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Just the other day a thought passed my mind. "What am I doing?" I asked as I had looked around, a puzzled look smearing over my face. I had realized I wasn't a kid anymore. I had responsibility. Working, paying bills, gas, food. Those were things that I never worried about, never thought about. When living with G-ma, I could waltz in the kitchen, open the fridge, grab something to eat (after holding the door open for about ten minutes to decide), then walked off and flopped my ass on the sofa and ate it, while watching television.
In the days of adolesence we take for granted the simple joys of our lives. TV, Food, Getting somewhere important. We didn't have to worry about bills, gas, where the money was gonna come from and how to get food on the table at the same time.
You look at todays children, and they are worried about what they are wearing, who is cool, and what to where for prom. Meager things that seem so stupid now that adult hood has pressed upon us.
I woke up, stared out MY window and sighed heavily as I rolled over and stared blankly at the ceiling. Here it was. MY LIFE. Get up, go to work for 8 horrible hours, come home sleep, find a place in there to eat, and then sleep, only to repeat the following day, and weeks, possibly years.
This is the life I was delt, the Faits had seemed truly blind when placing me in my 'role'. If I'd have known better, I would say my Soul fought to be placed here, but down they shoved me regardless of what I said.
Thus, here I sit, staring at this screen and telling all that read to treat everyone with some sort of kindness, because you never know what will happen in the end. You will never know who will help you back, or grab your hand when you are drowning. Life is only what you make of it, nothing more, nothing less.