Bored on a long weekend.  

aascrompn 42M
6957 posts
9/3/2006 6:33 pm

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10/18/2006 8:24 am

Bored on a long weekend.

Ok... I have figured out what exactly my problem is. I have found out what bothers the shit outta me. I'm a creature of habit. I do what I get used to. Once in a routine, I tend not to stray from it.

After I got my DUI, I promised a little lady that I was in love with that I wouldn't do it again. I promised her that I could be home every night, and proceeded to come home every night. I wanted to prove to her that I didn't need the club/bar scene anymore. I also figured since I couldn't go out and drink that I could at least drink at home. Now, the drinking has gotten out of hand, simply for one damn reason... I'm bored. I'm bored outta my freaking mind.

I have no desire to go out. I have no desire to go back to the bar. I have no desire to meet anybody else out, b/c I'm scared I shouldn't be driving. Quite simply, I am stuck into my new routine.

I tend to be fine if I have somebody to entertain me online, or on the phone. However, if I don't get that, I get extremely unnerved. I have taken my boredom out on the closest people that I have. I have indirectly accused them of my problems, when it's really not their fault that I have no life... lol

Now that I have found the cause, I need to find a solution. The question is, what is the actual solution? I can't drive (well... I still can for now, but am trying to get used to the idea my license might be taken). So, I can't go out. I am bored, but when I have others entertain me, I'm fine...

I think I might have depression setting in. It's not a depression about me, but I think it's situational depression. I'm not sure that this is an actual clinical term, but I know that once I'm out, in the center of the crowd, I'm in my element... I don't have the crowd anymore. I don't have anybody here w/ me either...

...thinking of ways outta my funk.


angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
9/3/2006 10:26 pm

I understand the "funk". I've had it myself from time to time. Why don't you come on over and join us at LAST CAMPFIRE OF THE SUMMER! Maybe we'll get out of the funk together. lol
And be sure to at least say "hi" so we know that you're there!

alphuctup 40M

9/4/2006 1:38 am

Get yourself a bicycle and don't forget the crash helmet, something tells me you might be needing it!

Seriously_Real 48M

9/4/2006 8:44 am

Lots of thoughts on this one, but the first thing is that you're getting there. Identifying the issue, the core, the source.

There's an awful lot of things to do out in the world. You might find one you like that doesn't involve liquid. (Unless it's working out like a fiend, because, well, you'll need to hydrate. Hmm.)

There's always karaoke. I owe you a return phone call anyway...


crazygurl2xx 56F

9/4/2006 10:52 am

i so cannot relate except to say my sister is a gemini too and she is out of her element alone.

i am in my element alone. i can be home alone and go out alone, live alone, have one night stands alone or be in a relationship alone (that is without alot of extraneous characters) i am perfectly in my element alone however alone can occur. i don't like distractions except very occasionally. i find them draining and unproductive emotionally, socially, mentally, spiritually, sexually, physically and use them only recreationally.

good luck.

crazygurl2xx 56F

9/4/2006 10:55 am

not to be cold or rude, but is there any possibility you're alcoholic and bi-polar?

i don't know you but the red flags are everywhere in this post...

Khrysomallos 46F

9/13/2006 9:53 am

    Quoting crazygurl2xx:
    not to be cold or rude, but is there any possibility you're alcoholic and bi-polar?

    i don't know you but the red flags are everywhere in this post...
I'm agreeing with "CrazyGurl2xx" on this one, as far as the alcohol goes. I'm going to put you on my "blog watch" list, and every post you make, I'm going to remind you of this until you block me. And then I hope all your "friends" who may catch some of my posts will take up the torch and continue to bug you about this.

Everything that you are writing in all of these posts is screaming out the fact that you are an alcholic:

1. you got a DUI
2. you promised your love that you wouldn't do it again
3. your solution, instead of proving to her you wouldn't drink, you simply decide that you're not going to go OUT to drink
4. you are drinking because you are bored (Friend, there are about a billion other things to do when you're bored other than drinking or talking to people on the internet. Find a hobby, work out, read, take a second job, do volunteer work. Do something that's fucking positive and productive rather than sit around in existential angst and self-pity.)
5. you take your problems out on other people, instead of taking personal responsibility for them

Stop looking for, or expecting other people to entertain you. You're a grown man, you sound reasonably intelligent. Get out of the house (even if it means walking), and go do something. You live in Atlanta, there have GOT to be AA meetings EVERY night somewhere -- that could solve TWO of your problems.

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