Demons  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
3/1/2006 10:40 am

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10/18/2006 6:20 am

Demons


Dear demons in my head,

Please, pretty please, w/ a cherry on top, shut the fuck up already! I don't find your little games amusing. I don't like when you force bullshit thoughts into my head when I'm trying to formulate sentences!

I need to concentrate! I have to get an idea of what I'm going to say to everybody. I do owe an explanation, since I so boldly said, yesterday, that I wouldn't do this shit again.

Now that the pain (self-induced) has subsided, I need to write. I need to express some emotions and feelings and warm fuzzies, and very nasty sexual stuff. I have to do it. I have no choice, for I am an addict. *Hello demons, my name is Mike and I am an addict* *Please don't answer back b/c if you do I know I'm really fucked* *Hi, Mike!* Great! I'll deal w/ this on the next visit to the doc's.

So what is it that I've come to say all of my neighbors in Blogville? I've come to say (1) I've heard you all. I have so many emails that I really don't know if I can even attempt to handle them, but I will. The poor server that my inbox is sitting on (the windows 98 machine) probably just freaked out. It's not used to receiving any emails, much less 50. (2) I'm here to say that I'm embarrassed for my childish behavior. I know that others here have deleted blogs and accounts and have restarted them, etc. I didn't want to be "that guy", but I damn near was. I wanted to go. I wanted to run. I wanted to bury my face in what I thought was sand but was a big pile of dog shit. I almost did, too. That would've sucked. (3) I wanted to say thank you all! I guess this pathetic temper tantrum shows all of us what we already knew, but could see every once and a while; people love people. I have email from people that I didn't even know existed. That's very cool to me. I should probably break this paragraph up, but, I'm not an English major so I'll just keep going. (4) I've decided that the next time I go to leave (angry or not) I'm just out of here... I'll just creep away ever so slowly, where nobody is even paying attention, and run like hell!

I'm much happier today. The girl of my desires forgave me. She actually didn't forgive me, b/c she wasn't even mad at me. After an email that she sent to me, I feel much better about not having pissed her off! As much as I've begged her to put me on display and make me look like an ass - to learn my lesson - she won't. That speaks volumes about her character. She really is a great person and I'm glad that there were no hard feelings over this misunderstanding. Actually, I can now brag to all of my friends that I got an email from a hottie! In reality, since yesterday's post, I've gotten emails from a lot of hotties!!

Please understand that I'm on medication and that it was probably them that influenced this behavior! I am in the process of writing a shitty testimonial to the company that makes it and am searching alternative meds... Thanks for dealing w/ me in the meantime!

I love you all! (in a non-weird way this time)
Mike ~ AAScrompn

fantasylover_05 62M

3/1/2006 11:19 am

Mike

And I say all this in the most loving way!! LOL LOL

First.. I did not send you 50 emails!!!! LOL LOL

Second.. what you were trying to bury your face in was not sand.. it was up your ass!!!! LOL LOL

Third... we all have our days.. and we forgive you for your childish temper tantrum!! LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

Forth... you are NOT allowed a "next time"... you are here for the damn duration and just get used to it!! HELL YOU ARE IN THE SLOTS YOU CAN'T GO ANYWHERE!!!! (okay so now I am envious!! LOL LOL LO

Often times.. our imaginations get carried away with us and we imagine all kinds of crazy shit and the reality is NOTHING like it!! I am glad she has "forgiven you"!!

Sorry buddy.... but SHE did not need make an ass of you.....

Hmmm.... I sent you an email..... so you think I AM A HOTTIE!! WOOOO HOOOOOOO !!!!!! That was JUST what I was going for!!! LOL LOL

All kidding and teasing aside..... there are indeed a LOT of people here that care about you and read your stuff (as horrible as it is LOL I'M KIDDING AGAIN!!) and that are GLAD you are not leaving and I am happy to say I am one of them!!!

You are a good guy.. so STOP LISTENING TO THOSE DAMN DEMONS AND BLOG ON MY FRIEND!!! LOL LOL LOL


caressmewell 53F

3/1/2006 11:20 am

I'm glad to hear you are staying..now plan the next meet.


mysteriesofme 44F

3/1/2006 11:25 am

medication.. lol can I borrow some? or.. better yet.. think I'll go see the DocTour


rm_emmie234 52F
608 posts
3/1/2006 11:40 am

Hi Mike, Welcome to addict land. LOL. Glad you are staying, silly wabbit. You make me laugh. Guys..sheeez~!
~E~


catseyes23 61F

3/1/2006 11:43 am

So nice to hear that, my friend. Best wishes.

