Regretful Post  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
2/28/2006 3:22 pm

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Regretful Post


This is going to be a very hard post for me! However, please bare w/ me...

When I first started this whole AdultFriendFinder experience, I was extremely skeptical of what might happen for me. On one hand, I thought I would get all of these beautiful women to chase me. On the other hand, I also knew that it was more than likely going to turn out to be much like the other crap sites I've been on as well. Me chasing and not getting much interaction.

I started like everyone else did. Heh... I went to the Advice Line area to accumulate points in order to get membership. I got tired of that w/in a month. I, of course, was sending out about 50 emails per day to a lot of sexy bots. They were kind enough to at least send me their own personalized website w/ their personal contact information and everything on it. I thought that was nice of them. I hadn't even had a real email conversation w/ anybody. Then, I discovered the AdultFriendFinder IM feature. Cool! I get more toys to mess w/. I sent out many pages a day, again to be ignored. But then... then, one day, as I literally was about to give up, I came across this "blog" area.

Blogging... I must've read some blogs and commented for about 1 week. I thought that maybe I could give it a try. What if people laugh at me? What if I misspell stuff? What if what I'm saying makes no sense to anybody at all? I finally realized that it didn't matter. I found the best blog on this site, to me. It was about a boy who liked this girl, who liked him back. This boy would trade any sucker, skateboard, GI Joes, literally anything to be with this girl, whom he loved dearly. What did he do? He did just that! He traded everything he had for this love. Why, you might ask? It's simple! He believed in something that everybody else has a hard time comprehending. He actually believed that nothing could stop love! This blog changed my life, at the time. It reminded me of the cool feelings that I've felt when watching Holly Wood movies. It was actually working for this guy!

The relationship for my former mentor didn't work out. What was he left with? He was left w/ nothing. He couldn't get any of his old possessions back. He traded them. That's what the deal was! But, he never stopped believing that love wins in the end. It may not be this girl, but there will be one somewhere just for him.

I love this thinking and feeling. I was inspired to start my own blog. It was daunting to write my actual feelings down on paper. I was scared shitless (still am but don't tell anyone). You see, I believe in fairy tales. I believe in overcoming adversity to get what you want, what you need. This was the start of my blog. The difference between my mentor and me is that he's a hell of a lot smarter than I. He writes like no other on this site. I tried to use a little humor to get my point across. Don't get me wrong, some of it was really shitty, but it was at least a little humorous. This was my style. Not much of anything other than dumping out my heart onto this screen and making it humorous, no matter how I felt. It worked for me, until...

He disappeared. He had to get out! Something beyond his control took him off of this site. I was crushed. I had no more mentor. I actually had great inspiration from this guy. I would come up w/ ideas for writing based on his writings. I did the only thing I knew to do. I started to branch out. I started watching other blogs. There was a lot of crap, but the ones that I found and "watched" were great! I couldn't believe the talent. I was ecstatic. I started to leave comments on blogs that I would've never contributed to before. I mostly stuck to the guys' blogs b/c I could relate to them. Some were sooooo serious. Some were hysterical. Some were both! If it was this good, maybe it gets better if I just branch out a little more...

One day, I came across this blog that I didn't quite know how to take. There were a couple of problems. One, there was quite a bit of poetry. Whose got the time to read, understand, and comment on poetry? Not me! Wait though, this chick is HOT! Maybe I should just read a little of it to see where she is coming from. This stuff is really very good! I'll leave a little comment saying so. I did it again the next day, and the next and so on. If I keep leaving nice comments (totally against what I would do in the "real world")maybe she'll notice me. Even better, what if I start to write poetry? I can give it a try... I know that I might be bad at it (shut up!), but maybe she'll understand what I'm trying to say and it will at least start somewhat of a dialogue on email or something...

There it is! That's what got me to start this little adventure. I call it an adventure, b/c it scared me, but was also very exciting! It scared me b/c it was the first time in a very, very long time that I opened up my heart and put on paper what I was feeling. Was it love? No. Was it a fun little game? Yes, in a way. I wanted her to notice in order to start a dialogue. Maybe through that dialogue I can let my true personality shine. Throughout this process, I had all of you incredibly patient and awesome people leave me suggestions... "Just email her already" you would cry! Heh... Yes, I should have. It's not that I was scared. It was that I seriously thought that she knew what was going on. As somebody said in my blog today, it's not always easy for somebody else to know what I'm trying to say. Yes guys, I admit it. I fucked up. I fucked up badly. I should've taken all of your advice. Why? It's not b/c I lost or looked like an idiot (which ended up happening also), but it's b/c I seriously pissed off somebody. I don't do that... Well, I do it in my everyday life, but I don't do it here! There is another very popular female blogger that wrote in her blog the other day that she's here to make friends and not enemy’s. So was I.

