Want to be my friend..  

Synn74 42F
1142 posts
8/26/2005 11:30 pm
Want to be my friend..

Sitting here thinking about what has happened here in blogland of the last few days..
I am torn between two worlds happy that I have found people who can understand what it is I seek in life and is there encouraging me that I'm not alone.

Then there are the ones who feel that it is time to move on but forever leaving their mark upon this place and my soul that I shed tears upon realizing I will never be blessed with their prescence anymore as it can be a lonely moment in one's mind.

I can be such an emotional creature that I can grieve for the friendship I will miss out on..or go the complete opposite and not care.

I HATE feeling this way ...but my heart is so tired of being subject to rejection pain and loss.
Have you ever just wanted to be loved so completely you're almost afraid of what it is you'll find inside of yourself in searching for the answers.

There are days I am lonely yet there maybe 20 people around me..I want to feel the way I feel when I am here among friends. Happy and glad to see those who are dearest to me. To be loved is sometimes harder for me to accept because I feel so unworthy of it at times.

To those of you who I have become friends with
thank you to each of you.. You have walked with me throughout this journey and I am grateful for your friendship it is a bright spot in this corner of my world.

((( hugs to you all)))

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
8/27/2005 8:58 am

thank you both
TxRose ..I am just saddened over The departure of TattooedArtist..
his blogs are beautiful and I will miss them.
And I Have been missing Jez as well I hope she returns to us happy
I just never realized how deeply someone can affect you with words till they're gone or moving on..

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
8/27/2005 5:56 am

Oh, I guess you will need to fill me in on what is going on. While I am active in Blogland, I have been swamped with my 3 jobs which has made it rough.

Rest assured that, even if some people do leave Blogland....there are many people that do remain -- and, part of the draw in remaining is the friendships that we have made as well.

Times are tough and some are leaving because of economic reasons...and some leave because of the antics of AdultFriendFinder...

However, even AdultFriendFinder knows that, with every one person that leaves, there is at least one more, if not hundreds more that join in the process. There will always be friends out there to reach to....albeit differing friends at times. Throughout the months I have been blogging with AdultFriendFinder (since April 2005), I have come to realize that there are some that must move forward and onward - which is similar to whatever community that you live in; it is just that, in the computer world, it may happen at a faster pace.

We all need friends...and I would never turn a friendship away. Hoping that you continue to get the warm fuzzy feelings when you come to Blogland no matter which of your friends are here or not!!!

Your friend...


bccclasmate 52F
10 posts
8/27/2005 4:52 am

Be glad you have a handful of TRUE friends at this time. My friend is going through the same thing. He recently cme out as a T Girl and some of her friends are just shutting her out totally. She is very hurt and I am there as a support system for her...As long as there are a handful of true friends lat love you for you don't worry. The others will come around. Its a shock to them and maybe they are iinsecur about their own sexuality. Don't worry and be happy....

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