Another Dawn ...  

TheQuietGuy2005 54M
3484 posts
8/15/2005 7:17 am

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Another Dawn ...

Sometime during the night the duvet has slipped down and now the early-morning light shining through the gap in the curtains casts a golden beam across you, a spotlight falling gently upon the curve of your breast, your shoulder, your slender neck.

I said I'd wake you before I left but it is hard to do. I sit here instead and look across the room at you.

Part of me wants to reach out to touch you, to stroke your hair, to let my fingers drift gently down your spine, to feel the warmth of you. Part of me yearns to climb in quietly beside you, move in slowly and gently close my lips around that nipple standing out so red in the early light.

Once I would have done so and I know exactly how you would have responded and what joys would have flowed from such simple actions.

Once I would have done so but not today, nor ever again. Our bed is now your bed and the pleasures that we once shared are not on offer now. We've tried to recapture what was lost and have attained heights of physical pleasure that have surprised me ... but, inevitably, the pain of loss has always outweighted the pleasures.

I wonder how much you'll remember of last night when you do wake. You drank too much and said some things that I would rather not have heard (in vino veritas?). Will you remember the gentler, more loving things you also said or the way that I helped you up to the bathroom, the way I cleaned up after you, the way I undressed you and helped you into bed and then sat by you, holding your hand as you wanted, until your breath settled and you slipped safely into normal sleep?

Of course you won't, my love.

So I grab the last few things as we agreed last night and shove them into my bag, then take a last, lingering look around the room.

And now I must wake you to say my goodbyes. When next we meet it will not be as lovers. Maybe it'll be as friends, maybe as concerned co-parents. I just hope that it's not as enemies - that would be a sad ending for our story.

For whatever the future may bring, I shall always cherish the happy memories of a love shared and a life built upon it.

But now you stir as the floorboard creaks under my foot. I must wake you and leave.


rm_EE407 41F
3903 posts
8/15/2005 12:51 pm

(((((((((((((((((( Q ))))))))))))))))))))

TheQuietGuy2005 54M
2386 posts
8/16/2005 9:57 pm

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rm_dizzyandfun 48F
752 posts
8/17/2005 9:00 am

Big hugs.......thats so sad xxx

diz xx

TheQuietGuy2005 54M
2386 posts
8/17/2005 10:34 am

It was, Dizzy, it was ... but now I feel strangely calm about it.

I really mean it, I can see the good memories that were lost for a while behind the painful ones.

But can I still have the hugs?

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11240 posts
8/18/2005 2:27 pm

~ sendz warm hugz ~
You are a rich soul for being able to celebrate the good even tho it was followed by other emotions

~ smilez ~

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