Cats...


PassionKisses4Me 44F

3/1/2006 1:18 pm

So glad you are staying...hugs and kisses to you sexy

Becky

~Becky~


papyrina 51F
21133 posts
3/1/2006 1:28 pm

aww hugs hun,wobbles were all allowed ,i have them often as you can see ,just be your self thats all that is asked


I'm a

and
i'm here to stay


rm_JohnMacLaine 50M
585 posts
3/1/2006 2:18 pm

Hello my nae is john, and I am an AdultFriendFinder Blogging addict....

Now let me get this straight.....

Hmm...depressed angry humiliated blogger goes off on a tantrum, writes this long ass post about living on the outside, not coming back and threatens to never be seen again....

Next day, said blogger receives tremendous amounts of mail from Hotties wanting to be his pen pal and god knows what else they want to do to the poor guy...

Now, said blogger is staying because he says he actually realizes how many people actually fucking care about him. He is now happy, he is now looking at tons of email from hot chicks that want his body...



Damn Mike I wish I would have thought of that....{i}planning his sob story for HIS blog

Seriously, I am glad you decided to stay, and as one of your 6 fans, I would like to welconme you back...

NOW about those meds...got any spares????/

Peace,

John

"I can retain neither respect or affection for a government which has been moving from wrong to wrong in order to defend its own immorality" Mahatma Ghandi


bardicman 50M

3/1/2006 2:26 pm

Aas, I like you. I don't know you but I feel like I do in many ways.

Let me be the one to give you the tough love speech and please understand that I mean nothing disrespectful about it.

Get the fuck over it and move on. You wanna quit blogging because you pisses someone off only you didn't. You have created a little bubble of drama and you got wrapped up in it. Now just get the fuck out of it. If you need someone to talk to send me an email and I will give you my offsite contact information.

Bottom line. I consider you and several other people on here a friend of mine until they give me reason to not consider them as such. Tough love.. Tough words.. yes but sometimes it is needed. Get up off that thing, shake yourself off, and move forward. One person out of the 100 or so real one ( ) is less than 1% failure rate.

I am off now to peruse the profiles and find someone else to fuck with my head with these promises of phone calls and emails and IM's that never seem to happen. Damn, I know how to pick them. At least the one you picked is a real, wonderful, caring person. And yes. She is beautiful too.



I am not dead yet


MaggiesWishes 60F

3/1/2006 2:37 pm

<opens door, looking really sexy in her nurses uniform and cap, white heels of course. Medication tray in hand with two little blue pills and a glass of water, bends down, cleveage exposed, and with a smile ... >

"Feeling any better with the new meds, Mike?"
Amazing what a 24 hr "perk me up" will do.
Ya take care now, sweet darlin'."


OH, btw ~~~~ Good thing you decided to stay, cause the next dose wasn't going to be pretty!
ok, so the above was just a fantasy ... hope you found a laugh in there.


GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
3/1/2006 3:33 pm

~ smilez ~ 'n hidez in dark corner to watch....


frangipanigal 45F
10406 posts
3/1/2006 3:42 pm

I'm stuck in a hole so I can't find too much to say but I am glad someone threw you a ladder and you climbed out.

Too many people here think your great, so don't go anywhere OK!

Frangi x


MyRealLoverOne 46M

3/1/2006 3:52 pm

I would like to say something really sweet, but you are just a fuck up like me.....so come here and let me kiss you and lets go get a beer!


elbman 41M  
2566 posts
3/1/2006 4:04 pm

You got a pass this time; try and quit again and I'm gonna, gonna,......I don't know but it wont be very nice, and I know where you like to drink.

You're my hero.....I like your blog cause you got all the hotties commenting on it....but you still need to stop emailing me for sex.


rm_PurryKitty2 48M/50F
9753 posts
3/1/2006 5:24 pm

Glad u came to your senses!!!!

Purry {=}

Purry


kelly402005 52F

3/1/2006 6:48 pm

Aaaaaahhhhhh!
You made my day man!
Glad to see that you are "Here"!
Yes, I've been reading your blog!
Hate that this imaginary thing happened to you!
MAYBE YOU SHOULD BE CHECK FOR SCHIZOPHRENIA! LMAO!
..... The voice thing! Hmmmmmmm.....

