Hurts so Good  

Wildthing79510 48F
14 posts
6/18/2006 5:18 pm

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2/11/2007 3:16 pm

Hurts so Good


I miss him
But I won't
I need him
But I don't


It's amazing how quickly you can adapt to someone. And in an instant it's gone...blown away like petals in the wind. I've learned that sometimes it is something beyond your control...leaving you with so many unanswered questions and broken thoughts.

I wanted him
But he couldn't
I pushed him
When I shouldn't


Now, there is silence...no more "I miss you" during the boring day at work. No more anything...just silence. No surprise emails just to say HI. For as quickly as it came, was as quickly as it went...but not for me.

I wanted to run
But I chose to stay
I needed to hide
But I faced it today


Some of those in your world leave indelible marks. Some good, some not so good. I hate the feeling right now..yet it hurts so good. For now I know I am alive. I can feel, think and hurt still. That is a gift that I'm sure wasn't meant to be given. And this time I carry a very expensive lesson....sometimes it isn't anything you did to cause the pain. In the past, I've always had a part in the destruction. I've carried guilt with me like a weight. This time, I carry something better, for he made me a better person.

Take Care of yourselves and those you hold dear..

Missy


rm_PurryKitty2 48M/49F
9753 posts
6/18/2006 6:18 pm

I am so sorry for your pain. Time will heal all wounds and one day you will find what you seek

Purry {=}

Purry


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