My Fathers Day Wish...  

_Adriane_ 47M
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5/25/2006 12:08 am

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My Fathers Day Wish...

What kind of day is Fathers Day, when you aren't able to spend it with your children, your father or Grandfather?

Today, the 25th of May, is Fathers Day in Germany. Once again, another Fathers Day in which I don't get to see my daughter.

I know she crafted something for me in Kindergarten, like all children do every year. I wonder what she was thinking while doing so. "Will my daddy ever see this?", "Will I get to see my daddy and give this to him tomorrow?".

It saddens me and makes the pain just that much worse. Not the fact that I am without her, more that she is without me. I know how much she enjoys crafting things, and how excited she gets when she is allowed to see me, and just to think that she will sit at home today, staring at the gift for me she worked so hard on, knowing that her mommy wont let me come see her, wondering if she cries and thinks of me.

I hate to constantly write about my depression over me not being able to see or talk to my baby girl, but just understand that she means the world to me. There are fathers out there that have the chance to spend time with their children and don't. I want to and can't.

My Fathers Day Wish...

...for all fathers to spend as much time as possible with their children. You never know when you may see them again.

QueenOfSwords 34F

5/25/2006 12:40 am

This is so sad. It made me read your earlier posts. It doesnt matter if you were bad or not really. I hope that it gets better for you and for your daughter soon. I dont know what else to say but I know sadness too. I hope you find your way out.

_Adriane_ replies on 5/25/2006 2:05 am:
Thanks Queen. Well, I wasn't bad in a sense that I did anything wrong. My daughters mother was more angry that I didn't want her back after she kicked me out(surprise, surprise) and that I instantly found someone new. Someone that she didn't approve of, and she tried everything, and I mean everything to try and get under my skin, but it didn't work so of course she uses the only Trump card she has, my daughter. Sad but true. In the middle of next month the courts are supposed to make a date for the visitation rights. I did, however, put in a petition for full custody. Thanks for your kind words. Love to you sweetie!

Smooth_GaL 34F
424 posts
5/25/2006 12:47 am

It's better for you to let out your thoughts and feelings in blogs as in some ways it help lessen the burden of it... Sometimes when i read ure blogs i don't know how to comment but feel the need to let you know that many of us do think fondly of you and have you and ure lil one in our prayers with hope that all will be fine soon for you... *****Huggies******


_Adriane_ replies on 5/25/2006 2:07 am:
Sometimes I wonder what I would do without you smoothy. You always have stuck around and pepered me up when I am down. You are a true lady and a very good friend! Thank you for everything!

EroticaXTC 49F

5/25/2006 2:26 am

I don't mind your talking about your painful situation, I admire you for having the love and responsibility a father should. My sons suffer the lack of it{=}

_Adriane_ replies on 5/25/2006 9:08 pm:
Thanks pinky! Sorry to hear your sons do not get the attentin they well deserve. I realy can't understand how a father can have such an attitude. I really can't. I admire your strength in raising a couple young men, I know it isn't easy, but I know you give them the love they need. Dad needs a swift kick in the ass.

TabithaElectra79 37F

5/26/2006 1:02 am

This is clearly a very sad situation all round, I only hope things will not always be this way for you. *Hugs*

kelly402005 52F

5/31/2006 3:49 pm

That really sucks man...

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