And the head in the sand thing, do you know you could inhale it and get pneumonia? LOL! Medical me!

I'm huggin' you still !
I hope that's okay with you...........

Luv ya and your blog!
k


spinmedown 49M
3626 posts
3/1/2006 8:05 pm

It's all good.
Pass the meds around already.

Most people are other people... FUCKING CHARACTER LIMIT!!! ~Oscar Wilde


impish_pixie 54F
6867 posts
3/1/2006 8:49 pm

"May the voices of demons that rage in your head, turn to voices of 10,000 angels instead..."

Glad you stayed...I love your sweet comments. You always make me smile. (see?????) I'll be sending you my address in a sep email so you can get my "box" in the mail. (You'll need to wait until after the 9th of April though...deal??)

I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn


jadedbabe78 106F

3/1/2006 9:12 pm

Good for you .

And any type of meds can kick an ass all over the place.....I do believe the drug companies are the root of all evil lately....

Glad you decided to stay.

~Jadey


FunandFrisky79 41M/37F

3/1/2006 11:52 pm

Mike~ I'm so glad you've decided to stay! I know how you feel, I was tempted to leave Blogville on a couple occasions due to other bloggers. I took a "timeout" from writing in my blog for about a month, but I would still comment on others' from time to time. I eventually realized how much I missed the interactions with my "cyber friends". So, I came back!

I know we don't really know each other and I'm fairly new to your blog, but I'm very impressed with your ability to pour your heart out. It takes alot of courage to be so open with people you don't really know (in person, that is). Personally, I believe that if people don't like you for YOU... it's THEIR loss! I know her anger was just an illusion. But, remember... you can't please everyone all the time. It just isn't possible. So, next time you come across someone/something that rubs you the wrong way, take it with a grain of salt.

I've met some truly amazing people on this site (mainly in Blogville) and I've made some great friends. In fact, I consider some of my fellow bloggers to be some of my closest friends. That's why I just can't stay away!

Anyway, I'm so glad to hear that you're staying put!

Kisses & Hugs, sweetie!
Frisky

Btw, I also LOVE the fact that you believe in fairy tales! This world needs more men like you!

]


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 8:47 am

    Quoting rm_valleyrat4:
    AAS

    I'm on medication too. Dr. Pepper.......that shit kicks my ass....

    No worries.
valley - Ya, I'm addicted to that shit too! 1 liter a day keeps the sanity away!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 8:50 am

    Quoting SensuallyKatey:

    >>>>>>walks in...
    of course nakey as per usual...
    with me script pad in hand...
    I recommend the generics of these...
    nakey katey dancin pills!!!
sensualkatey - I don't want to ruin the images... Therefore, I can't risk the generics. I heard the nakey katey dancin pills, produce this visual... happyf;


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 8:58 am

    Quoting fantasylover_05:
    Mike

    And I say all this in the most loving way!! LOL LOL

    First.. I did not send you 50 emails!!!! LOL LOL

    Second.. what you were trying to bury your face in was not sand.. it was up your ass!!!! LOL LOL

    Third... we all have our days.. and we forgive you for your childish temper tantrum!! LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL

    Forth... you are NOT allowed a "next time"... you are here for the damn duration and just get used to it!! HELL YOU ARE IN THE SLOTS YOU CAN'T GO ANYWHERE!!!! (okay so now I am envious!! LOL LOL LO

    Often times.. our imaginations get carried away with us and we imagine all kinds of crazy shit and the reality is NOTHING like it!! I am glad she has "forgiven you"!!

    Sorry buddy.... but SHE did not need make an ass of you.....

    Hmmm.... I sent you an email..... so you think I AM A HOTTIE!! WOOOO HOOOOOOO !!!!!! That was JUST what I was going for!!! LOL LOL

    All kidding and teasing aside..... there are indeed a LOT of people here that care about you and read your stuff (as horrible as it is LOL I'M KIDDING AGAIN!!) and that are GLAD you are not leaving and I am happy to say I am one of them!!!

