Synn74 42F
1142 posts
5/23/2006 9:22 pm

Why is it that life feels the need to test one's emotional ability to the point you feel as if that there is nothing left to test...

As you all know last Wens I lost my hubby leaves for 4 weeks of MP school this week..
and last night I found out a man whom I cherish more than he could ever know imformed me (he didn't want to tell me so soon)

that he is suffering with a brain tumor that may or may not be cancerous..

Okay..I can take going to the dr..learning I'm gaining weight because ofanxiety meds despite doing my damndest to lose..ending up with a massive sinus infection and the meds causing an allergic reaction and breaking out in hives...benadryl chasers...yum

I can handle my hubby leaving since rejoing the military and his unit being upgraded to Alpha 1 status (don't quote me on that)..knowing some type of deployment immenent within the next 12 months. And that I'll be need of friends .

I might even understand that it was indeed my beloved Grandfather's time to go...he was tired and at peace so going on to a better place was a great comfort for me..and we told each other we loved one another 2 days before the Angels gave him wings...


Why...must a 31 yr old beautiful loving man go through what he must and why can I only wait for news being 6000 miles away from him...he knows I love him..yet I feel so helpless watching a man I love so deeply endure the unknown and I can't even hold his hand...but I will tell him I Love Him Everyday


I welcome you to the House of Syn...

rm_LoyalCumpany 46M
3204 posts
5/24/2006 12:27 am

Life is quirky. An adventure. Sometimes good, sometimes pit of the stomach shitty.

I am JoJo the Circus Boy!

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