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_RoSe_ 47F
816 posts
5/23/2006 6:03 am

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I have logged in here every day, sat in front of this screen and tried to write. The words aren't there, my emotions are in turmoil. It has always helped me to write, to express to get it out. But yet I sit and stare. I have so much churning inside of me, why won't the words come. Why can't I express myself. Why can't I release the pictures. I read peoples comments, visit the blogs, and they do so much for me. I can't seem to shake this gloom. I appreciate the way some of you have been there for me. I don't even know how to explain where I have gone, some dark place in my soul, that I can't seem to crawl back out of. How does a person get here, how do they get back. Can you feel the moon shining upon you if you can't see it there? Does the sun shine upon your face if you never look up to see it there.

"A life without passion is not a life; it is merely an existence."
~Rose~


roper_6969 55M

5/23/2006 5:27 pm

Ok, I'm a lil worried honey. If you need to talk, email me. Please.

Roper


rm_funinic 48M
823 posts
5/23/2006 9:47 pm

You've got people reaching out to YOU...

If you're not careful I'm going to take that 20 hour roadtrip just to drag you, kicking and screaming possibly, back into the light.

Time to light the beacon.


HBowt2 58F

5/24/2006 12:52 am

You can't crawl out of it....you've got to walk out one step at a time. Pick one thing...just one thing you can do for you....It maybe going for a walk...or tidying some space that has been annoying you...or working in the garden.....anything...you know what I mean....just pick that one thing today and do it.....then tell us about it.....and then pick another. Some times you will pick something...know it needs to be done and not do it...doesn't matter...there is always tomorrow....who says we have to be perfect.
And no...the sun doesn't shine on your face unless you take your face out to where your eyes can see it....sometimes we have to do half the work...take care of you HB2xxx


runzwithknives 59F

5/25/2006 6:30 pm

Can you feel the moon shining upon you if you can't see it there? Does the sun shine upon your face if you never look up to see it there.

It's there for you always, sweetie. And it will be there for you again when you are ready. And you will be.

As stupid as this is going to sound, here's what I did...Each night before I read or grabbed my journal, I imagined doing pull-ups.

For a long time in my minds eye, I couldn't do one. One night, I realized that in my image I not only had done one, but two pull-ups. No kidding, no shit. And I haven't gone past 2. I stopped there with the realization that I was pulling myself up, bit by bit. That each day had been a bit better.
Pretty sappy, huh?
It forced me to relax a bit. And it gave me something to work towards. Now don't go thinkin' that I did this on purpose. Really, I didn't have it worked out in that psychological kinda way.
Just came to me one evening. So I used it. And I guess it used me too.

Hugs to you
Rosa


_RoSe_ 47F
994 posts
5/25/2006 8:52 pm

    Quoting roper_6969:
    Ok, I'm a lil worried honey. If you need to talk, email me. Please.

    Roper
I appreciate you being here so much, I look forward to your responses. Seeing what you will think about what I wrote. Thanks for being here.

"A life without passion is not a life; it is merely an existence."
~Rose~


_RoSe_ 47F
994 posts
6/7/2006 6:55 pm

I am awed at each of you...Thank you

"A life without passion is not a life; it is merely an existence."
~Rose~


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