aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
4/5/2006 8:08 am

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10/18/2006 6:48 am


After a bit of time to think of yesterday's encounter w/ my ex, I can still say that I'm happy about the outcome.

I am, however, still confused. One asked why she would show up? I don't know, really. She has moved on with her life and I have moved on w/ mine. My New One, which I'll come back to, has really captured my heart.

The only reason that I can think that she returned is b/c she is a very loyal friend and person. She has always been this way. . It obviously didn't work for her, as she never had the ability to say no. She, too, was always up for the party. I believe she wants to be friends. I believe it can happen. I know that I'm not pursuing anything from her. I can't ever trust her again in that regard.

Is any of this truly healthy for me? I'm some will say yes, and many will say no. However, I believe that it is. I do have the ability to be friends w/ this girl. I told her everything and she knows all of my darkest secrets.

The only regret that I have is now knowing she is currently at the stage that we were supposed to be. The only question that I have for myself is how does this McManboobs employee get her to straighten out, and I couldn't? It's frustrating to no end to know that I couldn't be more help to her at the time. I am, however, glad it's over between us.

My New One... Wow! I am more enthralled by her on a daily basis. I love the chats that we have. I love learning more about her. I love that everytime we talk, she pulls more of her walls down. I love it! She really was a big distraction for me yesterday, and she didn't even know that she filled that roll for me, until I admitted it to her. It's a very, very weird feeling to have her say that I sound too good to be true. I am, however, very true. I have many friends on here that know me in RL that might actually vouch for me. Sorry for having to repeat this, but in RL, I am not as true. I have a role to play. Here, I can be myself and am very well accepted for it.

EyeCandy33333 44F
761 posts
4/5/2006 9:25 am

So, darling-u have 2-going-at once-?Feed me Seymour!

EroticaXTC 50F

4/5/2006 9:27 am

This might sound strange, but sometimes you have to see yourself through someone- completely outside the situation's- eyes before you see the truth about yourself, and this is probably what happened to your friend, and was probably less about who this other guy and more about him just being someone new altogether. Her coming to see you, now, is her ability to have peace within about the past as well, and needing to be able to at least share that much of it with you. Which equals closure, like you said.
Having a new one sounds so exciting! And you do sound very happy with her and yourself!

catseyes23 61F

4/5/2006 9:33 am

However much I like your postings. I apologize for not following along. Are you back with your Ex. Or the new one in your life??


jadedbabe78 106F

4/5/2006 9:34 am

It is possible fro you to be friends with your ex. As long as you and her are on the same page about it, it's possible. You couldn't help her and straighten her out when you two were together because it just wasn't her time. You can wonder about that to death and never truly understand......but it just wasn't time. She had to go the full course of her actions before she realized it. And the mcmanboobs happened to be there when she realized the need.

Glad to hear about your New One....it's nice to be enthralled with someone and vice versa. As for RL...we all have roles to play, it's jusy up to us on how we want to be perceived.


digdug41 49M

4/5/2006 10:25 am

after reading back a few I see your doin your thing man, as far as women go I dont know? they can rip your heart out and then come back and try to repair it, gotta watch'em sometimes coz they will have spinnin round an round at least you got the gurly wurly online and you two meet and keep it movin. Its alright to look back just dont stare and you'll fare well in the world AC cyaroun

roaming the cyber streets of blogland

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
4/5/2006 10:30 am

Don't we all play many, many rolez ....

~smilez~ great to read you're happy

bardicman 50M

4/5/2006 11:01 am

Aascrompn - Its not that McFrymaster was able to straighten her out and you werent. Its has to do with her own personal growth and that just happened now and not a couple years ago.

Why did she just show up? Because she has now gained enough knowledge about herself and her situations and she knows she fucked up something good in her life. IS she trying to come back? Probably not but sometimes the only way to get over something we screwed up is to look it in the eye and know that we fucked up.

I am not dead yet

pragmaticCTcpl 61M/50F

4/5/2006 11:49 am

Glad to read that you have found a slice of happiness with this new one.


4/5/2006 12:29 pm

keep moving forward... never backwards

under the stars
We choose to write
you choose what you comprehend.
read twice and be nice
every key stroke... has a heart beat

impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
4/5/2006 3:57 pm

Wow...I'll second the Bardi man and say good luck to you. Growing up is hard to do.

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn

mycin62 54F

4/5/2006 5:10 pm

I agree with Jadedbabe. It's great that you've moved on, keep moving forward. Good luck with your new friend, explore all that has to offer.


kelly402005 52F

4/5/2006 6:50 pm

Well buddy,
I just sounds to me like you've been, "doing some thinking, 'getting a grip' and maybe growing up a little".......
That's life, alright! Hang in there!
If I can do this thing called life, you can!
...... Just keepin' it real.

I luv you just the same!

Have a good one,

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