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after 151 party
after 151 party
wow i really love these parties i go to the peole are great i have soo many new friends...but its so very hard it brings back so many memories it also makes me sad. i want to kep going but i hate the way they make me feel sometimes. I keep thinkin it will get easier & itdoesnt then when i feel like it does someone will ask me about him... i hate that because i have alot of pride i hate it when other see me cry or i show my weakness, sometimes i cant help it though a comment or a question will catch me off gaurd hit me like a football to the chest & it takes my breath away & it hurts then its so hard to remain tough & not cry . thats when i think i shoudlnt go anymore but then as a few weeks go by i feel stonger & i wanna go i miss my friends so i go but then it happens again so what am i to do? i really just want to run away & hide sumtimes because i dont know what to do everyone says time heals all wounds but it doesnt feel like a day has gone by like it was ysterday that he left xcept i miss him & everything else feels the same not like its fading or going away at all .. i wish i could take a magic pill fall off a cliff get amnesia or sumthing so i wont hurt bt for now i just keeppluggin away i am ok i am good ....maybe sumday
7/28/2006 10:39 am
The only thing the heals is Time.
And that takes time.
I know that don't take the pain away right now, but know this.
It WILL go away.
Just that hope helped me deal with it.
Good Luck and Ride a Cowboy.