I'm Thinking Goodbye ..  

Synn74 42F
1142 posts
8/28/2005 12:56 am
I'm Thinking Goodbye ..

Song: "Crying" Roy Orbison w/ K.D Lang
A kalidescope of emotions are pouring through me right now ..Sadness anger, jealousy , WANT Regret, rejection NEED it's so hard to put into words..

This past week has been difficult for me in many ways..But I THINK I have decided to leave AdultFriendFinder ..partly because I feel as if my prescence is no longer needed here.. And that I will only end up more saddened as each day goes on..

There are SO many of you that have enriched my life in my year and 3 days I've been here and I will miss you dearly.

One being the most difficult to leave behind.. because I Feel he offered friendship and he's made me realize I'm not alone in my feelings and that there are men with beautiful souls fully capable of giving their all in this world and the woman he chooses I feel will be extremely lucky.

I always hoped to find what it was I was/am seeking but I guess I am not supposed too not now anyways maybe never.

I guess for now I'm meant to be alone.
Unless I can figure out a great reason to remain here.

And leaving blogland behind may very well prove
difficult for me to do *sighs*

* As the tears fall within the silent mourning of my soul know that you will never be forgotten*

Love Syn

*finally going to sleep as the sun peeks in the early morning hours*

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

rm_absixxxbg 32M
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3/2/2006 2:18 am


harley63662 60M
10 posts
8/29/2005 7:37 pm

I've just now read your profile and the comments written here. I believe that one should never give in or up. Life is very short and the only memories we have are the people we meet and get to know. I think you would be a wonderful person to get to know. I'm searching myself for that magical "something", but haven't found it yet, but looking is half the fun. Stay and see what is around the next corner, you may be surprised at what you find. I'd be more than happy to chat with you sometime.

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
8/29/2005 12:35 pm

well said Mizzouhoney..and thanks for stopping by

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mizzouhoney 46F

8/29/2005 10:55 am

Just because you haven't found what you're looking for here doesn't mean you have to leave. Do you KNOW what you are searching for?.. What your soul longs for, the things you desire so that you may be whole in body mind and spirit? Any place, such as this, that introduces new people into our lives introduces new experiences. With those experiences we come to understand better what we need not just in other people but in ourselves as well. I say stay girlie, we get one go around in this life so we all better make sure we're having a damn good time!

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
8/28/2005 4:37 pm

Jez I have decided not to as a dear friend or 2 both showed me I matter more than I thought ..so glad to have them in my life!
I was mainly heartbroken at the loss of others and I tend to become extremely emotionalwhen my friends are hurting.and eventhough hubby isn't alwasys as consoling he did say that leaving you all behind is easier said than done ..

So here I am..

I welcome you to the House of Syn...

Synn74 42F
1206 posts
8/28/2005 12:39 pm

Thank you Rogue.. I HATE the thought of leaving..you comments mean alot I still haven't completely decided still in limbo

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RogueDragon 60M
213 posts
8/28/2005 5:35 am

One must do what they feel is best, but I hope you chose to remain. Maybe it is a selfish reason, but after finding you here I had hoped to learn more about you. Interesting people, especially with good looking boobies, are hard to find.

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