So Fast...  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
8/8/2006 5:36 am

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So Fast...

Just when things start to build, everything crashes... I thought my life was actually turning around. I thought that I found everything that I was looking for (and I did), and that it found me. Let's review, shall we?

My female best friend and I start to search for houses in the same community. She get's one. In the process, I find one. Things between 'The One' and I start to really develop. Feelings come forth, words and dreams are shared. Promises were made. My work noticed small changes in my attitude and dealings with others. I was commended for my improvements. I started coming home from work instead of going to the bar. My attitude towards others, in general, was better than ever. I've caused no fights. My shrink was contemplating taking me off of prescription.

Now, let's review the past 48 hours... My female best friend still is not talking to me from last week. My male best friend is now not talking to me from this past weekend events. My loan fell through yesterday b/c the company couldn't get the approval notice in time for the contract. 'The One' called me from her vacation to let me know that it's just not going to work out. I have to cut a major check to a lawyer today.

You see, folks? This is what I get. Don't dare try and be happy. Happy just does not work for me.

My reality is that I'm just here. I'm here taking up space and working a job. This is about as good as it's going to be for me. FFS! Why can't I just be good enough?? Just once!


Seriously_Real 48M

8/8/2006 6:44 am

I am really sorry, man. Really very sorry. You know, you're going to get alot of support, alot of "buck up little camper," alot of hugs, and alot of things that you yourself have done in the past for others.

You will also not really want to hear it, especially the part about how tough times don't last. So just do me this favor -- put it all in a box, on a shelf, and trust me when I tell you that it IS true. You WILL get it turned around. And the darkness does NOT last forever. You don't need to believe it now. In time, you will, though, right about the time it matters the most.


GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11238 posts
8/8/2006 7:01 am

~ nodz ~ in agreement with SR

~ hugz ~

EroticaXTC 49F

8/8/2006 8:11 am

In the middle of it all myself
Big Hugz{=}

rm_macallan4u 46M
968 posts
8/8/2006 8:40 am

Happy did work for you. Everything in this blog shows it did work! The window was just a small one this time. The next "happy" time will have a bigger window, and the time after that an even bigger one. Remember how good it feels and make your choices in life to get that feeling back. This is not an end, it is just a beginning. Don't fall into the old patterns, if you do, you are doomed to repeat the past yet again.

Just my 2 cents...

Take care bro, and just ride this storm out.

PurplePeach72 44F  
9199 posts
8/8/2006 8:44 am

Hang in there. We enjoyed meeting you, that wasn't arranged, and you're making progress. Just hang int there, it will get better.


rm_mmmgoodnova 105M/105F
1259 posts
8/8/2006 1:07 pm

I am sorry to hear all of this.

ArtisticTwist75 41F
2505 posts
8/8/2006 2:19 pm

I'm with SR and EXTC... you know where to find me if you need to talk.


rm_PurryKitty2 48M/49F
9753 posts
8/8/2006 5:22 pm

Hey u,

I say this with the sweetest voice you can hear, STOP IT!!! GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF!!!! Things happen for a reason and while I wish I was there to hold you and let you cry it out, this is all I can give ya. So chin up, you have friends here.....let your best friend cool off and she will call you. As for the loan, there will be another. If they want u to have that house they will help u. If not, it wasnt meant to be. Trust me when I said my friend "you dont know where this road is leading!!" All of this will make you stronger and know we are here for you!

BIG HUG and hang on! Think about it, it could be worse, right?

Purry {=}


funintheday2006 56M
9659 posts
8/8/2006 11:54 pm

Listen to SR mate, he is talking sense and is spot on.
You are good enough Aas, you know that.

rm_AnOddGirl 57F
3469 posts
8/11/2006 10:24 am

Believe it or not, it could be worse - you could live in New Orleans, the newest thing in a Frontier Town....

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