My Neighbor  

WarriorPoet72 44M
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5/19/2006 8:51 am

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5/19/2006 10:49 am

My Neighbor

Oh that tenth commandment might be the one that sends me to that eternal fire. I personally think that when God looks down from the heavens he has an eternal loving grin and it is directed at us. That grins is mischievous too because our divine Creator threw in that last commandment of covenanting you neighbors wife. I think that I am so guilty and I don't think that I can be sorry either for wanting her. She is absolutely gorgeous and just gave herself a new hair style too. I still can;t believe this woman has two beautiful children because she has the body to die for and only have me undressing her with my eyes everyday. Oh those secret fantasies we men have when we are talking to you women when we are out at the curb delivering this weeks blue bag of garbage. I just want to say to her do you want to come in for a glass of wine. Then I say to myself, why in the hell is she taking the garbage out? Where in the hell is her husband at?... Well he is at the golf course or working or other places that do not include her because she is always standing in front of me at curb side. I see her walking with her young son down my sidewalk and she goes out of her way to say hello and I go out of my way to try and not show her that I want her so bad at that moment. That smile of hers would melt your heart away and her beautiful eyes would capture that melted heart in her prison of her soul. She get in her SUV to take her daughter to dance and she gives me that smile and says how are you doing today as I hurry off in my car backing out of the driveway. I want to say to her, oh you look so beautiful today my sweetheart but junior and missy would probably take exception to that since daddy is still well daddy. I wonder if she knows I worship her from a distance but I have a sneaking suspicion that she does because she never has anything to say to the other neighbors out and about with their blue bags. I would love to talk to her for hours but I know that can only lead to things no good. Oh but should I say no to her if she was to ask me over. I think I would have to say that I would have too be her guest. I could only go so far with restraint because if she would initiate a relationship then I would accept the invitation. I now it would lead to dramatic tragedy but that is why life is so much fun to live. Who really remembers the stories that went well and had a happy ending. That is boring prose because we all know we champion those lovers who in all their glory crash and burn. I have this scenario that keeps playing out in my head about me and her coming together for a romantic lovers relationship. I don;t want her as my wife because she has her husband and children. Those children do not deserve to have their home to be destroyed because of my wants since their welfare is more important than mine. I think that our cultural ancestors in Europe had the right ideas of matrimony. You should have a spouse and a lover because the biggest myth played on us is the idea of finding that person you are totally in love with that prince, go to the ball and get married and live happily ever after. I blame it on making marriage of today a product of Disney. The magic kingdom of marriage bliss but how many people truly reach this state? We love the story of a king that would give up his thrown for a woman but that only happened once that I know of in this world. The problem with marriage is that it's everyday realities and hardships you have to face takes away the romance then kills it. I do love the institution of matrimony because it lets you raise children in a stable environment but you need to have two people that are more grounded and practical in their attitudes. It doesn't mean a partner should neglect the romance because you need to share some good time with each other. If you are not willing to give your spouse what they want then you should let them go out and find it with somebody else. I personally think that their are people who make wonderful lovers but horrible spouses. You would be able to explore those people you would have never done so because of your fear of losing your marriage but trapped in something that is loveless and romance deprived. The you start looking for excuses to get down on them because they never help out around the house or want to make love when you want it. The truth being that this person was always like this and all of a sudden you want them to change well then that is your tragedy because you just bury your head in the sand from the truth. They were frogs when you married them and they still are sitting in their lilly pads after you married them. So when you are sleeping in your pond with you toad everyday, what would you do if you had the chance to leap out of the pond for a time? I think you should do what is in your heart. You could be viewed as a hypocrite but then why should innocent people be hurt for your truth. What they don't know can't hurt and what you do know makes life so much more interesting. I long for the days of scandalous behavior because if we were perfect like God then life would be boring. That is why life is a double edged sword because you live your life to get God's favor so you can have eternity in bliss which if you are in pursuit of spiritual perfection would be the path. Then you would be not only spending eternity as a saint but when you are on earth acting the same. What if God is playing a trick on us and that our worldly earth is more like Vegas than Disney-world. You were just to afraid to wonder what if it really didn;t matter and I should have lived more and just invited that person in your life. Oh to ponder and justify myself over the fact that I still want to take my neighbors close off and kiss every part of her body and make passionate love to her for days. Kiss her in the morning, say goodbye and go back to being friends... "Lovely lady, let me drink you, please Won't spill a drop, no, I promise you
Laying under this spell you cast on me,
Each moment, the more I love you
Crush me" ~ the Dave Matthews Band


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