From the beginning of my blogging experience to that of the event just listed, I had numerous fabulous people comment on my blog. I want to say to each and every one of you that I e-love you all! I truly do. I see the love that everybody shares. That has inspired me to be a bit better in my everyday life. I have for the most part. I love the support, I love the pretty pictures, I love the laughs and I love the sorrow! At least people on here feel. I mean they truly feel!! That's awesome. Please know that it has brought me great joy! Thank you!

So here we are. You know why I started. You know how I feel about you all. You know where I fucked up... What's next? I think, but am not sure, that this is my 93rd post. What's the celebration post? Is it 100? I think that would be a fun post... However, it's w/ welled up eyes and an extremely heavy heart to say that it just will not happen; not for me. It won't happen for me anytime soon. I can't stand pissing people off on here. It was a very stupid mistake that caused somebody discomfort. I can't show face around here for a while. I hope that she posts about my stupidity. I'm ashamed for my immaturity and for not listening to you great people! She really does need to come out w/ what I did wrong.

Listen everybody, I feel like I'm breaking up w/ a girlfriend! This is not easy for me. This has become my "fix". This brought me great pleasure while it lasted. I will truly miss this place. I'm not going to do anything too rash, yet, like delete my entire blog, but I'm punching out. I'm just gonna soar the thermals and figure out which direction life is going to blow me.

Good bye good people,

Mike (with tear-filled eyes) ~ AAScrompn

jadedbabe78 106F

2/28/2006 3:53 pm

I am going to tell you what I tell anyone who is leaving.

First, I wish you luck in your endeavors and I seriously hope you find what you're looking for.

Second....you can't please everyone. No matter how hard you try, you can't make everyone happy. There is always going to be someone who is going to be pissed off or upset.

It's a never ending cycle. You can't win them all. I know it would be great if you could...but you can't. It's not a personal issue with you. Some people will just be rubbed the wrong way regardless.

We all do stupid things, as well. It happens. We all have embarressing stories that we're ashamed of. It happens, sweetie.

If you choose to leave permanently...you will be missed.

Much luck to you-
Jadey


HBowt2 59F

2/28/2006 3:55 pm

Everyone's entitled to make mistakes Mike...it's how we deal with them that makes us who we are....don't run away...show your face .....and then see which direction life takes you.....Take care of you xxx


MaggiesWishes 60F

2/28/2006 3:59 pm

oooooooooooooooo NO!!! Come back, you have something to say. Everyone hurts, at least a time or two. And we are human, first. We are prone to make mistakes here and there.
It's not time, give it time.
I realize that "I'm sorry" doesn't say the "all intended", but it can help. Maybe she will figure it out, too.
You don't seem like such a bad guy and can be let off the hook, at least from what I've read.

"Hey, you squeeze the toothpaste tube in the middle?"
Now, that might have some repercussions.

Just give it some time. Take time if that's what heals you from within, but come back. However long it takes, you got some nice folks here, waiting.

All my best wishes,
warm ones too!
Maggie


angelofmercy5 59F
17881 posts
2/28/2006 4:19 pm

Mike...I read your blog often, although it has only been recently that I've commented. I know that I don't know this situation, but is it really worth leaving the site, the blogs, and the people who obviously care about you? You have a nice following of friends who comment regularaly on your blog, and you will be missing out on alot, and so will they. Only you know what you need to do, and I'm sure that your friends will support you either way, and continue to love ya! Best of luck....if you go...you will be missed!


49AK 55M
1823 posts
2/28/2006 4:36 pm

I think there's a flaw in your logic. I am a pretty sensitive guy, and it matters to me what people think of me. I am embarrassed when I anger or hurt someone else, because I see it as a flaw in myself that I caused that emotion in someone else (an emotion that, when I feel it, is so uncomfortable) and I would never do that, and had I forseen it, would have done anything to avoid.

However, blogs are a lot like your back yard. They're your space to do as you like with them, with the added ability to invite others to comment on your landscaping, so to speak. The flaw in your logic is that you shouldn't let your lawn go to weeds just because your neighbor didn't like your comments on their gardening. Of course, it is more complicated than that... but short of breaking the rules of the site and the rules of civility and common sense, it is your friend's right to be angry as much as it is your right to speak out.

