It had been a while...  

Sweetgenie_girl 41F
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8/15/2005 10:58 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

It had been a while...

So this evening I went on a date.

I’m usually never nervous about going on first dates. Mainly, because I have no expectation whatsoever. I just go with the flow of the moment. But when I told a friend I was going on a date, she got really excited for me and was a bit disappointed that I wasn’t as excited or nervous. Then she went on and on about what was so fun about going on dates: finding the right outfit to wear, putting on sexy lingerie, wearing make up and perfume, trying to find interesting subjects of conversation to casually bring up, etc.

So this morning I decided to get excited about my date. I gave myself a pedicure; I took a long bath and used that special peach body scrub I keep for special occasions. Then I went on to carefully pick my clothes. I wanted to wear something that would impress him. I have no shame in admitting that I am a total fashion victim. On a good day, I can manage to stick to just one fashion trend, but this morning I wanted it all: peasant skirt, layered tank tops, Indian-inspired shoes, super-size jewelries, multicolored plastic bracelets, and the list goes on and on. But I quickly came to my senses and decided for the sexy-demure combination look. I opted for my favorite irresistible blue cleavage top worn with my most comfortable denim capris and matching flip-flops. But I did wear the sexy lingerie and perfume (heck, I even brought the bottle for a touch up right before meeting him). And finally I allowed myself to get excited. I felt excited over meeting my date who had presented himself as a funny and charming man. I even let myself give in the anticipation of feeling total harmony and bliss. I didn’t repress that tingling sensation I felt over the hope of getting seduced, charmed, amused. And for the first time in a long time, I even wanted to like this guy.

I wanted to feel all this simply because it had been awhile since I allowed myself to have those feelings.

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