The_Wraith_1969 47M
203 posts
12/15/2005 12:26 am

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Last night while shopping for some grub, I ran in to an old neighbor of mine that still lives next to my daughters mother. She asked me how I was doing, and I told her fine, except for the fact that Christmas was closing in and the chances of having my baby girl with me for the Holidays was dwindeling.

She looked at me real sad, and said she was sorry, and that there was something I should know. Well, being the paranoid lunatic I am, I quickly responded to her, more or less begging her to tell me. She looked at me and told me a story of what happened a few days ago.

While unpacking things from her car and carrying them into her Apartment, she could hear my daughters mother screaming at my little angel. She said it halled all through the house. She could hear my daughter at the door, she obviously wanted out which after what I say next, you can imagine why.

The screams grew louder, and then came a loud bang against the door. She said you could feel the thud as if an Earthquake had struck. Then, she heard my baby girl crying, on the floor, in front of the door.

I automatically broke into tears. This broke my heart into even more pieces and I am strating to think it will never mend. I cried the whole night, wondering what was happening with my daughter at the moment, was she ok, was she smiling, or cowering in a corner in fear from her mother. I prayed. I am not a religeous man, but I prayed to God or whoever was listening to help me get my baby girl out of that situation. It is one I never wanted for her, one that I knew too well as a child.

German laws and bereaucracy(however it is spelled) keep me from being able to do anything about it, and I think this is totally WRONG! I was up to this point just fighting for visitation, but now I want full custody. The only problem is convincing the neighbors to DO SOMETHING about the violence my daughter is experiencing. My daughters name is Sarah. I have a poem here, that killed me when I read it. Just a thought, to all of you. Please, if you know of such happenings, do something about it! If not for the children, then for your own peace of mind!

> > *~*~*Sarah*~*~*
> > >
> > >My name is Sarah
> > >I am but three,
> > >My eyes are swollen
> > >I cannot see,
> > >I must be stupid
> > >I must be bad,
> > >What else could have made
> > >My daddy so mad?
> > >I wish I were better
> > >I wish I weren't ugly,
> > >Then maybe my mommy
> > >Would still want to hug me.
> > >
> > >I can't speak at all
> > >I can't do a wrong
> > >Or else I'm locked up
> > >All the day long.
> > >
> > >When I awake I'm all alone
> > >The house is dark
> > >My folks aren't home. !
> > >When my mommy does come
> > >I'll try and be nice,
> > >So maybe I'll get just
> > >One whipping tonight.
> > >
> > >Don't make a sound!
> > >I just heard a car
> > >My daddy is back
> > >From Charlie's Bar.
> > >
> > >I hear him curse
> > >My name he calls
> > >I press myself
> > >Against the wall.
> > >
> > >I try and hide
> > >From his evil eyes
> > >I'm so afraid now
> > >I'm starting to cry.
> > >
> > >He finds me weeping He shouts ugly words,
> > >He says its my fault
> > >That he suffers at work.
> > >
> > >He slaps me and hits me
> > >And yells at me more,
> > >I finally get free
> > >And I run for the door.
> > >
> > >He's already locked it
> > >And I start to bawl,
> > >He takes me and throws me
> > >Against the hard wall.
> > >
> > >I fall to the floor
> > >With my bones nearly broken,
> > >And my daddy continues
> > >With more bad words spoken...
> > >
> > >"I'm sorry!", I scream
> > >But its now much too late
> > >His face has been twisted
> > >Into unimaginable hate.
> > >
> > >The hurt and the pain
> > >Again and again
> > >Oh please God, have mercy!
> > >Oh please let it end!
> > >
> > >And he finally stops
> > >And heads for the door,
> > >While I lay there motionless
> > >Sprawled on the floor.
> > >
> > >My name is Sarah
> > >And I am but three,
> > >Tonight my daddy
> > >Murdered me.
> > >
> > >There are thousands of kids out there just like Sarah. And you
> >can help.
> > >
> > >Sickens me to my soul ??
> > >If you just read this and don't pass it on I pray for your
> >forgiveness,
> > >cause you would have to be one heartless person to not be
> >effected by this
> > >email. And because you are effected, do something about it!!
> >All I am asking
> > >you to do, is take some time to send this on and acknowledge
> >that this stuff
> > >does happen, and that people like her dad do live in our
> >society,and I pray
> > >! for child abuse to wither out and die, but also pray for
> >the safety of
> > >our youth.
> > >
> > >Please pass this poem on because as crazy as it might sound,
> >it might just
> > >indirectly change a life. Hey, you NEVER know.

PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
12/15/2005 4:52 am

*HUGS Wraith* Please have the neighbor call the authorities on that woman... It enrages me beyond measure that anyone would mistreat a child in any way. Your ex is building up some really bad karma, and it's not always paid for in a following incarnation.

I pray the system sees what is going on and gives you complete custody of Sarah. I know she'll be much better and happier with you.