If nothing else, use the blog to sort out your feelings. After all, the only person that really has to like your back yard is you. You don't like daisies, don't plant them in your yard. But if you do, have at it. It is for your enjoyment.


southrnpeach333 50F

2/28/2006 4:41 pm

And just where do yo think you are going? You can't leave us. We have to keep our ranks up for the Atlanta Area Blogging Domination Plan.


soft_ntempting 41F

2/28/2006 4:42 pm

hey, i was just starting to like ur blog!

Dreamz4U
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soft_ntempting

soft_ntempting


silkysmoothlegs3 105F

2/28/2006 4:45 pm

Mike i know how u feel
I feel the exact same
Ive now deleted my entire blogg
Apart from a few i want to keep
Im leaving for reasonsof a different nature
Mainly due to a few ignorant bloggs that were directed in my direction..
People seem to thing the people on the Populist get up every day and fight for the right to stay there

THATS CRAP

small minded people think that..

Thing was i couldnt handle the aggro i got from so called friends..

The nicest people on AdultFriendFinder are on these bloggs.. i mean the bloggs that have been here a long time..

To all of you on the populist silky loves u all

Dont let small minded twisted people drive you away..

Love silky xxxxxxxxxxxxxx


frangipanigal 45F
10406 posts
2/28/2006 4:46 pm

Now I am crying too. She won't care what has been written and I am pretty sure she is not pissed off with you so why go? She seems to be a very understanding person and I think she would probably be flattered! No one else is pissed off...everyone understands that you had a crush on her, jeez half this site does!

Look at the balance...all the goog things you get from the blogs V's one mistake (and I really don't even agree its a mistake anyway..just a learning experience).

Look at the people you have met for real the other night for drinks...you would have never met those new friends if not for your blog.

Take the break if you need it (I've taken 2 leaves of absence in my time here) and then come back and make us all smile again OK?

Look after yourself and let the rest of us worry about ourselves.

L xxx


campfirecozy 67M

2/28/2006 4:54 pm

Mike,

Don't go too far. Lay low if that is what you need to do. Take a break. Come up for air. Take a walk...whatever will give you the space you need, ok?

I have no idea what you did to piss someone off here, but I feel that I have just finished reading a heartfelt apology...and I cannot imagine that won't have an impact.

kind regards,
Cozy


elbman 41M  
2566 posts
2/28/2006 5:34 pm

You can't leave, I wont let you.

You started a group, people joined you're the leader and not allowed to quit.

If you leave some of these folks may actually endure my ramblings.....you don't want that on your head.

Imagine all the ladies you are leaving stuck in my hands......do you really trust ME with that responsibility?

If guilting didn't work I wish you the best of luck, because you are a decent bloke, and as I've posted elsewhere bad things happen to good people to make them better people.

Find me if you need to.


rm_PurryKitty2 48M/50F
9753 posts
2/28/2006 5:43 pm

Mike,

I dont know who you made mad but say you are sorry and keep posting! Its not fair to you that an individual could have so much power to make you stop doing something you love and its admirable of you to want to stop but I am sure whatever you did was not intentional and you were excited. Just say you are sorry to her and please BLOG ON!!!!!

Love ya,

Purry {=}

Purry


oldman1776 78M
3164 posts
2/28/2006 5:44 pm

Mike.

I hate to see you go. I don't think you pissed her off so bad that she wouldn't forgive you.

but if you leave remember you have a lot of friends here that want you back.


kelly402005 52F

2/28/2006 5:57 pm

*deep sigh*

....... This shit is almost like being at work.........
(I won't elaborate...... )

To each his own........

I wish you only the best.........


caressmewell 53F

2/28/2006 6:56 pm

Now listen to your Sis...no one is mad. I would like to point out that you made the slot machine tonight..yep, your picture was shown on the actively watched blogs list..WooHoo!! So you can't leave now!

Besides, do you want elb to have to deal with all of your female followers (or they him)? As he pointed out, you are the leader of the Atlanta Bloggers Group...so you gotta stay.

You know we are all here for you. Love ya!


