Synn74 42F
1142 posts
2/6/2006 6:24 pm

mood: hell

Today is one of those days if I could rewind or completely erase I would...
A day that started out as a catch up day ended with me sitting here numb and tired...

First my daughter who has been sick with the flu we assumed went to my mom's for an hour so that I could go pay bills ect...

While out I learned one of the guys whom I had a major crush on through jr high n high school the guy who I shared a love of KISS with we would share headphones and our soda with each other on the bus rides to and from school over the course of 4 years and one of my very first kisses had been in a car wreck killing 2 and leaving himself in a vegetative state in which they removed him from life support this past Thur

he died Sunday afternoon leaving a wife and 4 daughters behind he would have been 32 in March... I don't even know if I have it in me to realize my grief... tears yes... sad completely I feel like someone knocked the breath from me...

But on top of that I ended up taking my daughter to the doctor a 5 yr old should be acting 5 not 70... well she has strep and mono...
double whammy again..ugghhhhhhhh

So there was a day I would rather forget...

thank you Cartman just saying I'm sorry made me feel better ... you're the best baby!!!!

Goodbye Chris may you RIP I'll miss you always...and Know that anytime I hear "Forever" I'll be reminded of you... I love You Cougar

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
2/7/2006 6:36 pm

oh wow sharks thank you!!

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

rm_sharksnsails 45M
738 posts
2/7/2006 6:04 pm

I'll try this from memory:


Oh Beth I hear you calling,
but I can't come home right now.
Me and the boys have been playin,
and we just can't find the sound

Just a few more hours, and I'll be back home to you,
I think I hear you calling,
Oh Beth what can I do?
Beth what can I do?

Sometimes it gets so lonely
and house just aint a home.
I'm always out there playin,
and your always home alone...

Just a few more hours and I'll be back home to you.
I think I hear you calling, Oh beth what can I do?
Beth what can I do.

Beth I hear you calling,
and I hope you'll be alright,
Cuz me and the boys will be playin,
all night.

- Gene, Peter, Paul, and Ace

peace and healing

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
2/7/2006 8:46 am

going to his visitation tonight morbid as it may seem I NEED to see that it's really my Chris there ... and I will not be attending the service but he's being buried close to my father so I plan on taking him flowers one day maybe on his b-day (3/14) to tell him my own goodbye...

I'll be glad when this day is over too...

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

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