Joie de Vivre  

VELVETGIRL69 51F
98 posts
7/23/2006 4:32 pm

Last Read:
7/31/2006 1:59 pm

Joie de Vivre

Relief, joy, and exhilaration, I am free.

How could have I been alive before, when I could barely breathe?

I don’t miss a single thing; in fact I’ve obtained a lot, including my sanity.

My heart is wide open. I am alive once again and feel free to love, and enjoy all the beauty that surrounds me.

You see, I had to close my self off to everything, so you would not hurt me.

I can sleep again without the nightmares, or go to bed when I want and not feel guilty.

Eat what I want, where I want and enjoy it without the tears.

Relief that I don’t have to tiptoe around everything for fear you will rage, and verbally insult, and mistreat me again.

I can have friends once again without distractions, or concern, wondering if you’ve secretly brought someone to our home to have sex with, while I am out.

I can laugh again, and feel good about the time I spend with friends going to movies, concerts, parties, walks and coffee, without thinking of what the consequences will be.

My soul is free again because you are someone else’s problem now.

Relief you are out of my life, and joy that I chose this, as you were extremely toxic and cruel to me.

I feel whole again and free.

Yes I am the free spirit I told you I was…and you are not around to tell me otherwise.



joseph69er2 60M

7/23/2006 4:59 pm

He must have hurt you terribly. This sounds like you went through a long period of frustration, anger, pain (physical, emotional, and mental), before emerging from the other side. I hope you are able to put it behind you and move on to a happy future with all you deserve. Keep your chin up girl!


VELVETGIRL69 51F

7/24/2006 12:58 am

Josheph69er2...Yes to all, but I am on the other side and life is so amazing and wonderful now. Great things have come my way since, I would never have believed prior. I am the luckiest girl in the world I think. Thank you for your wonderful words of care and understanding.

Hugs
Velvet


rm_ArchyNorth 43M

7/25/2006 1:15 pm

Congratulations on reaching this point Velvet.

I am sure the road was rocky and this took a lot of work and courage but I am happy to see you reached this destination.

Keep up the strength.

Archy


concupiscentKid 40M

7/25/2006 2:02 pm

I know that born again feeling.
Congratulations!


Kaliedascope61 41M
4084 posts
7/26/2006 5:20 am

freedom is everything.


ilsgicemru 72M
2822 posts
7/26/2006 8:40 am


....................... Velvet

Let's sing it now ... "Butterflies Are Free" !! ..Congratulations on your freedom !!

Tucked into the pages of my blog is my story !! .. I have not been in an as abusive relationship as it sounds like you have been . but I am struggling to get free !!

Thanks for visiting my blog recently .. I hope that you will come back and read a little more about me !!

...................... G


VELVETGIRL69 51F

7/30/2006 10:05 pm

Thank you all for your warm and loving comments!!!

Archy...Yes it was a rocky road during the relationship. Since sending him packing, it just got easier from that point on. The courage was always there, just needed to access it and implement it. Life is sweet and can only become sweeter. Thank you for your kind words.

Concupiscentkid...Thank you.

Mzhuny...You bet it does, makes me think of Skynyrd, "Cause I'm as free as a bird now..." Thanks for your visit and the beautiful spirit you have.

Kaliedascope61...Yes "Freedom is Everything." Thank you for stopping by.

Ils...I enjoy your blog and will def come back!!! Thank you for stopping by mine and wish you luck on your freedom. Peace and love to you.

Velvet


MillsShipsGayly 51M

7/31/2006 9:30 am

Wandered over here from MZHuny ... sounds like those wings are spread and ready to take flight ... lots of joy and while maybe some trepidation .. the good will outpace the bad my dear ... take flight in a RAINBOW of colors!

letsee if I did that right ... lol


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