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I Just Wonder,......
I Just Wonder,......
In my profile I mention this:
“From the earliest I can remember I’ve always wanted to have a relationship with a female. Aside from the feelings of love, which by the way are wonderful and desirable, I wanted to have sex. Can you imagine that? Who would’ve thought such a thing? Yes I will admit I love the warmth and sensuality of having sex. It’s in my opinion the most pleasurable activity a human being can experience. If you can think of something that tops having sex as the most pleasurable activity let me know.”
In my experience it has been a difficult task to find one person (in my case only a female will do) that loved to have sex as much as I do. I guess that’s why I seem like a butterfly going from one flower to the next. If I land on a flower and it doesn’t give me what I crave or ceases giving me what I crave I will move on to the next flower. Now I am not saying I am some sort of sex maniac but tell me,..is there something wrong with wanting to have sex frequently? Is it too much to ask for? Why am I always the one asking? Why am I always the one to initiate?
I can remember when I was married. I was married to this young lady for 5 years. At one point in our marriage I can remember where sex was almost non existent. Sometimes we (or should I say she) wouldn’t have sex for a month and sometimes it would lap over into a second month. For some strange reason I guess I colluded and would wait patiently. During this time if I even brought the subject up or even tried to initiate sex she would say something like ‘is that all you think about?’. Then once we did have sex she would be so mechanical. I would think just move a little. At least act like I am inside you. Was I sexually frustrated? You betcha!
A few years back I had been going out with this lady and the sex was great between us. However for some weird reason she always seemed to moderate it. When I write moderate it I mean that she would have sex one week, then wait until the next week, and then she would wait two weeks sometimes. I can remember one time calling her on an early Saturday evening. We hadn’t had sex for a week. I expressed my desire to see her that evening and she replied, ‘Well I think I am just going to stay home tonight and play games on my computer’. In my mind I am thinking that she’s implying that she would rather stay at home and play games on her computer than to be in the loving arms of a good looking man? Was I sexually frustrated? You betcha!
I am not too sure what the deal is. I realize that sex is just one aspect of life among many however I believe it is an important part of the human existence. I’ve questioned myself over and over again about this subject. Now you may think to yourself, ‘Well Wicked, maybe you are just not satisfying these women’. To those of you that may think that I’ll say fair enough, you’re entitled to think that. However I do believe that I elicit the proper response and there’s no way you can mistake that. It also doesn’t matter what type of relationship it comes in. Long term, short term, friends w/ benefits, or even (gulp) marriage. I am a firm believer that if people would have more sex that the world would be a better place. I write that mainly due to my belief that having sex relieves a lot of stress (as well as enhances ones own mood) and the lack of compounds it and stress causes problems.
So the question still remains. Why? I just wonder,......
8/4/2006 3:41 pm
I believe most women are indoctrinated to believe they shouldn't enjoy sex (for whatever reason). |
Lucky for my sexuality, I'm a rebel at heart and have always mistrusted authority.