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CD or not CD
CD or not CD
I've only been at this CD thing for three months now. Since beginning, I've bought lots of clothes;learned about make up;bought things that didn't work and found out what did; and been out to clubs about 15 times. It seems like I have packed a lot of experience into a short time.
Most of my experience has been positive. I've had a chance to speak at length with other girls when out and share my story. I've read other girls biographies on the internet. I didn't start dressing until age 59! A late bloomer I guess. After hearing and reading other peoples stories about how they began when 5 etc and being caught and the guilt and giving it up and then coming back to it, I think I'm kind of lucky to have missed the trauma. Some of their stories are so sad and troubled my heart aches for them. I think I'm lucky to be able to go to clubs with no legal fears. Fifteen or twenty years ago it must have been a real hassel. I've missed all that. Although sometimes problems and hassels are a way to grow. The other girls have lived it and have way more experience than I have. I don't ever want to minimize their experience. In a way they broke the path for me so that it is easier today to be a CDer. I'm grateful for that.
I love the dressing up as a girl, the feel of the stockings and lingerie, the striking difference in the way I look. It's even fun to put on the make up, even if I don't go out.
What I am wondering though is whether this a passing thing for me. Will I be doing this for the rest of my life? Maybe it's more like dressing up as someone else like at halloween. Maybe it is like a hobby. Something I just do sometimes which is interesting to me? I guess only time will tell.