Allsleeky 36F

2/28/2006 7:45 pm

Mike...We are all make mistakes at some point in our lives, that's what being human is all about. The fact that you acknoleged your mistake and feel sorry about it is a great start. I will hate to see you go, as you are one of the people here on AdultFriendFinder who made me feel welcome and comfortable blogging. Perhaps a break...some time away from all this might help. I'll try to stick around myself waiting for your 100th post.
I couldn't not cry reading your post! I hope to see you around sooner than later

Allsleeky


rm_emmie234 52F
608 posts
3/1/2006 12:03 am

HEY! Stop feeling the regrets! Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Gotta have that attitude. Also, gotta remember, this is all just virtual. Yes, peoples feelings can get hurt, and you have OVERLY applogized. We are all adults.
So, stay, keep us smiling, and just have fun.
~E~


papyrina 51F
21133 posts
3/1/2006 2:54 am

frangipanigal put it very well

We all enjoy your blog,we enjoy you from your blog and those lucky ladies who met you the other night like you for being you.

we all make mistakes some woppers,i do all the time but that is not a reason to run away,as someone else has said ,use your blog to get your feelings out .

if you cannot do that for now have a few days off and then come back to it.
Hugs sweet sensitive mike


I'm a

and
i'm here to stay


spinmedown 49M
3626 posts
3/1/2006 3:58 am

"I believe in overcoming adversity to get what you want, what you need."

I'm using your own words against you for your benefit.

Take a break. Enjoy the nice weather this week. Spring is in the air in Atlanta. Come beck when you are ready to try again. Til then, you will be missed.

Most people are other people... FUCKING CHARACTER LIMIT!!! ~Oscar Wilde


fantasylover_05 62M

3/1/2006 8:14 am

Mike my Friend

You know how I feel and what I think......

Don't compound one mistake with another by leaving!!!

You are HUMAN and to be human is to err.....

BLOG ON MY FRIEND!!!


Holly_Would 106F

3/1/2006 8:32 am

I don't believe you're an awful person, and I don't think anyone is angry with you. And, honestly, leaving is probably not the answer.

Perhaps a little break is in order, if that is what you feel you must do....however, it appears that you get far too much out of this little adventure to throw it all away for one unfortunate misadventure.

Best wishes in finding the right choice for you...


catseyes23 61F

3/1/2006 10:02 am

"I will truly miss this place. I'm not going to do anything too rash, yet, like delete my entire blog, but I'm punching out."

Take a little time out to think about it. You may feel better another day. Many a time I've posted something and woke up the next morning and just had to delete some posts because they seemed too negative in the real light. Just know that we all respect your feelings and don't feel bad coming back with your tail between your legs. It's hard to do, but it's also a thing called "Pride."

Cats...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 5:47 am

    Quoting jadedbabe78:
    I am going to tell you what I tell anyone who is leaving.

    First, I wish you luck in your endeavors and I seriously hope you find what you're looking for.

    Second....you can't please everyone. No matter how hard you try, you can't make everyone happy. There is always going to be someone who is going to be pissed off or upset.

    It's a never ending cycle. You can't win them all. I know it would be great if you could...but you can't. It's not a personal issue with you. Some people will just be rubbed the wrong way regardless.

    We all do stupid things, as well. It happens. We all have embarressing stories that we're ashamed of. It happens, sweetie.

    If you choose to leave permanently...you will be missed.

    Much luck to you-
    Jadey
jaded - I agree that you can't make everyone happy! Sometimes, however, that also includes yourself. I know that you'll agree w/ that. Thanks for your very kind words! {=}


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 5:48 am

    Quoting HBowt2:
    Everyone's entitled to make mistakes Mike...it's how we deal with them that makes us who we are....don't run away...show your face .....and then see which direction life takes you.....Take care of you xxx
hbowt - I'm showing my face... It's a little red right now, but I'm still here! Thanks! I have to start all over... It'll be ok though.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 5:50 am

    Quoting MaggiesWishes:
    oooooooooooooooo NO!!! Come back, you have something to say. Everyone hurts, at least a time or two. And we are human, first. We are prone to make mistakes here and there.
    It's not time, give it time.
    I realize that "I'm sorry" doesn't say the "all intended", but it can help. Maybe she will figure it out, too.
    You don't seem like such a bad guy and can be let off the hook, at least from what I've read.

    "Hey, you squeeze the toothpaste tube in the middle?"
    Now, that might have some repercussions.

    Just give it some time. Take time if that's what heals you from within, but come back. However long it takes, you got some nice folks here, waiting.

