONTHS, I READ A BLOG TODAY THAT WAS WELL OVER A YEAR OLD TALKING ABOUT HOWE WET HER PUSSY GETS WHEN SHE WAXES OFF THE HAIRS, SO MUCH SO SHE WASN'T GOING TO CALL HER BOYFRIEND (ME) THAT NIGHT BECUASE OF "ALL" THAT WAS AVAILIBLE IN FRONT OF HER. MIND YOU WE DID GET IN A FIGHT OVER THE CALL. I HAD NO IDEA SHE WAS LOOKING AT WOMEN. THE PART WHERE HE WENT "WRONG" AS YOU PUT IT, WHO LIED. THERE WAS NO MARRIAGE IT WAS A RELATIONSHIP. THE CHILDREN WERE A BROWN AND YELLOW LABS, LIED TO HIS WIFE. WHAT THE FUCK HAD SHE BEEN DOING SINCE THE FIRST DAY. SHE IS A BI OR A LESBIAN USING A GUY UNTIL SHE FINDS OUT WHAT "SHE WANT" THE POOR BASTARD IS ME. IT REALLY SUCKS. I ASKED HER OVER AND OVER IF WHAT I THOUGHT WAS TRUE. NOT ONLY DID SHE SAY IT WASN'T TRUE SHE BROKE UP WITH ME BECAUSE SHE SAID I MAKING FAULSE ACCUSATIONS. MIND YOU MY BEST FRIEND I GIVING BE RELATIONSHIP ADVICE. WHY IS IS HOOKING UP WITH HER. YES ITS NOT A MOVIE, IT ACTUALLY HAPPENED, I JUST FOUND OUT A HOUR AGO.


jwalking3 44M

3/10/2006 10:21 am

Last Word

Tht "Crazy Man" that came to your house said everything listed above, Well not Red, did not know about him yet. What did you say to me. "Scott, you are crazy, i cannot believe you think this about me, Its over, get out." If you read her Blob she talks about a bug she found in her car "hehehe" That's not the lady bug vibrator is it. The one you said you never used by yourself. The one you through away. How about a couple days after i left, at dinner i asked you if you were a lesbian, No you said. You even wrote it in a letter. J go back to the first day you met me. your lies start then. I was not perfect but knowing what i know now, i think the world would be behind me 100%. You just kept me around untill you found what you wanted. Any you say all i do is think about me. The one and only complaint i had was sex. Or the total lack of it. After so long of giving and not getting things in return a mind does wonder. Yours had wondered before you met me. I was right again, I really dated "me" "us" this was another lie she told me. she said it means nothing. Me=j Us= j and who ever she is sleeping wih (Cathy, boss, friends. it is funny to read that persons reaction on your Blogs. Hope it works, good luck

S


rm_kelli4u2dew 41F
5220 posts
3/10/2006 11:10 am

What the hell was that?


rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
3/10/2006 11:12 am

Hey Aas, you know you've finally "made" it as a blogger when you attract the crazies.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.


papyrina 51F
21133 posts
3/10/2006 11:40 am

twice in life i've given up home and workand once my country to follow my dream and crashed to earth,as a single girl i would do it again and again lol,but as a married women ,i couldn't do it,even if it was my lifes desire,too many people would get hurt by my being so totally selfish,


I'm a

and
i'm here to stay


rm_Bct2Esi 51M/50F
1375 posts
3/10/2006 11:42 am

HOLY COLORADO AND THIS IS NOT FUNNY

Why do people feel the need to such a thing?

Mike please know that I e-luvs ya,

Shit this scared me, only because he Mentioned Colorado? I have NO IDEA who this crazy man is?

OH MY ZNOOKIESGOSH, I will be back after this guy is off of here


curious082385 31F
4925 posts
3/10/2006 11:46 am

I have risked everything for love. I laid everything on the line for it...gambled on it...won a few times, lost a few times. But if the other person felt the same way that I did, loved as deeply...yes, I would do anything for that. In total agreement with you...true love is the strongest emotion there is and the most powerful force in the world.


bardicman 50M

3/10/2006 12:16 pm

SensualKatey.. The queen of Drama, Writer of more soap operas than all the writers on ABC, CBS, and NBC combined... Left that comment.

Holy Shit. Now that is some funny shit.

What the matter Katey? Jealous you didnt write it?

BLOG WARZ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I am not dead yet


rm_goddess1946 106F
13518 posts
3/10/2006 12:37 pm

Interesting thing about having THINGS in life...
the good life so to speak...you work and work and work to have
it and then wake up and realize there is no one to share it with.
What's so wonderful about that? When you are with the right person,
the journey is what is wonderful..not simply being at the destination.
When you get where you set out to go, you are the only one walking in your shoes. No one understands why you would want to give up what they want in their lives.

Bottom line is.........if you knew how to make money once, you can do it again. Much easier to do when you not with someone that makes you wonder why you are even here on this earth. Been there. Did that. Bought the T shirt. Burned it. Life is too short to sell yourself short.

I have walked. Was the best thing I ever did and I'd do it again.

