more boring stuff  

Tahlathali 33M
26 posts
9/13/2005 4:48 am

Last Read:
3/5/2006 9:27 pm

more boring stuff


Not much has been going on recently. I've been pretty busy with my classes. I should be getting a new job here some time this week. I'll be working in a pharmacy. I haven't been able to do much else because of school. I usually just sit around at home, doing homework, playing a game or two, reading, or watching movies. Though yesterday I was talking to a girl at the gas station. She is going to try to get me set up with a girl she works with at the grocery store. I found out the other week while at the grocery store, that the cashier (girl that getting set up with) lives less than a mile down the road from me. I never knew anyone like her lived anywhere near me. But other than that nothing else has really gone on. I should be starting back in group therapy next wednesday. Well, I have to get ready to go to class. Talk to ya'll again later.

Loosetooth 41M
1146 posts
9/13/2005 6:04 am

Can I ask something? You obviously find communicating difficult but it does seem to be rather selective and dependent on your outlook. A good blog will contain details of talking to a woman and some kind of brief description of activity (i.e. Tae Kwon Do and the gaming girl, or this blog, I mean did you know the gas girl?) whilst in a bad one you will despair at your ineptitude and berate yourself as a failure. So what is the larger problem here? you cannot communicate with people or you suffer from depression and an identity crisis and ostracise yourself from people as a form of self harm?


Loosetooth 41M
1146 posts
9/13/2005 6:06 am

or both?


Tahlathali 33M

9/13/2005 5:16 pm

Actually I do find communication difficult. Yes, I know the girl at the gas station. She was a customer of mine a few times when I worked at a movie store about 2 and a half years ago. I'm still trying to recover from a really bad depression I went through this past spring, and had another bad episode over the summer. Most of the time I am balancing on a knife's edge between good day, bad day. The slightest thing that goes against me and it's instantly a really bad day. At those times, I usually end up beating myself up mentally. But then, if one really good thing happens during the day, I tip in the other direction. Suddenly, you can't keep a smile off my face, and I can't stop thinking about that good thing that happened. So I guess you could say I have a little of both problems.


rm_Balanon2 48M
193 posts
9/14/2005 12:09 am

Humm, this sounds familiar. Are you on any medications or have you just been doing the therapy? You're attidude and feelings strongly remind me of myself until not too many years ago. I didn't get help until I was even worse off, but I still suggest you ask for a Zoloft perscription or something similar. For me, Zoloft took the edge off emotional effect events had in my life. I still felt the feelings, but they didn't seem as deep. It allowed me to start reacting to events rationally rather than being at mercy of my emotions. With the emotional rollercoaster ride over, I found I was able to deal with life's problems much better. The side effect was a reduced libido, but at the time I found this to be a plus. I almost never suggest medication to anyone. It's just that depression can very serious and a really bad streak of luck might be too much take.

As a warning, good luck with the grocery girl, but DO NOT get invested emotionally with thoughts of her before anything really exists. Remember that most guys get rejected ten times for every girl that accepts them. And that's just to get date number one! Nothing personal in a rejection, it's just part of the numbers. You'll actually do better, act naturally, and be more appealing if you haven't already attached an expected outcome to an encounter.


Tahlathali 33M

9/14/2005 7:16 am

I do take zoloft. I've been taking it since I got out of the hospital back in april. I have noticed that the sting of emotional events has been eased, but sometimes I still get those really deep, bad feelings. My doctor even had the prescription increased the other month. I try not to get emotionally invested when I try to ask a girl out. But most of the time I can't help it. Personally, I am a very sensitive guy and I get attached to people and pets really easily. Sometimes a little too easily. I don't know how to really get over that.


Become a member to create a blog