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

The_Wraith_1969 47M

12/15/2005 6:11 am

PrincessKarmaThanks for your prayers, I need all the help I can get. Justice truely is blind until it is too late.

caressmewell 53F

12/15/2005 7:11 am

Ditto what Princes says. The neighbors need to report this NOW!

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
12/15/2005 8:07 am

Wraith I so wish I could do more than offer my undying support..
but as Caress and Princess have both said...Get the neighbors to solidify with you.. Together you can bring Sarah home..
you're in my thoughts !!!! (((((((( hugs)))))

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

Wackytits 53F

12/15/2005 9:52 am

Wraith....My very best wishes to you and you're daughter. Good Luck. xx

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
12/15/2005 11:24 am

You're in my thoughtz, as is your little girl. I hope the neighbor will find the courage to ACT

~ hugz ~

saddletrampsk 54F

12/15/2005 11:48 am

Your daughter is in my prayers..go to the authorities and let them know what you have heard from your ex's neighbour

_Safira 53F
11260 posts
12/15/2005 1:15 pm

Dear Wraith ~

As a victor over tremendous childhood abuse and now an advocate for children and teens experiencing the same, I can only applaud you posting this. Please know that you AND Sarah are in my thoughts and prayers.

I tell you NOT to give up hope ... and to always let Sarah know (at an age-appropriate level) that you ARE trying to be with her and that she is the most precious gift you have ever been blessed to have. Trust me ... she WILL remember.

I'm with Saddle ... DO go to the authorities. Have THEM question the neighbor. TALK with your daughter's pediatrician ... AND see if there have been visits to either the doctor's office, urgent care centers, and/or hospitals for "falls" and such. Chances are that there are medical records somewhere.

Please feel free to write to me ... and DO keep me informed.

*gentle hugs*


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freetime648 52F

12/15/2005 2:05 pm heart goes out to your daughter and to you. Be strong and do everything you can do to make the neighbors help you by reporting these incidences. This is the only hope this poor baby has. This and of! You must remain calm and use your head now. You will get your baby girl...patience and hope is on your side. God Bless to you and to Sarah....I will be praying for her also! I may not be around AdultFriendFinder much, but I will check blogs to see how this is going, anytime you need a shoulder, please let me know....I have two you can use!!!

xx FREETIME648 xx

The_Wraith_1969 47M

12/15/2005 9:17 pm

WackytitsGoddessOfTheDawnsaddletrampskSafira[photofreetime 648]

Thank all of you very much for your loving words and kind support. It means alot to me. I just wish the neighbors would do something. I am going to go and have a talk with them this weekend. I have let the Child Welfare Office know, but they are in no hurry here. Just last year a little girl died because of neglect. She should have been going to school, but never did. She was locked in her room, no food, no water, and with electric wires sticking out of the walls. It released a shockwave of anger here in Germany, but the CWO hasn't done anything to change matters much, no new laws, nothing! It is disgusting what happens around here, makes me really want to puke. Me being the father, they don't believe me when I tell them(the authorities) because they think it is just a move to try and get my daughter back, a lie in their eyes. I guess I am going to have to contact the American Consulate here to see if they can help. It just can't go on like this. I never have hit my children, and never wanted my daughter to have to experience that. I just want her to have a normal, happy childhood. God Bless all of you and once again,´I thank you from the deepest of my heart!

p.s. I will be a standard member for a while, so I am not able to contact any of you, but I will keep you informed here if things change.

demonicsexkitten 41F
10671 posts
12/16/2005 12:43 am

Dear... i'm so sad to hear this My thoughts and prayers are with you both. Good luck!!!

curious082385 31F
4925 posts
12/16/2005 4:22 am

I know that you love your baby girl with all your heart and that this is tearing you up inside. Hugs to you, my dear. Just remember that the best thing you can do for her right now is to stay focused on the court proceedings and try not to let anger, however justified, cloud your judgement. Once you win custody, her life will change 100% for the better. You have my prayers and are in my thoughts, as is she.

The_Wraith_1969 47M

12/18/2005 9:14 pm

curious082385Thank you both. THe letter I recieved Friday from the court was a copy for me on what my daughters mother wrote as grounds for me not seeing my daughter. Nothing but lies and made up stories. How can someone be so cold. I never did anything to her mother, it was her that stepped on me while I was down, but I had the courage to go on on my own, without her help, in a strange land.

oneeroticgal 42M/39F  
207 posts
12/18/2005 10:41 pm

I work in the education field with younger children and all to often i see telltale signs of neglect and sometimes even abuse...

Every single time my heart breaks...

Keep your head up and do the very best you can...

This is all any one can do...

I just hope that it is enough...

Heart felt hugs from across the world...

The_Wraith_1969 47M

12/19/2005 6:04 am

Thank you for your kind words Playful and welcome back! I personally have missed your presence here°

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