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Yes, I know what I would expect to find here if this was someone else's blog--but unfortunately or (fortunately?) this is mine--so it's not about that yet!
The temptation I am talking about is cigarettes. Today is quit day for me. I was doing really well until my daughter got up. (My daughter is 31, married but separated, and her sons also live with us and she is also a smoker.) Anyways she had started rinsing them out when she decided she needed a cigarette. I walked into the kitchen just at this time and gently reminded her that today is my quit day. The response I got was this--either I can smoke and finish this up OR I'll go outside and you can do it.
Well, guess what I said--yes, ok go ahead and smoke. I joined her for one then and I have had what amounts to approximately one an hour for the last 3 hours--for a total of four.
Not good, not good at all! I've got to go and get my nicotine patches out of the car. I can't keep on like this--I'll never quit if I do!
I feel like such a failure, and I was so excited to be quiting today when I had gotten up. Yeah, I had had a few cravings, but like they said in my class on quitting--if you can stick it out then you can get past it and I had! But how in hell can you stick it out when it is right there under your nose?
I have no idea how the rest of today is going to go. I guess that I will try and be strong for me and see if I can't get pass this. Maybe I should get out my sword to batter those demons?
I have another class tonight on quitting so maybe they will have some suggestions.
Feel free to post any suggestions or comments. I can use all the help I can in this battle!
I'll try and get back later to check and update.
Hugs to everyone!
7/27/2006 8:00 pm
Good Luck Sweetie-
I know you can do it!
I've tried numersou times, but am still smoking.
They say for some people it's like being hooked on heroin.
I guess so....
Wish I had some good tips to help you, but I don't.
I have had friends do well using the patch.
decided to give me a heart attack! She informed me she was going to move out with my grandsons since I didn't want them here! I don't know where she came up with this, but I still haven't managed to find out why she is saying this! I've complained about the messiness, the kids tearing off the bathroom door/slamming it and it being very hard to get on the computer--but NEVER, EVER would I tell her to "get out" or that she had to leave!!!!
This hurts a lot!
I have now smoked about 1/2 a pack since 5pm today! This sucks, but I am not going to give up. I will start fresh in the morning.
7/27/2006 8:06 pm
Best of luck..I'm sitting here puffing as I tell ya this..for real..hang tuff!
Sometimes I feel that I can't win for loosing . . .
Thanks though for your encouragement! As one who cares for both you and Shaye I would love to hear that you are both trying to quit smoking too!
7/28/2006 5:10 am
Hi Vixen. Sorry about the situation with your daughter and grandkids. Hope it doesn't come to that. |
On the smoking. I have a friend who smoked, tried almost everything imaginable to quit. She finally went to a program that used self-hypnosis..I scoffed until it worked. The exercise that finally did it for her was that she had to stand in front of a mirror and smoke one entire cigarette. There was something about that experience that made her lay down that cigarette as her last.
It worked for her, and that was over 20 years ago.
Good luck on your on your quest.
7/29/2006 6:06 pm
...fishing ...was great....although the mosquitos....were bad. |
bear with me
i would take them along simply to keep the mosquitos away...as i can't apply chemicals to my skin....lol no ...i didn't enhale the smoke but it kept them at bay.
if you ...can...
think of ..just one thing that is important to you..."truly"
and when you light up...or even have the desire... shout out that one important thing. you'll begin to get my drift...
um...my flyfishing words also. gtmdrft...my license plate also...lol
Nothing is ever the same... when it comes to pleasures.
with a hint....the erotic senses will manifest into an abounding mess of flesh
the mind needs fulfillment of the body
if it feels good ...it is good
I've done it again...*S*
7/31/2006 6:24 am
It seems to me the issue is today is quitting day. If you start to smoke again, you've failed...When I quit I used a program where one day I just was a non-smoker and haven't had a cigarette in over 25 years. I think marnisway is correct, adopt a more compelling future and the smoking can stop......You might want to try freedom from smoking in 21 days, or something like that. It used to be available from the American Lung Association for no fee.|
7/31/2006 11:37 am
When it comes to qutting smoking, there is no easy way. The fact is you are a nicotine addict and that you cannot change. You can change the things around you to make it easier to deal with the symptoms of nicotine withdrawl and and the other part, the emotional attatchment that makes you think it calms you down( it actually raises your pulse and blood pressure) and the something to do with my hands. The first rule is no one is allowed to smoke around you. Second rule is find something to do when you are having a nicotine fit. Get it off your mind. It will pass. If you really want to quit, send her outside and finish the dishes intstead of smoking a butt. I quit January 3rd 1999. Haven't had a cigarette since. I used the nicotine gum as needed to get through the first few weeks to get over the nicotine dependancy and then regular gum, mints, life savers, bags of gummy bears etc..... to get over the next couple of months and then it started to get easier. I now enjoy an occasional cigar but the butt habit is gone. Good luck. Lets have lunch sometime and talk about it some more.~J|
8/2/2006 3:33 am
Let me tell you two (holding up three fingers) stories: I was managing a retail camera store, talking to a sales rep. Two minutes into the conversation I started rubbing my shoulder. Then my elbow started really hurting, then my wrist. In less than a minute my whole left arm felt like it was in a vise being tightened. In two minutes, I was on my knees on the sales floor, white as a ghost and sick at my stomach. My assistant was married to a nurse, called her and the boss rushed me to the hospital at her advice. Emergency room 8 hours. They told me I had a heart seizure, prelude to a heart attack. Full box of Marlboro in my pocket with the cellophane still on, crumpled in the trash can, never touched another . . . .16 years ago. Quitting is about motivation. Death is a great motivator, stop now!!|
Story 2: I kicked my stepson out of our home at 40 years old; he didn't start having a life of his own until I made him; sink or swim, his choice. Just for what it's worth, don't tolerate anyone, especially loved ones, putting you in a position of making bad choices.