    All my best wishes,
    warm ones too!
    Maggie
maggies - Lol - I squeeze mine from the bottom to the top... doesn't everybody do that?? Tell you what, you can come over and use my toothpaste...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 5:52 am

    Quoting angelofmercy5:
    Mike...I read your blog often, although it has only been recently that I've commented. I know that I don't know this situation, but is it really worth leaving the site, the blogs, and the people who obviously care about you? You have a nice following of friends who comment regularaly on your blog, and you will be missing out on alot, and so will they. Only you know what you need to do, and I'm sure that your friends will support you either way, and continue to love ya! Best of luck....if you go...you will be missed!
angel - Thank you, sweetie! This did let me know how many people truly do care. I appreciate your putting up w/ me. {=}


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 5:54 am

    Quoting amberabercrombie:
    Wish I had gotten the chance to get to know you , good luck in whatever you choose to do!
amber - First off, thank you for taking the time to visit and comment on my blog! It's much appreciated!! Anyway, I guess that I can't go away. The masses just demand otherwise. Please take the time to linger around and learn the happier side of me.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 5:59 am

    Quoting 49AK:
    I think there's a flaw in your logic. I am a pretty sensitive guy, and it matters to me what people think of me. I am embarrassed when I anger or hurt someone else, because I see it as a flaw in myself that I caused that emotion in someone else (an emotion that, when I feel it, is so uncomfortable) and I would never do that, and had I forseen it, would have done anything to avoid.

    However, blogs are a lot like your back yard. They're your space to do as you like with them, with the added ability to invite others to comment on your landscaping, so to speak. The flaw in your logic is that you shouldn't let your lawn go to weeds just because your neighbor didn't like your comments on their gardening. Of course, it is more complicated than that... but short of breaking the rules of the site and the rules of civility and common sense, it is your friend's right to be angry as much as it is your right to speak out.

    If nothing else, use the blog to sort out your feelings. After all, the only person that really has to like your back yard is you. You don't like daisies, don't plant them in your yard. But if you do, have at it. It is for your enjoyment.
49AK - I think you have made a very valid point, however, I also did things on her blog. I'm not mad at myself for having feelings for her. I'm mad at myself for having miscommunication issues. I could have emailed her my intentions as well instead of making this too much of a game.

Thank you, my friend, for taking time to write a very long comment on my blog! I'll still be around so I hope to see you again. Cheers!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:02 am

    Quoting southrnpeach333:
    And just where do yo think you are going? You can't leave us. We have to keep our ranks up for the Atlanta Area Blogging Domination Plan.
southrn - Fine! You win. It's only b/c you demanded it! You're showing up this time, right??


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:03 am

soft - What?? You didn't like any of the funny stuff before all of this??? FFS! Thanks, sweetie, for commenting. I'll have to come and check you out soon... *hugs*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:06 am

    Quoting silkysmoothlegs3:
    Mike i know how u feel
    I feel the exact same
    Ive now deleted my entire blogg
    Apart from a few i want to keep
    Im leaving for reasonsof a different nature
    Mainly due to a few ignorant bloggs that were directed in my direction..
    People seem to thing the people on the Populist get up every day and fight for the right to stay there

    THATS CRAP

    small minded people think that..

    Thing was i couldnt handle the aggro i got from so called friends..

    The nicest people on AdultFriendFinder are on these bloggs.. i mean the bloggs that have been here a long time..

    To all of you on the populist silky loves u all

    Dont let small minded twisted people drive you away..

    Love silky xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Silky - It's sooooo nice to see you out here again! I've missed your great legs and bold blog!! Thanks for saying hello. I'm going to try and tough this out. She's on the populist, too... I'll get over it. *hugs and kisses and groping of asses*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:11 am

    Quoting frangipanigal:
    Now I am crying too. She won't care what has been written and I am pretty sure she is not pissed off with you so why go? She seems to be a very understanding person and I think she would probably be flattered! No one else is pissed off...everyone understands that you had a crush on her, jeez half this site does!

    Look at the balance...all the goog things you get from the blogs V's one mistake (and I really don't even agree its a mistake anyway..just a learning experience).

    Look at the people you have met for real the other night for drinks...you would have never met those new friends if not for your blog.

    Take the break if you need it (I've taken 2 leaves of absence in my time here) and then come back and make us all smile again OK?

    Look after yourself and let the rest of us worry about ourselves.