    You are a good guy.. so STOP LISTENING TO THOSE DAMN DEMONS AND BLOG ON MY FRIEND!!! LOL LOL LOL
fantasy - Yes, my head was up my ass! Also, my shit may be horrible, but your dumbass keeps reading it! lol


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:00 am

    Quoting caressmewell:
    I'm glad to hear you are staying..now plan the next meet.
That's already completed!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:01 am

    Quoting mysteriesofme:
    medication.. lol can I borrow some? or.. better yet.. think I'll go see the DocTour
No way!! You have to get your own. It's really good stuff though.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:02 am

    Quoting rm_emmie234:
    Hi Mike, Welcome to addict land. LOL. Glad you are staying, silly wabbit. You make me laugh. Guys..sheeez~!
    ~E~
What's up doc?? lol - Chicks! sheesh...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:03 am

    Quoting catseyes23:
    So nice to hear that, my friend. Best wishes.

    Cats...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:05 am

    Quoting Wickedwytch69:
    Sooooo glad the demons didn't win!
    Sorry I didn't send you an email but I'm not a hottie and your mail box was struggling to cope as it was!
    However I hope you know I, for one, would have been very disappointed if you'd left ....
    I mean who else am I gonna perv at?!?
You better NOT be perving behind my back!!!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:07 am

    Quoting PassionKisses4Me:
    So glad you are staying...hugs and kisses to you sexy

    Becky
Thank you, sweetie!! *Hugs*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:09 am

Thanks! Do cartwheels!! You are wearing a skirt, right??


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:10 am

    Quoting sexydisaster30:
    Welcome back honey..............or did you really ever leave?
...and leave you behind w/out giving you something hot to look at?? I left for a second, but didn't want to break your heart...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:45 am

    Quoting papyrina:
    aww hugs hun,wobbles were all allowed ,i have them often as you can see ,just be your self thats all that is asked
Papy - I'm getting there... Thanks!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:47 am

    Quoting sweetneeds2:
    You can temper tantrum all you like my sexy friend....was 50 e-mails too much Just teasing..I'm a standard..lol...can't send any!!

    Blogging is for you to be you...the good the sexy the bad and 2 year old!! Although I wouldn't have called it a temper tantrum...more like venting!!! Stick around.....and u can't sneak away...blogville's corridors creak really bad!!!!
My bed can creak really loud too, but I haven't heard it mutter anything in a while...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:49 am

    Quoting rm_JohnMacLaine:
    Hello my nae is john, and I am an AdultFriendFinder Blogging addict....

    Now let me get this straight.....

    Hmm...depressed angry humiliated blogger goes off on a tantrum, writes this long ass post about living on the outside, not coming back and threatens to never be seen again....

    Next day, said blogger receives tremendous amounts of mail from Hotties wanting to be his pen pal and god knows what else they want to do to the poor guy...

    Now, said blogger is staying because he says he actually realizes how many people actually fucking care about him. He is now happy, he is now looking at tons of email from hot chicks that want his body...



    Damn Mike I wish I would have thought of that....{i}planning his sob story for HIS blog

    Seriously, I am glad you decided to stay, and as one of your 6 fans, I would like to welconme you back...

    NOW about those meds...got any spares????/

    Peace,

    John
John, jealousy won't get you anywhere in life, my friend... Lol - No, you can't have any of my stash!! Get your own damn meds.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:55 am

    Quoting bardicman:
    Aas, I like you. I don't know you but I feel like I do in many ways.

    Let me be the one to give you the tough love speech and please understand that I mean nothing disrespectful about it.

    Get the fuck over it and move on. You wanna quit blogging because you pisses someone off only you didn't. You have created a little bubble of drama and you got wrapped up in it. Now just get the fuck out of it. If you need someone to talk to send me an email and I will give you my offsite contact information.

    Bottom line. I consider you and several other people on here a friend of mine until they give me reason to not consider them as such. Tough love.. Tough words.. yes but sometimes it is needed. Get up off that thing, shake yourself off, and move forward. One person out of the 100 or so real one ( ) is less than 1% failure rate.

    I am off now to peruse the profiles and find someone else to fuck with my head with these promises of phone calls and emails and IM's that never seem to happen. Damn, I know how to pick them. At least the one you picked is a real, wonderful, caring person. And yes. She is beautiful too.
Bard - Wow... Um, ok. I was having such a good time reading all of the hugs and kisses and yippie's I knew one of these eventually had to arrive.

Yes, I agree that I created a bubble of drama. I have, for the most part, gotten over it. I hope that we are still friends and that I haven't blown the reason not to be over this. Yes, tough words are needed. Thank you for taking the time to kick me when I needed it the most! I mean that.

