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We all know the feeling. You just want to kiss someone deeply, coup de foudre, a strike of lightning to the heart. Sometimes it happens to me. I don't act on it. But I do pause, think, and breath deeply. Kissing, done well, is magnificent.
My name, my handle, comes from the poem "To Be Of Use" by Marge Piercy:
The people I love the best jump into work head first without dallying in the shallows and swim off with sure strokes almost out of sight. They seem to become natives of that element, the black sleek heads of seals bouncing like half submerged balls.
I love people who harness themselves, an ox to a heavy cart, who pull like water buffalo, with massive patience, who strain in the mud and the muck to move things forward, who do what has to be done, again and again.
I want to be with people who submerge in the task, who go into the fields to harvest and work in a row and pass the bags along, who stand in the line and haul in their places, who are not parlor generals and field deserters but move in a common rhythm when the food must come in or the fire be put out.
The work of the world is common as mud. Botched, it smears the hands, crumbles to dust. But the thing worth doing well done has a shape that satisfies, clean and evident. Greek amphoras for wine or oil, Hopi vases that held corn, are put in museums but you know they were made to be used. The pitcher cries for water to carry and a person for work that is real.
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I will always return
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Feb 19, 2012 1:42 pm
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The Perfect One has been sick for a few days. When I arrived at her front door this morning she greeted me with the tired eyes and slightly limp body of one who has been struggling with her health. I received a weak hug but I knew she meant it to be real.
She revived with juice, a few pieces of bacon and some fresh fruit. She was soon all over me, kissing my diamond earring as if she had just discovered it, playing with my rose tattoo (the other men in her life are ink-free) and stroking my short, tight beard. It did not take long for her to insist that I dance around the house with her while she sang a song nobody else knows, a song she made up on the spot. She placed her head on my shoulder and wrapped one arm around to my back and gave it a slow tap-tap-tap with her hand when she was especially satisfied.
The games continued for three hours, things she does with nobody other than her adoring PawPaw. Her Mom, also sick, remained in the background amazed that TPO was ready to play. TPO wasn't her usual talkative and laughing self but she was and is still more charming than most adults.
She loves me, I know. I did not have children of my own. Two decades ago I married a woman with two fine teenaged daughters who have grown into spectacular women. One has given the world TPO. She is not of my blood but I love her more than anything else. I am blessed by knowing her, by receiving her love, by giving her my love.
I drove for four days to see her. I will fly out tomorrow but return to be with her for one more week in March. I rarely know when I will next see her but I live for those moments. I will return and I will always be there for her.
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my heart is pounding and I can't sleep
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Feb 19, 2012 6:13 am
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I can discern the differences between a crush, deep lust and true love. Each one makes my heart race but only one keeps me awake at night and that is true love. I am in love and cannot sleep, because I will see her tomorrow after months apart. When I close my eyes I see endless movies in my brain about us together, what we will do on our Sunday together, so I am out of bed and back to my blog, a release I hope.
She loves fresh fruit, juice, bacon and muffins on Sunday morning so I will visit her bearing those gifts. We can cook eggs when I arrive. We love feeding each other with our hands, much more fun than forks. Anything that falls on the floor is easily cleaned later, if the cat does not get it first. I will bring the NY Times with me but she is never impressed by the paper. Trash TV on Sunday morning is more her style.
The weather is supposed to be kinda' crappy, so we will likely stay in and share the couch. Her couch is pretty small so we will have to cuddle together, but that is not a problem since The Perfect One just turned three years old and fits nicely against me. TPO is going to love my new Sesame Street video with Los Lobos singing a variation on one of their classic songs, "Elmo and The Lavender Moon" (she loves Elmo and me. I love her and anything she loves).
Is it okay for a grandfather who is in love to get sappy here?
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my heart is pounding and I can't sleep
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Feb 19, 2012 4:49 am
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I can discern the differences between a crush, deep lust and true love. Each one makes my heart race but only one keeps me awake at night and that is true love. I am in love and cannot sleep, because I will see her tomorrow after months apart. When I close my eyes I see endless movies in my brain about us together, what we will do on our Sunday together, so I am out of bed and back to my blog, a release I hope.
She loves fresh fruit, juice, bacon and muffins on Sunday morning so I will visit her bearing those gifts. We can cook eggs when I arrive. We love feeding each other with our hands, much more fun than forks. Anything that falls on the floor is easily cleaned later, if the cat does not get it first. I will bring the NY Times with me but she is never impressed by the paper. Trash TV on Sunday morning is more her style.
The weather is supposed to be kinda' crappy, so we will likely stay in and share the couch. Her couch is pretty small so we will have to cuddle together, but that is not a problem since The Perfect One just turned three years old and fits nicely against me. TPO is going to love my new Sesame Street video with Los Lobos singing a variation on one of their classic songs, "Kiko (Elmo) and The Lavender Moon". She loves Elmo and me. I love her and anything she loves.
Is it okay for a grandfather who is in love to get sappy here?
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