    L xxx
frangi - You are so damn sweet! You are right. She was not pissed. She is an understanding person. I do get great pleasure from the blogs from great people such as yourself. We have talked about this off the blogs, but thank you again!! Smile for me.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:19 am

    Quoting rm_rabbit8747:
    Mike,

    I hate to hear that you are bailing when I have only just begun - you being MY inspiration and all. Your post pains me. It hurts me because isn't that what we all want (or at least I do) - the fairy tail. We have delusions in the back of our mind - that some day it will come. I just...it makes me sad that you would give up on that. I makes me sad that you would think of yourself as second best after all the nice things I've seen written about you. I know you are an incredible person. And I know about feeling second best - I'm the whole middle child - with the older sister who was a beauty queen and stuff. Funny thing was I grew out of that. Grew out of it and realized all the things I had to offer that she didn't. And MOREOVER - that it wasn't a competition. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It's not an absolute. But there is someone that will get you - someone that will get me. I believe in that. I really do. I mean my ex didn't get me - flat out didn't and I left him. Also - have you read Jeep boy's ideal woman - it made me smiles as a woman - cause he likes short stocky chicks - I always thought all men wanted supermodels - i.e. women who were 5'10 and 110 pounds. I'm like 5'6" so I always thought I sucked until I realized that men don't care about that kind of stuff. I don't know. What am I trying to say. I can't believe this girl has so hurt you, but don't let it curtail the work that you are doing on here. Don't let it kill your spirit - those Matthew McConahey (spelling? lol) eyes and smiles. Don't let it steal from what you are - because you rock.

    Rabbit
Rabbit - My spirit was brutally injured a couple of years ago. I've spent the better part of that time learning and growing. It's always been my goal to go for MY ideal 10. It's taken a lot of patience and practice, but for whatever stupid reason, I decided now was the time to try it. I did it in the most obscure fashion. She is, from what I can tell, a 10 to me. It really just stung when the return was, WTF? I soooo badly miscommunicated that I froze. This, mind you, is for the whole world to witness.

I'm flattered, very much, that you call me (of all people) your inspiration! You have come from adversity and seem to have your shit together. And Matthew?? He's a Mike wannabe... Heh... {=}


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:22 am

    Quoting campfirecozy:
    Mike,

    Don't go too far. Lay low if that is what you need to do. Take a break. Come up for air. Take a walk...whatever will give you the space you need, ok?

    I have no idea what you did to piss someone off here, but I feel that I have just finished reading a heartfelt apology...and I cannot imagine that won't have an impact.

    kind regards,
    Cozy
Cozy - Thank you, sir! I've just picked my ass off of the ground and am in the middle of brushing myself off. I'm getting ready to battle again. This time, it's a different target, but I'm almost ready to wage another attack... Cheers, my friend!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:26 am

    Quoting elbman:
    You can't leave, I wont let you.

    You started a group, people joined you're the leader and not allowed to quit.

    If you leave some of these folks may actually endure my ramblings.....you don't want that on your head.

    Imagine all the ladies you are leaving stuck in my hands......do you really trust ME with that responsibility?

    If guilting didn't work I wish you the best of luck, because you are a decent bloke, and as I've posted elsewhere bad things happen to good people to make them better people.

    Find me if you need to.
Elbman... Wow! Where do I start?? I'm a leader? ppffttt! I'm a dude that wants to meet more friends b/c I get bored as hell hanging out at my house! I thought this might be a fun way. Don't think for a minute that Caressmewell couldn't take this project over!

The point about leaving all of these women behind to deal w/ you... well, let's just say that you have them already spying on you. It's b/c you're only 3'1 that you didn't see them watching. They're watching. They are only using me to get to you, ass!

I'll see you this weekend. 1 case this time, no shots.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:41 am

    Quoting rm_PurryKitty2:
    Mike,

    I dont know who you made mad but say you are sorry and keep posting! Its not fair to you that an individual could have so much power to make you stop doing something you love and its admirable of you to want to stop but I am sure whatever you did was not intentional and you were excited. Just say you are sorry to her and please BLOG ON!!!!!

    Love ya,

    Purry {=}
Purry - I thank you very much for this comment! It wasn't Her that was driving me off of this site, it was me. I just get tired of searching and searching for somebody that is my 10 only to find out that it's a bot or that I'm too short, or not completely at my best when it comes to my physique, etc... I got down on myself for thinking that I might actually find what I'm looking for here, but fail yet again.

I'm going to continue to blog, but I have a feeling I'm done searching for quite a while.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:43 am

    Quoting oldman1776:
    Mike.

    I hate to see you go. I don't think you pissed her off so bad that she wouldn't forgive you.

    but if you leave remember you have a lot of friends here that want you back.
Oldman - You're right, I think... I don't think that I pissed her off, I think that I just freaked her out quite a bit!! She probably thinks I'm stalking her. Lol - Live and learn, right? Thanks for the support.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:46 am

    Quoting kelly402005:
    *deep sigh*

    ....... This shit is almost like being at work.........
    (I won't elaborate...... )

    To each his own........