Good luck on the other profiles and avoiding the weird ones... I'm sure she is a real, wonderful, caring person and there is zero doubt that she is beautiful.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 9:57 am

    Quoting MaggiesWishes:
    <opens door, looking really sexy in her nurses uniform and cap, white heels of course. Medication tray in hand with two little blue pills and a glass of water, bends down, cleveage exposed, and with a smile ... >

    "Feeling any better with the new meds, Mike?"
    Amazing what a 24 hr "perk me up" will do.
    Ya take care now, sweet darlin'."


    OH, btw ~~~~ Good thing you decided to stay, cause the next dose wasn't going to be pretty!
    ok, so the above was just a fantasy ... hope you found a laugh in there.

Oh now you have to tell me what was next... Please?? ?*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:02 am

    Quoting rm_rabbit8747:
    Yay Mike. Good boy..smiles. You are much to cool to quit...

    Looking forward to more adventures..and musings....

    Best,

    rabbit
So when are you taking me out?? I'm not going to quit. I guess I just needed to vent, ya know? You want my number?


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:04 am

*grabs a flashlight to scope the dark areas of the room hoping to grab a glimpse of you in that sexy cloak and dagger outfit*


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:05 am

    Quoting frangipanigal:
    I'm stuck in a hole so I can't find too much to say but I am glad someone threw you a ladder and you climbed out.

    Too many people here think your great, so don't go anywhere OK!

    Frangi x
You almost hit me in the head w/ it...


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:06 am

    Quoting MyRealLoverOne:
    I would like to say something really sweet, but you are just a fuck up like me.....so come here and let me kiss you and lets go get a beer!
Fine, but you don't get to grab my ass this time... It's reserved. lol


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:08 am

    Quoting elbman:
    You got a pass this time; try and quit again and I'm gonna, gonna,......I don't know but it wont be very nice, and I know where you like to drink.

    You're my hero.....I like your blog cause you got all the hotties commenting on it....but you still need to stop emailing me for sex.
Listen here, two minute man, just b/c the hotties are on my blog should be no need to threaten. Just remember that I'm bigger than you!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:09 am

    Quoting newaroundhere64:
    Sing it with me now....

    Every party
    has a pooper
    that's why we
    invited you!
    Party pooper...

    la la la...

    welcome back. glad you're getting past it.

    Blog On!

    nah64
Me, the party pooper?? You can call me the drama queen, but only for today.


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:11 am

Purry - Thank you! Next time, can you throw some tongue in w/ that kiss?


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:12 am

    Quoting travelingintexas:
    Thanks man... I won $500 bucks in this.... I'd have hunted you down if you had really left. Not so you would blog but to get $500!

    Trav
OMG, I can just feel the love... Thanks, man!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/2/2006 10:13 am

    Quoting kelly402005:
    Aaaaaahhhhhh!
    You made my day man!
    Glad to see that you are "Here"!
    Yes, I've been reading your blog!
    Hate that this imaginary thing happened to you!
    MAYBE YOU SHOULD BE CHECK FOR SCHIZOPHRENIA! LMAO!
    ..... The voice thing! Hmmmmmmm.....

    And the head in the sand thing, do you know you could inhale it and get pneumonia? LOL! Medical me!

    I'm huggin' you still !
    I hope that's okay with you...........

    Luv ya and your blog!
    k
I never said I was normal!! lol - I don't mind the hug, but could you move your hand a little lower next time??


HBowt2 59F

3/2/2006 11:44 am

Not a lot more to be said....glad you didn't run...


rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
3/2/2006 6:29 pm

And a comment whore was born!

You fit in SO very well with the rest of us.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.


silkysmoothlegs3 105F

3/7/2006 4:00 am

glad your staying babes

wish i was caress (id get to see you too)

silky


ella1966 50F
1528 posts
3/13/2006 5:09 am

Well ass, I haven't met you but you are doing alot better than me. Got fucked in the head, apparently did some fucking in the head of my own (WOW, I almost became a criminal cyberstalker!!!) was DEFINITELY NOT forgiven, but told was a mistake I was that he even corresponded with me, and was told that he "simply wants to be left alone by his once-upon-a-time-I-still-wanna-fuck-you-lover, who said she would pray for me, and people wouldn't give a fuck about me if I fell off the earth. So whatever you're having gimme some, coz what I am on sure aint working!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
3/13/2006 6:42 am

ella1966 - I'm sorry to hear that... Feel free to email me, and I'll be sure to tell you what I'm taking.


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