Something Has Changed  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
6/28/2006 7:07 am

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10/18/2006 7:42 am

Something Has Changed

Yesterday, I had upsetting news about not being able to purchase a home b/c of the interest rate they quoted me. I was pissed. Knowing myself very well, I knew I would be quite pissed for quite sometime.

I sent my best friend the news via email that I was not going to be able to pursue this adventure with her anymore and that she will still have fun with her future roomate (another close friend of ours).

Yesterday, I decided that I would work a lot later than usual b/c I really didn't want to be around anybody. I was sweating venum. I hate being this way as it will usually cause me to pick a fight or argument with somebody for close to no reason. Just before I was about to wrap things up and just go home, I received a call from my best friend. She asked what the email was about. I told her that I just knew that I had to throw the towel in. She, very calmly, said that she's never seen me quit at anything that I've ever set out to accomplish. She said that there has to be other options, other companies, other houses to search for, etc... I, exhuasted, stated that I just wasn't even interested anymore and that I felt quite deflated. She said, "Mike, I'm not going to give up on you... You know that I'm here to help you and I know that you hate asking for it." I told her I didn't want to talk about it on the phone and that I would just go visit her at the bar to talk about these "options".

When I got to the bar, I had my diet coke waiting on me, as I promised her and myself that I was no longer going to drink at all throughout the week and reserve it for Sundays and Mondays (her days off). I sat there for three hours with her throwing ice, napkins, and straws at me. She even tickled me when she snuck up behind me. I tried as hard as I could to remain emotionless, but couldn't. I actually started laughing and started to really calm down.

Shortly after being harrased, I went to give her a hug and leave... She handed me a beer "on her". It's the beer that she refuses to serve me b/c she doesn't like how I act on it. I just smiled and so did she... She stated, "I know you've had a hard day..."

Although I'm upset with the news, it's really not the end of my world. Similar to the upsetting news pertaining to my Divergent One, it's circumstances that I quickly just accepted. This is highly unusual for me. I'm used to yelling, kicking, screaming, being a down right asshole... Although I'm still an asshole, I'm not that bad today. WTF?? Am I actually growing up? Do I have a major chemical inbalance going on?

Today, on only four hours sleep, I woke up with a smile, and believe it or not, I'm smiling as I write this. My Divergent One, yesterday, also did a very nice job of relaxing me on IM.

I'm very fortunate to have these type of people in my life. Even though I don't really know my Divergent One, I do. She knows me. She did a wonderful job of being sympathetic and being jovial at the same time.

Thanks you two! Thanks for the sympathy to everyone else who commented yesterday as well!

~ AAS (happy... *scratching head in wonder*)

Kaliedascope61 41M
4084 posts
6/28/2006 7:54 am

Its funy how certain people can put you in a better frame of mind by just simply being who they are, those are the best friends in the world, and I for one can't have enough of them.

Addy19742 43F

6/28/2006 8:25 am

Purchasing a house can be frustrating as I am going through it all myself. Sometimes the cards fall in place and sometimes they don't. I have bid on a few houses that I did not get and I was totally down and out. I just keep searching trying to look at the positives. You just never know what will happen sometimes or what curves life throws your way good or bad. It sounds like you are hanging in there. Keep smiling!

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/50F
9753 posts
6/28/2006 12:50 pm

I think the two of you ought to get married and live in the house she buys!

Purry {=}


Seriously_Real 48M

6/29/2006 8:08 pm

*still laughing at Purry's idea, because you'll never agree*

But here's the thing's not a major chemical's just balance.

You have good people surrounding you, and good people sending good thoughts. I'm happy for you, actually.

Shit is temporary, man. Love -- including love of friends -- is forever.



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