Bad Moon Rising  

_Adriane_ 47M
146 posts
5/26/2006 3:19 am

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6/7/2006 11:46 pm

Bad Moon Rising

Yeah, that is about how turbulent I am feeling. After a Fathers Day of self-pity, I decided to lay back and enjoy a couple movies that I have seen a million times.

When I got home, my girlfriends little girl came up to me and gave me a Fathers Day present, and wished me a Happy Fathers Day. You can imagine my response. I burst into tears, although I tried not to let her see them.

I was so touched at the thought that I meant so much to that little girl, that she thought of me in such a way. Then my thoughts turned to my little girl, making me sad in the thought of knowing she had made something, but couldn't give it to me. Joy and pain at once. It was a weird feeling.

A good friend of mine brought to my attention that lately, all I ever write about is my little girl or I post something I found on the net. True. I am in a relatively deep state of depression and anxiety and putting it all into writing is my form of self-therapy.

When I post a joke, then it is due to me being depressed, too depressed to have anything of worth to write. My stories and the lust to write them left with my old Profile. This is the new, depressive me. I don't exactly like what has happened to me, but I am working on fixing it, and I need your help. Your loving, thought provoking and funny comments always cheer me up, that is part of why I had to come back. I had to find the time, in order to not lose my mind with my thoughts.

I will try and give you the old me when I can, but it may take some time. After I am sure about the situation with my daughter, and it turns out positive, then you will see a side of me you have never seen before. Until then, bare with me.

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11238 posts
5/26/2006 4:06 am


EroticaXTC 49F

5/26/2006 7:42 am

big hugz from me too
I know what you mean about the posting, I've been suffering from some of it myself..
Don't worry though, of course we'll bear with you..that's what we're all here for!{=}

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
5/26/2006 7:45 am

I slept THREE HOURS! That and 7 dollars will get you a bucket of chicken.

I am the walrus.

Wrap your brain around that one dude.........whoa.

I have a no.2 pencil.

Everything will be fine Grasshopper.........just remember to wax on wax off and do your stork pose.

I love you monkeyscrew

Smooth_GaL 34F
424 posts
5/27/2006 9:39 am

My dear please never feel that you need to hide ure emotions as it only makes things worst... As for me, well my best outlet is thru my poetry as keepin things inside builds up and one day you might blow up and perhaps to the wrong person or situation which will not help. Take you time in finding that happiness but in the mean time be happy knowing you are loved by many like ure girlfriend's lil gal you still light up the life of someone whose close to you eventhough u might not realise it at times



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