Synn74 42F
1142 posts
11/12/2005 5:34 pm

How can I sit here
pretending all is well
when deep inside it's
feeling like pure hell

We seem to be going through
the motions
of total blissful devotion..

We rarely touch at all
except a kiss and hug
you tell me you love me
and you probably do..

As the mother to your child
not the woman of your dreams..

What would you say if I had
a beautiful crush..
and how his hope has given me quite
a rush..
but don't worry I'm sure he
isn't interested in anything more
than friendship..

would you notice or care
how much bolder I've become
to my own dares..

I sit here
and you again in front of the tv
an all to familar scene..

What more is there to gain..
after almost 7 years

To be loved completely is my goal
a want to be made whole..
a need to be wanted
not rejected..

Not when it convient
or in a little while
sex isn't as important to you..
atleast not with me..

So I'll sit here tonight
telling myself all will be

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

EroGenOusKitty 41F

11/14/2005 7:43 pm

awww Synn this really tugged my heart.... I remember going through this in my marriage. Sad how within a marriage we seem to mature on different paths.... I ended up leaving my husband because I had wilted to nothing inside and wore too many masks on the outside.

Saint and 63469 have said very powerful words that are so true

Dreaming in Color and Living in Texture...Ero

634694u 46M

11/12/2005 10:28 pm

One day at a time buddy. Anything worth having takes hard work.

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
11/12/2005 9:59 pm

thanks SL
all I can do is my part..the rest is up to him..

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
11/12/2005 7:39 pm

It will be alright Sinn, you watch and see. It may take awhile but any deep change always does.

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