The hardest part of love is letting go  

ThaRealLiv 43M
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5/28/2006 7:00 pm

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6/7/2006 7:39 pm

The hardest part of love is letting go


But sometimes it's the only way.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 3:11 am

You were beautiful inside. He conditioned you. You were strong. You loved. He hurt you. You still loved. You left. They conditioned you. You loved. You backed out on them. You ran. They found you. I suffered. I'm alive. You were always beautiful.


ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 4:17 am

You served America. You were never afraid to die. Only afraid to kill. You didn't back out because you hated America. You backed out because you loved your father.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 4:49 am

It hurts me that you don't know any of these words I say, because I love you, and I want you to know, but you won't let me tell you. You wanted me to be strong. I am. But who are you running from. Fishlips? He doesn't want you gone anymore than I do. He's been hurt.
He's more powerful. But Fishlips has a heart. People with hearts will not hurt you. They only defend Fishlips because Fishlips is stronger. But Fishlips has the ultimate say. It is up to Fishlips to end the war. It is not your fault if he doesnt. It is a war between families. If the horrors of the war still exist in your mind, people will look on you with disgust because they don't see all of it. There were many victims of the vietnam war. You are not an exception. Fishlips doesn't know how to forgive you, because he doesn't understand why you fucked him. He doesn't know you're part in the war. If you don't want to tell anyone, that's up to you. But don't run from the world. Walk the streets with pride before you leave, knowing that the war started before fishlips. A war which you were never meant to be a part of. It is not in your nature. You've always wanted to love. Your father imprisoned you. It hurt you that he didn't appreciate your love inside. That lonely boy crying in his room, wishing someone would love him. Wishing for it more than anything in the world. This was you. This hurt inside was you. The place that no one saw. If only someone could have seen it. You left home and joined tha marines. You still wanted to love. They trained you to kill. It drove you mad, because your love was strong. When you got together with my mom, the war was still in you. You wanted to love as much as you ever did, only you didn't know how to anymore. They took that from you. They needed to take it to defend the country. You made the ultimate sacrifice for America, and America loves you. If they don't, then fuck you America! The ones who hate you don't see all of it. The ones who love you do. We understand. Your life was hard. But you were beautiful. No one could see it, but I do. I know who you are inside. I've seen it. It kills me when you hide it. I try to reach you, but you push me away. You kept war secrets from us to protect us. I know about the bodies. His Nanny told me. you were only doing duties in a war that was sicker than you. You are not a sick man. You are a product of war. Look deep. Y ou'll find it. I love you.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 4:51 am

War is a product of love. A love broken only by borders.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 4:54 am

I need to know fishlips. Our colors will only be out when the war is over.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 4:57 am

The world needs to understand the big picture. They need to see the reality. They need to understand what war does to a human. Hating it only furthers the war. Our true colors will not be out until the war is over. Only then, will we find peace with the truth.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 5:01 am

I guess what I'm trying to say, is I can't let go. I'm sorry. I know you think it's best for me. But I know in my heart that it isn't. When you suffer, I suffer. I don't want to suffer anymore.
I want you to fight.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 5:07 am

Our pain hurts them. They don't know how to help. No one wants to hurt anymore. They need to speak up. I want them to fight for you, like you fought for them. You don't deserve to be left behind. I want people to understand. It was never your war. I want them to show you that. Please let them.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 5:08 am

Please let me know, if they do. I love you.

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 5:32 am

Fishlips was a tough cookie. He had more on the gun then you. but don't forget. He's still the same guy who crossed his eyes and sucked his lips in. It was funny you you. You liked him. The war may have made you both forget that. He doesn't cross his eyes and suck in his lips anymore, and if he looks hard he may remember running under your legs to grab that sack of money before you decked him. If he has the power to stop crossing his eyes and sucking his lips in, then he has the power to forgive you. He's probably more man than you think. He has his own life now, but fond memories still exist if you both look hard enough. The love is there. Look inside yourselves. You'll find it. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

4biddenlove4us 49F

6/7/2006 10:47 am

Sometimes dreams are better off not real.
Old yearnings drain away through open gates.
Regretfully I tell you how I feel,
Yet with wounds that time will have to heal.
It has been said that it’s better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride!
We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we have.For love is what is left when you let go of everything that you do not need!!!
I Love You too!!!

ThaRealLiv 43M

6/7/2006 7:36 pm


ThaRealLiv 43M

6/7/2006 7:39 pm

Were you tha one who told COCOA to talk to BOSS? Give me an answer that I'll understand!

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