As quickly as it started, it ends.  

VeniVici 46M
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11/23/2005 8:51 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

As quickly as it started, it ends.

Wow....not a word from her, in a month, two months....stopped cold. WTH was it all about?
I guess it was a big game...and I was the toy.
Back to being alone...and work.
Are there any real people left in this world?
Someone not afraid to really say what is on their mind, someone who knows themself well enough to not do something like this? Mabye Im not what she thought I was, and why cant she tell me that? Why cant she tell me after all the things she said and did, why she dropped off the face of the earth...did she find another guy?
Honesty...... *looks to the heavens*

rm_lady5202 56F

11/23/2005 10:25 am

everyone plays games noone is honest anymore i had the same situation and forget her move on

VeniVici 46M

12/2/2005 6:34 am

Thank you for the support ShayeDK. I dont put all the responsibility on her. I try to go into every situation with my eyes wide open. And, the older I get, the more I realize I am blind...hahaha!
But seriously, after 14 years, I think I have finally learned some lessons. There are a couple of main reasons for a relationship in many peoples minds.

1) Sex
2) Money
3) Security
4) Love

And, unfortunately, I think many people dont know what they define as love, because it consists of more of 1,2 and 3 than it does 4.
1,2 and 3 are enough for many people to keep a relationship, or to 'love' someone. I dont need 2 or 3 and 1 is a a wonderful bonus (and I think in many respects almost necessary <Grin>. But seriously, in a healthy relationship, I would hope that 1,2 and 3 are a small fraction of the equation....for many, it is not.

So, really....since Im not into loaning Money, lol...that really only leaves two things. Sex, and love, and I believe maybe she only wanted #1, no matter what she said.

Would it ruin the moment for her? To just say, 'I really just want to fuck and stay friends?' (she has a dirty mouth sometimes, for such a sophisticated lady).

OH well.....I still care for her and will always respect her as a good friend, known her too long...but guess I never understood her very well.

Really, considering her last X of like 11 years was a good friend of mine, and I found out he beat her up a couple of times, left her, took her Money, destroyed her house, and turned into a crackhead.... it makes me wonder.

What did I do to get treated like this??? HAHAHA! Maybe the flowers were too much.

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