Letter to my Lief  

_CoffeeNoCream_ 52F
6527 posts
11/9/2005 1:37 am

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Letter to my Lief

Hello Lief,

Why do some days feel like an eternity?
....its because I miss your tender touch, your soft gentle voice, those sparkling eyes looking into mine, that smile...I miss a part of myself.
I miss Fleur

I find myself sleep walking, wandering through my daydreams, working, writing, studying, and than my heart halts everything and angrily asks the rest of me what I did, why it aches so everlastingly. The tears come at different times, I know someday they might stop, but the pain in my heart remains a constant, so much pain...Fleur, you and life..the pain of having hurt you, the pain of missing you.
Just pain...

Why is it the feelings inside aren't showing on this page the way I am feeling them? The question, that question that has been on my mind every moment of every day and every night,

Why?
I think that I needed an answer to a question that I never had a right to ask ...it can be called insecurity, it can be called a character flaw....but I want you to know, whatever my flaw, my heart has never wavered in my undying love for Fleur my family and you.

I miss you beyond any capability that I have with words, it is a raw emotion ...the anger within me still rages but so does love.

Perhaps I dont make sense, in that case just read "I love you" ?

Liefs always,

Coffee


Erik_Bloodaxe 56M

11/9/2005 8:29 am

I do not claim to understand any of the passions that bubble in you, Coffee, but this is a fantastic piece of raw writing. You have a way of doing that.


leyndokona2 49F

11/9/2005 9:27 am

Where's the kleenex?


_CoffeeNoCream_ 52F

11/9/2005 11:45 am

Yes nips....she was my first born.


brightblonde3 58F

11/10/2005 8:54 am

fleur...beautiful...i hope the spirits of my little ones can meet with fleur in heaven...

bb3


silkysmoothlegs3 105F

11/10/2005 9:41 am

sends you hugs

dont be sad

you will meet again in heaven

love silky xxxxxx


papyrina 51F
21133 posts
11/10/2005 12:10 pm

your feelings show very strongly through the written page,hugs honey,i wish i could do it for real,but just know your in my thoughts


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