End of...  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
8/13/2006 8:09 pm

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End of...

It's nearing the end of Summer... The beginning of Summer looked so fucking promising. I just remember thinking to myself that this was the year it was all going to change.

At the start, I was going to transform my body. I was going to get into the best shape of my life. I had a relationship going. I had started the process of purchasing a house. I had my best friend having parties every week. We had blogger events...

Now, it's nearing the end. In as few as a couple of weeks, I've lost more relationships than I have in the past 2.5 years. My house is not completely over, but it's still not finalized. Life is no longer promising. I have fewer people to lean on, as I've either scared them all away or pissed them off. I got arrested a couple of weeks ago.

I'm usually not all that symbolic of a guy, but let's look at my past two weeks and understand the symbolism. We are nearing fall and winter. In literature, this is when everything bad happens. It's usually when people die, etc... We are nearing my favorite holidays, and I'm going to be all alone.

I don't know about your situation, but to me, I'm tired of being second best. I really am no longer hopeful for this year, and actually already want it over. I just want something to look forward to, but I just don't have anything anymore. I had a girlfriend (hot red-headed Boomerang Bitch), but she's gone. She's returned to what she knows and feels comfortable with.

I really want the Spring again. This is when most break-ups and relationships form. I just want something to look forward to. Christmas is coming. It's my favorite holiday, and I have nobody to spend my bonus check on... I hate that.

I'm tired people. It's not winter yet, and I'm tired. I just really want to sleep for a very, very long time. I want something to wake up to, whether it be online or in real life. I have nothing.


Lemondrop15484u 54F
4816 posts
8/13/2006 9:24 pm

Your not alone, There are days I hate to get out of bed, I think if I can sleep all day I won't have to deal with problems. I've had some bad things happen to me this yr. I keep telling myself things will get better, we just need to give it more time. You never know next year could be the best yr of your life and everything could fall right into place. That's what I tell myself. Spring is only 3 months after christmas. I take one day at a time that helps.

ArtisticTwist75 41F
2505 posts
8/13/2006 9:54 pm

In a month fall will arrive... my hope is when that happens, this funk will fall away. Until then, rest and allow yourself whatever you need. Monster Hugs and Prayers for you sir...


elbman 41M  
2566 posts
8/14/2006 8:30 am

I'm taking donations for the send Elbman to Belize for Christmas fund.....dig deep and put a few dolla's in tha box.....

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