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...
{=}


bardicman 50M

3/10/2006 1:05 pm

I would give up everything for the chance to start over again with the ONE. Together we would rebuild our prospective empire and it would be founded in the greatest feeling known. The feeling of unadulterated love.



I am not dead yet


elbman 41M  
2566 posts
3/10/2006 2:29 pm

WTF?!?!

E-Crazy, E-Drunk, and E-Psyco........................AAS do you support this kind of e-drama on your blog.....lmao


southrnpeach333 50F

3/10/2006 2:58 pm

I have to agree with Elbman on this one. There are responsibilities greater than I. If I thought that my being here would end my marriage I wouldn't even be here. I only gambol what I am willing to lose.


jadedbabe78 106F

3/10/2006 11:03 pm

Yikes!! What the holy crapping hell was that ????? .

And it lives in Indy ...thank God I'm moving!

Attracting all kinds now, eh aascrompn?


pinkzplaytoyz 50F

3/11/2006 7:57 am

(IGNORING WHATEVER THAT WAS COMMENT WHORING ON YOUR BLOG)

The only "thing" that I would never risk is my children, but since they are mine to raise and go with me wherever I go, I can say that I have risked and sacrificed everything else for the sake of a love that I believed was the "one"...and I would do so again. Because I believe that love is the only true thing that matters in the end.
If you are not happy, if you are living in a hell, if staying in a relationship is damaging to your own person, then I believe you have to take care of your own well being...otherwise, it will destroy you and it will still ultimately affect those around you.
But I have never left someone for someone else...I have left because I cannot live a lie, or put up "pretensions" for show.
I think you have to be honest with yourself, and live honestly.
And I think if you're looking for more outside the relationship, then you should dissolve that relationship first...maybe that seems too hard, but the consequences later on will be much worse ,much harder and more tempestuous than anything you would want.

(I wasn't referring to "you" as you,aas!)

hugs,
Pink


2TimesFirst 58M
117 posts
3/11/2006 10:16 pm

I've only loved once, I've given up material things for less than love.
They always seem to come back. I hope I get to love again. Ted


demonicsexkitten 41F
10671 posts
3/12/2006 12:40 am

I'm afraid i'm not much of a gambler, and too into security. I'm scared to give all and leave myself nothing to survive on.


oldman1776 78M
3164 posts
3/12/2006 11:03 am

I would give up all I have to find the ever lasting love.


ella1966 50F
1528 posts
3/13/2006 7:04 pm

    Quoting pinkzplaytoyz:
    (IGNORING WHATEVER THAT WAS COMMENT WHORING ON YOUR BLOG)

    The only "thing" that I would never risk is my children, but since they are mine to raise and go with me wherever I go, I can say that I have risked and sacrificed everything else for the sake of a love that I believed was the "one"...and I would do so again. Because I believe that love is the only true thing that matters in the end.
    If you are not happy, if you are living in a hell, if staying in a relationship is damaging to your own person, then I believe you have to take care of your own well being...otherwise, it will destroy you and it will still ultimately affect those around you.
    But I have never left someone for someone else...I have left because I cannot live a lie, or put up "pretensions" for show.
    I think you have to be honest with yourself, and live honestly.
    And I think if you're looking for more outside the relationship, then you should dissolve that relationship first...maybe that seems too hard, but the consequences later on will be much worse ,much harder and more tempestuous than anything you would want.

    (I wasn't referring to "you" as you,aas!)

    hugs,
    Pink
Well said Pink... this is something that I realise I can NEVER do. While I realise I may never be truly happy, I could never be so unhappy as to suffer the consequences of leaving my husband and causing him so much hurt. I could never live with myself. I only wished I had realised this earlier before embarking on some cybersearch for the "one". Would have saved myself and another person alot of grief over the past year. I have my grief regarding my marriage to deal with, but that is enough for me to deal with at present. It is a real hard one, this question.

ella X


absolutelynormal 56F
6563 posts
3/21/2006 9:52 pm

Sometimes I come across a post that even though it's days old, I must answer. I was married, quite unhappily. I married the first guy I ever dated. I'd known him since I was 14. We married when I was 19. For whatever reason when I turned 35, I realized I had never known love. I didn't set out to find it, I sorta fell into it. It was with a man who was also married, though separated at the time. We had a hellacious 3 years and a glorious 3 years. We were so close that even though he was in PA, I was in AL, I could feel when he thought about me and I know that sounds insane but I could. For example, I was at the ballpark, watching my daughter play. It was cool. I was cold, suddenly I felt warmth around me, like a big hug. My ex was at the ballpark too and we were in different cars so I went home. When I got home I called Mike and told him what I felt at the ballpark. He asked if I had read my email. I had not. He said hang up and go read it. It was an ecard, with a cartoon bear giving another cartoon bear a huge hug. I don't think of him on a daily basis, but he does come up in my blog quite a bit. I've had years to get over him. I know he still thinks of me. This relationship cost me everything. My marriage, my home, and for a while my sanity (that's still debatable), but mostly it cost me, me. I lost all self respect and I work diligently to reattain it. The grass is not greener, it's just different grass, grass goes through seasons. GLad to see you're doing better AA : ) Mac


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