FAT Chance.  

TurnLock 59M
454 posts
7/17/2006 4:13 pm

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FAT Chance.

I have always had concerns about my weight. I have watched myself grow from a 6-4 teenager weighing 175 lbs to a 20 yr old weighing 225 to my current weight of 305-313. I have been as high as 340 lbs. I blame it on my mother. She was a horrible cook and skipping meals was the wise thing to do in my house. Once away from home cooking and I actually began to appreciate food it was a love affair with no bounds. I have never been happy being as big as I am. My future-ex didn’t seem to mind, she did remind me to exercise and try to lose or keep my weight down. I tried when I could but with little success. I started to lose weight when I found myself walking more to catch the train or bus and I guess this helped me go from 340 to 313.

When I had my heart failure I went from 313 to 294 in 9 days. I had a lot of water in me. I have got to eliminate sugar from my life, it is an addiction. My future-ex indicates that one soft drink is the same as 37 teaspoons of sugar. Even with that knowledge it’s hard to fight that craving. I’m drinking diet pop now out of necessity, I’m diabetic. I’m walking more because I need to burn sugar, I’m diabetic. I’m starting to exercise more, because I want to live. So for me being fat isn’t about vanity it’s also about survival. I must lose weight; I will lose weight or die not trying.

I watched Monique’s FAT Chance, not as a curiosity because, I like others have come to realize that beauty comes in all sizes. Years ago, I wouldn’t have wanted a BBW sexually; my mind was programmed for the Barbie’s. I didn’t want a fat girl; I held all the stereotypes associated with over eating. I apologize for hurting you all with my unfounded basis. I saw millions of women hurting because they were considered fat and unattractive and probably belittled by society. I might not have intentional been responsibility but by association I had contributed to that mistreatment.

I watched them cry and explain the treatment they received for being big. It hurt watching that. I’m glad that Monique was smart and bold enough to produce this show. She took this negative and turned it into a positive. It was great to see what Black men have known for years that bigger is better. I saw women who were beautiful who sent my body into desire and lust. I badly want to get with Tiffany Jones that’s just enough woman for me. I thought all the contestants where beauty, attractive and desirable. This is the point that Monique wanted to impress upon us.

We look and see that there was one winner for 2006, but if you take a deeper look, you’ll see the hope and aspirations for BBW’s that didn’t exist before. A confidence that they are just as desirable as the Barbie’s and in some cases preferred over the Barbie’s. You couldn’t help but feel happy for everyone who tried and fell and for those who tried and succeeded.

nativeeaglenest 46M/35F
23 posts
7/17/2006 5:44 pm

Well I would like to first say, thank you. You gave me something wonderful to read. I was like a book I could never put down. I myself am a big person, I preferably like to say curvy. Curvy is not far from the truth, I say. I applaud you coming forth and sharing your story and your opinions. Thank you.~NativeEagleNest

So there is my two cents...enjoy it or not.~NativeEagleNest

moonlightphoenix 45F
6508 posts
7/17/2006 5:49 pm

Wonderfully expressed. Thank you.


7/17/2006 5:51 pm

Very well said darlin. I too watched that show and could relate to the pain expressed by these women.

JuicyBBW1001 54F

7/23/2006 2:40 pm

It's a daily battle for me to feel sexy and beautiful but I am trying each day to feel better about me for my sake and no others.


TurnLock replies on 7/23/2006 3:55 pm:
A balding fat man can go out everyday feeling sexy. He does so because he has confidence. Confidence is one of the traits about sexy. Don't try to be sexy, accept the fact that you are sexy and everyone else will feel your vibe. It should not be a struggle.

JuicyBBW1001 54F

7/23/2006 4:21 pm

Point well taken


TurnLock replies on 7/23/2006 5:53 pm:
Now in the morning, strut that stuff.

jazzybaby01 47F

7/29/2008 3:55 pm

Wow...GREAT JOB!!!

I'm a bbw and I never saw myself as unattractive. Men seemed to be drawn to me and I never questioned that. I always wore sexy things and always felt grown and sexy but I have friends who hide their bodies under layers of clothes, which only makes then appear larger. I think it has alot to do with self esteem. I didnt need anyone telling me I was beautiful at any size. I just felt that way.
I think Mo'nique is wonderful. Having said what everyone thought (that Big girls are beautiful) but didnt want to go against the norm so they stayed quiet.
To all my big sisters...
You are loved & very beautiful girl, now show the world.
Smoochies, Jazzy

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