    I wish you only the best.........
kelly - Lol - I only do these things to get a rise outta you!! Thank you, sweetie! {=}


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:56 am

    Quoting newaroundhere64:
    huh...your name is Mike...I've often wondered. Personal identities are more often than not gaurded here. Thank you for coming out into the light.

    Mike, no one knows what you're going through like you do. But, from here in the shadows, it looks like you're stuck in a picture. It's just a thought. You may never read this, but I'll put it out into the ethernet anyway. You are senior to the picture, Mike. You can let it go at any time you choose. It's simple to do, not always easy, but simple, just the same. I hope that moment comes sooner than later for you, but all in due and perfect time.

    You have done things here, Mike, that I still dream of; have a successful blog (I know it is because you have a group of friends that read you every day), you've found your voice, have gone through the long process of making e-friends and have shared with us the fuition of those friendships. I thank you for that. You've given me hope.

    Tears are being shed for you, Mike. Tears from people who have never met you in person but have seen You through your blog. We e-love you, too, my friend (might I consider you that? I seem to know you through your writings). You, and others, have inspired me to start my own blog. And others have been inspired.

    Take your time, heal your self. Come back and visit from time to time. And when you're ready, we welcome you to play again. It's all play, Mike. That's why they call Life a game!

    I'll miss you and your stories. I wish you well and I wish you Peace.

    May you get what you want, want what you have and have what you get.

    Namaste`
    Ray
newaroundhere - Thank you, sir, for taking an ass load of time to comment on my blog! You too will have a successful blog. It comes w/ a lot of patience, a lot of copying ideas, a lot of time to comment on comments and a lot of fun...

I too had a person that gave me hope. This person sacrificed everything for his One True Love. It worked for him for a while. That's what I believe in. He was an excellent writer and motivated me to start my own. I thought that if I were as successful as he was, that I too could find my One True Love.

You may consider me your friend. Anybody that takes the time to put forth their ideas onto my blog should be considered a friend. Why? It's because you are wasting something of your own to share on my little space in the sky. You are wasting your time! Time is very valuable, to me, and therefore, I thank you for doing it.

Thanks! I'll be stopping by soon.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 6:58 am

    Quoting caressmewell:
    Now listen to your Sis...no one is mad. I would like to point out that you made the slot machine tonight..yep, your picture was shown on the actively watched blogs list..WooHoo!! So you can't leave now!

    Besides, do you want elb to have to deal with all of your female followers (or they him)? As he pointed out, you are the leader of the Atlanta Bloggers Group...so you gotta stay.

    You know we are all here for you. Love ya!
Big sis... WooooHoooo! Slot machine?? I think venus might be out of alignment or something! Fine, I'll stay, but it's only b/c of the frigging slot machine. *hugs*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:01 am

    Quoting Allsleeky:
    Mike...We are all make mistakes at some point in our lives, that's what being human is all about. The fact that you acknoleged your mistake and feel sorry about it is a great start. I will hate to see you go, as you are one of the people here on AdultFriendFinder who made me feel welcome and comfortable blogging. Perhaps a break...some time away from all this might help. I'll try to stick around myself waiting for your 100th post.
    I couldn't not cry reading your post! I hope to see you around sooner than later

    Allsleeky
allsleeky - You are too much of a sweetie!!! I'm very happy that you are comfortable blogging. You should be! You have a great following b/c of your staying positive. I'm sorry that you cried. If you can't forgive me, will you at least /8 me?? *hugs*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:04 am

    Quoting rm_mineiswetter:
    I've already told you how I felt about this. If you do decide to take a break, you know you will be missed!
    (smile)
mineiswetter - What can I say?? You used to not ever comment! Look at you go... You now comment everyday! That's dedication. Now I have to call you out. I know you. I know who and what you are all about. My challenge to you is simple. You need to start your own blog. You read them daily. You comment a little. Start your own! If I have to stay, you have to blog... Deal?


