|Blogs > WhyteRavenne > Letters to a Master|
Should it hurt?
Should it hurt?
I am going to make this a super fast post... since I've been up way too late... and very tired.
I love my Honey, however, I find that his lack of regard to my emotional state is sometimes destructive... however, I do accept that I am responsible for my own feelings. So, now, for my thoughts to go to bed on: just because I would take into account all aspects of my family's state of being (emotional, physical, spiritual), is it really fair of me to EXPECT my Honey to do the same? Am I really being that unfair to expect him to want to do that?
This times example: He went out on his booty call date at 3am. He didn't get home until after 8. I asked him to be home before 7 (kids and all), however, if it was me, I would have been home at 5. When he got home, he was very angry at me, saying I was unfair to him. I did not yell, scream, throw dishes... or anything, just said I was disappointed that he came home so late.
I look at the situation through my eyes... I would have been thrilled for my lover to be happy for me, courteous to my family, and made sure I was home in time, early even, for my responsibilities. Attentive to my duties, and happy that my family is so loving.
Gods, I really wish I could understand his side... why he got so angry with me.
I have asked, of course, but, that's usually the worst thing to do... he gets angrier. It's probably my tone... I really should watch that... am I beating myself up?
Well, my short blog became lengthy, I'm just venting...
10/17/2005 4:18 pm
Sounds like a lack of respect on his part|