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Guess who's back... Back again.
Guess who's back... Back again.
I woke up early today with an excitement that a young boy feels on christmas morning. The reason was, that today, I was going to do some shopping. So off I went. I bought myself an LG DVD player home system thingy and that
was bout all. The TV stand I wanted was not in stock. So I got the number of a guy who can make me one to my specifications as well as some awesome couches that I been hunting down for awhile. I went and got some paint samples and a few decorating ideas. I thought that seeing as how I am going to be over hauling my life, why not my house too. O.. How could I forget, I bought an awesome PS2 game aswell. When I got home I connected my PS2 up to the DVD system and let me tell you that being single is definately not going to be a problem anymore. Not when I get in front of this thing. Hehe... Boys and their toys (This one also has a remote Kitty, but it doesn't vibrate)
Anyways... Long story short. I consider all my ex gf's friends. Some of them we get on better now, as mates, than when we did when we were together. So, I been in contact with one ex in particular. Im not going to go into too much detail bout her, seeing as how she is still involved. But let me tell you, when we were together, I thought she was the one. Awesome
personality, great sense of humour, hot body, little nympho and just as nawty as I was. O... wait, there was that one little thing. She left me for a guy over a decade older than her and who could provide, at the time, more to her financial needs than what I could.
I reckon its becasue of this that I am so anti superficial and materialistic ppl.
So... Back to the story. We have been smsin each other often over the past few years. Just as friends. When today, the conversation kind of got serious and emotional. In no time she ended up at my place, only for an hour, but my god, what an hour it was. I now know that the problem with my last relationship wasn't me. Because today, there was passion, there was urgency, we were trembling, out heartbeats beatin almost out of our chests, she smelled so good, and tasted just as sweet as I remember. We couldn't get enough of touching one another. All my built up physical needs over the past year or so, exploded in a huge climax of climaxes. Now I've always been keen on tantric sex but wanted to wait until I met someone, so we could do it together. But I am sure, along with my partner of the day, I experienced multiple climaxes. She was screaming, I was moaning... We completely lost control and indulged in each other. For lack of a better word, it was perfectly earth shattering.
Almost every up, has a down... And here was todays downer.
When we were done and we caught our breaths and our heart rates returned to normal. She's liein in my arms shedding a few tears, as she did often after we used to make wild, emotional and passionate love. She turns and looks up at me
and says: "This doesn't mean Im coming back to you." I was stunned... The only thing I could muster out was, "I've accepted that Looooooooong ago."
I dont and never did want her back... But I think that its because she needs to feel wanted and she is not currently getting that from him.
I, do however, feel a tad bit guilty because she cheated on her bf, but then again, he was tapping that ass when her and I were together.
The guy she left me for doesn't take her shit and I think I am kind of her escape. With me, she always did feel in control. Coming over and having this awesome sex, kind of lets her feel like she is?? (Im not sure. I know we both wanted to) I dont think it will happen again and Im not sure I want it too. There too many emotional factors involved, for both her and me.
But... My point is this. I know Im fine, I know my lack of a sex drive was due to being with the wrong person. I have been, released, so to speak. I felt something that I haven't felt in a looong time. I felt horny baby... I am back...
SuperAdventurous is here to stay...
8/13/2006 8:09 am
I had a similar experience in college with an ex-boyfriend. We loved to have sex, but we just didn't get along. We broke up and remained friends. I met someone else and we dated about a year. However, every time I would get with the ex we would some how end up in bed. I have to say it was some of the best sex I have ever had. However, the guilt I felt, the feelings about him would always overwhelm me and I would just feel bad. When we graduated from college it ended. I broke it off with both of them. This is my first time stopping by. Great Blog! |
8/13/2006 11:04 am
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