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:05 am

    Quoting rm_emmie234:
    HEY! Stop feeling the regrets! Nothing ventured, nothing gained. Gotta have that attitude. Also, gotta remember, this is all just virtual. Yes, peoples feelings can get hurt, and you have OVERLY applogized. We are all adults.
    So, stay, keep us smiling, and just have fun.
    ~E~
emmie - Well I'm sorry for having said sorry so much... Will you ever forgive me? I'm sorry... Heh... Thanks! Now what can I do to keep you smiling...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:08 am

    Quoting papyrina:
    frangipanigal put it very well

    We all enjoy your blog,we enjoy you from your blog and those lucky ladies who met you the other night like you for being you.

    we all make mistakes some woppers,i do all the time but that is not a reason to run away,as someone else has said ,use your blog to get your feelings out .

    if you cannot do that for now have a few days off and then come back to it.
    Hugs sweet sensitive mike
papy - Yes, she put it very well... She is a great girl whom I've come to respect deeply. I will stay and fart around for a while, I guess... Thank you for your support as well!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:10 am

    Quoting spinmedown:
    "I believe in overcoming adversity to get what you want, what you need."

    I'm using your own words against you for your benefit.

    Take a break. Enjoy the nice weather this week. Spring is in the air in Atlanta. Come beck when you are ready to try again. Til then, you will be missed.
spinmedown - Hey, my local friend! I hate when people do that! It sucks having to eat your own words... Damn! Anyway, I had no idea that you even read my blog. Thank you for taking time to comment. This actually had a major impact on my desire to stay. Thank you!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:14 am

    Quoting foxtrotter2000:
    Everybody falls, aascrompn...yet, it's not the number of falls you've made. what is essential is the manner in which you rise up after each fall...
    You deserve a break, but please don't leave totally...first it's tabitha, then MOfun, then now, YOU...don't go...
foxtrotter - Thank you! I'm getting back up and brushing myself off as we speak. I'll still be here and will continue to write. I guess I just have to find a new muse. *hugs*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:15 am

    Quoting foxtrotter2000:
    Everybody falls, aascrompn...yet, it's not the number of falls you've made. what is essential is the manner in which you rise up after each fall...
    You deserve a break, but please don't leave totally...first it's tabitha, then MOfun, then now, YOU...don't go...
fantasy - Blogging on, my friend. Blogging on.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:18 am

    Quoting Holly_Would:
    I don't believe you're an awful person, and I don't think anyone is angry with you. And, honestly, leaving is probably not the answer.

    Perhaps a little break is in order, if that is what you feel you must do....however, it appears that you get far too much out of this little adventure to throw it all away for one unfortunate misadventure.

    Best wishes in finding the right choice for you...
Holly - You are right. I do normally enjoy it very much. I know that you don't always like to comment, but thanks for taking the time to do so on this post. Thanks again! *hugs*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:21 am

    Quoting catseyes23:
    "I will truly miss this place. I'm not going to do anything too rash, yet, like delete my entire blog, but I'm punching out."

    Take a little time out to think about it. You may feel better another day. Many a time I've posted something and woke up the next morning and just had to delete some posts because they seemed too negative in the real light. Just know that we all respect your feelings and don't feel bad coming back with your tail between your legs. It's hard to do, but it's also a thing called "Pride."

    Cats...
Cats - Thanks. For being a relatively newcomer to my blog, that means a lot. In order to keep up the integrity of my blog, however, I'm going to leave this up here. I'll face everything again. This is something that I needed to do... Just think if she had said yes and was a little interested. Would I have been ashamed of these actions then? NO WAY! *hugs*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:23 am

    Quoting rm_valleyrat4:
    A good rant every now and then feels good doesn't it?

    Okay now cut the crap and get back to writing.
Valley - You, sir, are a funny man! Lol


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 7:26 am

    Quoting travelingintexas:
    Written after the fact...

    Hey man...

    Ya know... there was a time when a quit like this would have scored 60 to 100 comments. Things just aren't like they used ta be lmao Oh well... I miss the good old days LOL
Trav - I think what's happened is that the current blog leaders destroyed it for the rest of us... Lol I'll bet I would've been at the top after this.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 8:53 am

allsleeky - You are too much of a sweetie!!! I'm very happy that you are comfortable blogging. You should be! You have a great following b/c of your staying positive. I'm sorry that you cried. If you can't forgive me, will you at least ?* me?? *hugs*


Babel__Fish 45F

3/3/2006 2:01 am

Well I got here late and I hope that you have changed your mind about this! Blogland would not be the place that it is without members like you who are not afraid to show their TRUE feelings, a lot of members do not even show .o1% of themselves as you do in your posts because they are afraid to get hurt. I say that they are hiding themselves and using this site as a fantasy land, playing pretend and also f*cking with others emotions along the way.

*shakes head*

STAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*kusjes*
Babel {=}


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